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Day 787 – Vivacious – for what is best for all

Vivacious – for what is best for all

 

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I was made aware of this word, vivacious, starting within a numbness in my left thigh. Actually my thigh felt totally dead and “rotten”. And I contacted and asked for support from the Quantum Change Kinesiology, (QCK) team, and I was shortly after give details of matter – to what was metaphysically taking place in my thigh – and beyond – of my mind. Human memory is most often stored in the general body.

This word, vivacious, or crispness, lively, spirited, I have been living within a personality as a coping mechanism,  to suppress a negative point within.  I have been using this personality also without direction, noncommittal. This have been a balancing point within me to suppress a emotional point of sub-conscious character. So I have been living this vivacious and crispness/lively/spirited manner, to suppress a negative point within.

So I would like to dissolve the negative point through self forgiveness, and exposure,  and also to pick apart the positive vivacious, personality – and rather live that word vivacious for real, without the personality, suppression, and with a proper direction and commitment. To extract this word and “neutralize” it, delete the polarity and components,  from myself, and then use vivacious, as a redefined word to my everyday living.

 

So what I want to do is to take the ball in my own hands and score a 3 pointer, and end the game totally lol. So I have already forgiven and I am working on the negative point that I would like to suppress. The details from the QCK session are many and deep. Point is for me to see through this vivacious character because it is based on believes. I give myself permission to live this character of vivaciousness, from  some specific believes that I have been carrying with me. Positive believe structures of mind.   Like: I believe I can chose to be happy without any reason, or  I believe my inner child, or I believe I am loved etc. I have this personality of vivacious (crispness, lively, spirited) arranged from believes. So understand: I have been living this vivacious character to hide and suppress a negative point within myself. I need to deconstruct the polarized character, work on my suppression point,  and live the word: vivacious in itself as it is.

So what does it mean for me to be vivacious without the personality/polarity ? It means to be a bit silly, clownish and lively. And it would mean to take direction to a common good, to dare to break the ingrained pattern, to see best for all solutions taking place in the moment. To express. To be that catalyst of change to bring solution to the matter. Like if I standing with my dishes together with the people who I share house with, and the situation is a bit low or out of touch,  I can suddenly start to sing or make a joke, to actively share some of my solutions being vivacious, and silly/lively/creative. So that is what I can do In such a moment. To dare to be a bit silly.

 

We all could need to be more silly in a creative, and supportive way, we all enjoy being silly ! In times like today we could all enjoy to be more silly or like a clown. So this is my point that I would like to evoke within me, to express and live this word: vivacious – for what is best for all in any situation.

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art by William Karlen

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build up believes and ideas within to access a positive, vivacious personality, making it difficult/impossible to access this word without taking on the believes and the personality in itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is difficult or impossible to live this word, vivacious, without adding some believes to it, like making it a recipe of programming that I have to follow – a programming without direction, commitment or standing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in such moments of creativity and daring to be silly/clown, I would let the small things, the doubt or nervousness win me over – and limit me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build up this personality to cover over and hide/suppress a emotional/negative point within and to use this vivacious/crispy personality to cover for my negative point within my sub-conscious.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a personality based on believes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the need to suppress anything emotional within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look into my subconscious.

 

 

When and as I see myself wanting to live this word vivacious, I stop myself I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that I must dare to be brave and have courage to express myself and to dare to be silly, in such moments. I realize that it is my responsibility to create the best solution in any given moment.

 

I commit myself to live vivacious and “spirited” – clownish, more often, by slowing down, breathing, being self honest, and just do it !

 

These links are super – potent with the finest of support

– I am living proof

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

 

 

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Day 717 – Self forgiveness on new living words

Connecting with my beingness

Self forgiveness on new living words relations

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my life become unorganized and rather chaotic as of my insides and my outsides, mind and living would become so messy and unstructured that I would think I have to move and change my location – to think that if I only move there will be structure and organizing in my life – somewhere new – like with a consumer logic of consciousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I have to move and change my car and my computer my clothes etc, change my life style to become “new” and to find more peace if I only changed, failing to realize that self and being was here always, I just have to wake inn to it and live that origin of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that the origin of me was always here as my being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to give up my old self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to addict somehow to being messy and unorganized.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that schizophrenic people are supposed to have drug addictions, alcohol issues, and lots of different sexual partners and that the life of a schizophrenic is supposed to be painful upside down and sorry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame consumer culture and politics/media for how I have been living my schizophrenia and for judging and blaming the world out there and not taking it into myself what is my responsibility/origin.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relate “strictness” and “obedience” and “rules” and “control” to the words stabile and organized.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see police and military as institutions that follow on that path, and that is nothing for me to get into – pushing the words stabile and organized away from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the military and police and control institutions “win” these words, stabile and organized.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand equal and one to police and military.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can learn from police and military.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to walk into a stabling process of myself and to improve my living to that extent that I can and that I must live these words but I would fear to be to organized and to fear to be strict with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I have to live these words, no other choice, and to make it into a ultimatum within myself to live these words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go rounds with myself in my mind of if I should live these words or say “fuck it” and give up my process.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be strict with myself, like I would fear strict parents or teachers/masters and I would fear to hear the voice calling me to obey.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to obey to other peoples rules and likings fearing to not live my life and within this I would not see that I was myself all the time, I have to find stability and organizing myself back into my beingness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to do mistakes with becoming more organized and more stabile, where I should rather celebrate these wrongs and my faults and learn from them.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust on the consumer type of life style thinking money can buy my way out of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I failed to see me and to see my true collours and to live my beingness but rather take my beingness as my enemy and fight myself within so without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of it as  a great “sin” that awareness about beingness is not taught at schools and for feeling sorry for all the people who walk on “blind”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see my path in my life as where is my purpose and  what can I do in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a life in mind chaos and disturbances in my life and to disgrace stability and to fear to face my true self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail/fear to live the word stabile.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail/fear to live the word organized.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I have been living the polarity of these words and for simply doing and living the opposite of “stabile”, and “organized”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how I have limited my creative ability and creation powers within living “unorganized” and “unstable”, from my experience of living words and living creation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find myself programmed to fight my origin and my true self (being) and for a long time have judged this path and awareness that my mind, body and being have now showed me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find myself pretty lost and “dirty” of all my past extravaganza and living in mind occupying mind and looping and fucking around with my mind, simply doing no good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how we all have separated us from our origin and how we treat each other is a mirror of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like curling up and fearing to take on this task of living words stabile, organized, structured, colorful and symmetric.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find myself pitying myself greatly from not having seen what my origin was and that it came as quite a surprise to me what my origin was/is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am pushing the opposite of stabile – mostly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a work load in fearing to connect with my beingness – when the opposite is reality, from a “comfortable” living word solution.

Even though I have lived so many years without stability and organizing, I see today that I can be that stabile guy, I can be organized and structured and I can make this happen. It is a matter of living words and discipline.

 

I see how I can live these words ; organized and structured for the best of my ability and to better connect with my beingness. I see these words as solutions now, and I will live them in my life/acting.

 

 

 

 

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Check out SOUL – for how to live words

 

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Day 683 -Creating a better world

Creating a better world

 

No need to claim that this world is busy waking up and changing. People are seeing the deceive of mind and systems. The lies of banking, education, wars, news, entertainment govern-mind and so on… It is a long list and it is all lies…. And we are waking up like NEO in matrix.. one by one…

 

What does this mean ? It means that we are and we still need to create fundament of support and care for all of sustainable and ecological best for life: like Venus project lol. To me that is a cool goal to see created.

 

And so I have a goal. Venus project. Heaven on earth. Anarchy – the perfect order etc…How to get there. By creating part time goals and walking steps everyday to get to that point of actually building the Venus project (or other genuine supportive and best for all solution)

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So by committing to everyday walks to take steps everyday in that direction and to have goals and a ways to work towards that greater goal. Part time goals in between – then you reach that goal in the end…

 

Creating new structures and fundaments, concepts, businesses  and service and platforms to further bring goals like.. the Venus project further. Consistent work every day towards that goal is key. Part time goals, everyday goals… until we are there!

To use the old problem, solution and reward recipe is also a good way to work and write. The in debt understanding of self is also very vital to be able to take  complete responsibility for self and self creation, which is rare today. Very rare.

What we accept and allow to go on these days, of atrocities, is beyond imaginations and is rooted in us like brainwashing and programing.

I want to explain to you something here. And that is how the point of control and “unit” of ..control way back behind all curtains and all the layers of control,  and conspiracies (!!) … that very point of unit/control/enslavement have been taken out. It is no longer here. You may think this sounds like star wars …and that is not far from the truth. We all should know now by now,  that we have been had. Big time. The brainwashing have been complete and to the extreme with all of us us… all we have ever known – have been lies… and lies and  lies.

 

That is why we can say stop, and realize that we must take a 180  degree turn. We can create  utopia, Venus project and beyond that. I am not joking. The very establishment of control and … be – lie – ves are not in “real” power any more, as the very core “product” they were serving have been taken out. I can explain all this is details, or you can go to YouTube and search through the millions of videos explaining the lies…. but I think you deep, deep within you understand my words.

 

So what time is this? This is the time of consequence,  and also the year of creation. It is time to create a better world, new supportive and best for all solutions.  Together we can walk towards a great goals of oneness and equality.

I am busy creating a better every day for mental health within psychiatry.

New platforms and new democratic instruments are here. We already have the opportunity to have direct democracy, all the solutions are out there, waiting to be used. Hidden by the mainstream media, and the “old” lies, rooted back at self and mind.

You like me are the key to betterment. Lets walk and create together. Life is waiting for its creators to create, a better world for all, Venus project and beyond…

I have walked a creation process now for more than 4 years. I have gotten over  possessions, obsessions, voices, addictions, imaginations, personalities, believes, judgments, fears, emotions, feelings, mind games, anger, sorrow, thoughts, sabotage, self hurt, suffering, self pity, secret mind, mind fucks….  and literally tons and tons of metaphysical material that I was carrying with me. All this I leave behind, like nothing  from walking my desteni i process.

I stand changed here, in creation. Will you create with me ?

 

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Day 673 – Perceived Righteousness

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sugar coat my opinion,  within giving into my perceived righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself excused to modify reality or to change and manipulate reality out of desire to be perceived by others as superior and great.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I forget to accept things as they are when I sugar coat reality to further bring on my verdict of perceived righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the act of perceiving something about a situation and then within the flick of a second, make a judgment based on my believe of being superior and feeling blessed, where my judgment is there for valid within my perceived righteousness and from within my mind – making myself the big looser eventually since this has consequences – to myself – like a boomerang.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and deny from having a  blessed/believe of perceived righteousness and failing to see the boomerang effect striking back at me – knocking me out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see with real – eyes how myself granted perceived righteousness strikes back at me with full effect and making me loose and making me face consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that issues of living with perceived righteousness is not my type of problems and ignore it and there for not something I would bother to look into investigate – having a  point of resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe of myself as blessed and within this feeling/believe of being blessed I grant myself the archetype of being a judge and a ruler based of believing myself to be blessed and therefore in a position to judge and to moralize others from superiority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to open up the point of being blessed out of fear of being called out/bullied for being a spiritual or Christian or a Buddhist and feeling fear that others would judge me out of religious or other types of bashing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and deny for feeling “blessed” and for  feelings “spiritual” or living “a believe” within my life and from my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to find myself within this concept  that I have a “be – lie – ve” and for the feeling of resistance so, and feeling like I want to reject and dump the “be – lie – ve”  from myself and within this dumping of believe I am serving my imagination and fantasy/movie in my mind and simply slaving to mind with energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act in perceived righteousness and in a believe that I am blessed and I know best – acting out like I am superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of myself as blessed for the country where I live and the life that I have, failing and rejecting the parts of myself that is based on be – lie – ve and being righteousness, failing to see that I have not yet lived  but living a lie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to se with real – eyes that my perceived righteousness is something I step into from this role when I am about to act – do something/communicate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my perceived righteousness is mostly active when I act out and specifically when I write on facebook.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to think of facebook as my territory to play and mess with making judgments and to moralize over what I find there, acting like a judging robot, and communicate there with my perceived righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of facebook as the place to be if you are blessed of carry believes and to make myself the supreme judge and moralizer from my feeling of blessed and feeling righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how we end up correcting each other and bashing each other on facebook, not living the meaning/purpose of life as in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in doubt and fear out of thinking If I don’t have my be – lie – ve, I must then live in fear/doubt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that if I don’t live blessed or inn righteousness I will lose and live in poverty and in inferiority, failing to realize that poverty and inferiority is a consequence of actually living in being blessed and within righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see within myself how deep this lie of blessed or righteousness goes within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a need to “lift” myself up, that is based on ego and on playing the polarity game and making an ass of others and  to boost myself on energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into ego and failing to see each and everyone as one and equal, with giving into stress and anxiety within my mind and within my body.

 

When and as I see myself ending up going into a state of feeling blessed or having a perceived righteousness. I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that if I go into acting within feeling blessed or righteousness I am living a lie, and I am clearly not self honest or fully responsible within myself. I real – eyes that in order to end  my perceived righteousness, I have to change how I act around certain activities. I realize that for me to have less consequences facing myself or others I have to become self honest and responsible with myself – as a starting point.

I commit myself to consider ONE more time before writing on facebok.

 

I commit myself to check myself ONE more time to be certain I am not acting in a be – lie – ve or in righteousness.

I commit myself to take my time and dump my be – lie – ves and to dump my blessing and my perceived righteousness.

I commit myself to be modest and commonsensical with leaving/dumping believes and not give into imaginations when doing so.

I commit myself to change in my communication and in my way to talk to people, particular on facebook.

I commit myself to listen.

I commit myself to consider and to be real, self honest and responsible.

I commit myself to stop sugar coating reality, accept things as they, are and rather work with that in responsibility.

 

 

have a nice day !

Day 635 – Self judgement was my struggle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it has no effect to say to myself “I will not judge myself” because of what happened when I was 6 years old playing nude games with neighbors and within this I forgive myself for taking it so hard a impact for being caught by a adult and with this I tell myself to stop judging myself for that episode,  I was a child and it was all programs and energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for judging myself for everything that is ever bad within my life and for taking everything very personal and blaming myself always pointing back at that one point of being caught by that adult when I was 6 years old.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project guilt and fear and self judgement onto others, ending up inferior and depressed, when I see how emotional dimensions within me shape according to that one memory of being caught by a adult at that time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my fight through growing up have been guilt and self judging for all so many years.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would seek church, alcohol, drugs, psychiatry and so on, trying to cure myself from this guilt and judgment that I have to face, I was doing to myself.

When and as I see myself feeling like going into guilt or self judging, I stop and I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that this fight was that nobody would win and like any war there was only losers participating. I realize that I can through focusing, directing, breathing and slowing down, I can end my self-judging. I can end the war and find peace with myself. I realize that self judgment only has losers and that one is me. I commit myself to slow down my tempo, and to focus on what is supportive, like living words, breathing and directing myself, slowing down, and to finally be done with the fight and have peace. I commit myself to give myself access to life and to live my life in every breathe. I commit myself to live my life for what is best for all and inn that is also, best for me.

 

 

Day 603 – Personality of acting in despair

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This world is inn a dire state. No doubt about it. And even if you do not buy into the typical climate crisis – which is mostly hype, there are serious problems in this world as of what goes form nature and animals and how we treat each other as living beings. Slavery, abuse, violence, war, poverty, rape, pollutions, crimes, and so on. The list is long. These are a few of the serious points that would lead one into a path of emotionally reacting. That is right, one gets emotional buy looking at the amount of work that lies in front of us. The tasks are huge and complicated. And like I said it is difficult to not go into emotionally reacting over this. And that is just what I have been doing. The way this plays out is like I go to facebook and I write out inn emotional reactions what I think of this world and its condition. lol like if things get any better from doing that.

It is like shooting myself in the leg – because all I do is to create commotion it seems. What I should do is to promote solutions and commonsense orientations. I should be able to finish with a smile. There should be a comfortable solution to all challenges, and tasks – without need to go into emotionally reactions.

This plays out within the polarity as negative with reacting and judging people for all the trouble in this world. I go into blame and judgment after having read some news or seeing a police brutality video. It plays out negative within the polarity with me becoming mad and aggressive over news and I fail to see the bigger picture and how we could solve it.

The positive polarity is like after I have reacted, I do self forgiveness on the reaction and I use common sense to pull myself out of reacting. The positive reaction of this polarity personality further sees what a cool place this world could be if we used the solution that are already here. Like to provide a living income to all, to end the war, and so on. A positive polarity of dreaming and projecting how a solution could be like.

I realize that the trouble lies within me going to facebook, and updating my status. Like going to war sort of speak. I would carry blame and blame is exactly that: b – lame.

We need all the cool and comfortable solution and we need them now. We need to change the technology, science, education, economics and work. To name a few. Self forgiveness is one of the cool tolls to use to get more comfortable within self and to realize self further and to release energies from ones body.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions and emotionally friction over how I experience this world and its drama based on egoism and abuse, around this world and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame politicians or bankers, CEO’s or billionaires or any other human being on how they act and rule this earth, where I see that they simply act out of pre programming and cannot be blamed, and I realize that blame is lame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that I am emotionally reacting in certain glimpses and in certain conscious moments within my life, and I that seek to get this out of my head sort of, I would seem to dump these conscious energies on facebook, instead of dealing within in common sense and with being solution oriented.

When and as I see myself reading some news or seeing a disturbing video, that I feel I am reacting to. I stop myself I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that no one is benefiting from my reactions. I realize that I should take away my reactions. I realize that reactions are making my life more complicated. I realize that I should be able to stop myself take breathe and pull myself out of the reaction. I commit myself to, when I feel urge to react, I take a step back and I pull myself out of the reaction. I commit myself to take a step back and breathe. I commit myself to look for comfortable solutions before I make a decision. I commit myself to what is best for all.

When and as I see myself wanting to write in despair because I feel so badly for this one point. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that there is hardly a solution in writing in ager of in reactions. I realize that anger and reactions are like going to war/sickness and no one wants that. I realize that I should dig up some common sense to go with my issues and my writing/problem. I commit myself to take a pause and to breathe instead of writing in despair. I commit myself to quit writing/acting in despair.

Check out this cool interview:

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https://eqafe.com/p/the-design-of-polarity

Thank you !