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Day 796 – separation of life

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we are all extensions of each other

 

Separation is a highly interesting point. Because as life we are all one. That is a pill to swallow. One. Not two (in separation) – not them or others and ego. Life itself is one. Equal and one. So separation exist. Because of the human experience. This is me balancing myself – bringing me back to me.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give my “will” into the sneaky or calling (somehow) of desire or need or habit/addiction, from the back of my mind, to bring myself to go into separation of myself (physical) as life, from where ever in my body, directed from my mind and patterns, where within this I know that we are all one, the other life form (human, animal, plant, beyond ) is a extension of me, they are from the same origin, like the same as me, we are all equals.

Where, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear or dread that it is a human “thing” to go into separation of the self, the physical, by those terms I mean to go into thoughts, thinking, gossip of mind, projections, doubt, angst, blame, etc where, I know that i do not in fact need to go into separation as the separation in itself is self abuse, abuse of life, and self sabotage.

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not dare to  open up, to expand, learn and evolve as sound, as life without going into the stress, angst, fear for having to prove myself to be of some result that I would imagine is expected of me and then just end up looping myself in my mind/mind fucking myself.

Where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crawl back to my starting point of why would I need to (again) go into separating myself from life (?) where I see and realize and understand that I need to define my starting point and correct myself so.

Within this lies pieces, blueprints and direction of myself stabilizing my schizophrenic mind, me learning self authority and self honesty, me learning to live.

Life is oneness and equality in equilibrium/balance – where are we  ? How are we living ?

 

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– I am living proof

https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

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Day 702 – Day 9 – Thoughts and thinking

Day 702 : Day 9 : Thoughts and thinking

 

…….did you ever wonder why

you where not taught how to

think (??!!) … in detail and specificity ?

 

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Day 9 of 21 days of walking with self forgiveness

 

I will take on the challenge from my brother : Gian Robberts on walking a 21 day trial of (only/daily) self forgiveness on points. I will walk these points of self forgiveness for self/world change during 21 days.

 

Here is Gain’s Blog :

http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.no

21 days of self forgiveness on key points.

The points will be that kind of relevant points as of this world and our living.

Money, sex, politics, work, religion, mind  and so on.

 

Day 9: Thoughts and thinking

 

Please read loud for best effect

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a urge and a need to “think” only to be normal and accepted by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sick and repulsive of most commercials and pop songs, and politicians and in general culture and consumerism,  where I see how they manipulate and hide from the naked truth, covering them self in corruption and glam/playing the ancient game of divide and conquer of people to be ruled/mastered into the old self sabotaging of “thinking”, further; I realize that this feeling of sickness and repulsiveness is traceable back to myself and my living to take responsibility for /instead of projecting it and thinking it away in images/mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like my thinking have been corrupted and twisted by government and capitalism and into mind consciousness slaving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how cap – I – tal- ism within the very roots of the word, promotes to cap – cut – off and separate physical into system and to separate from self and “control” and self direction into mind, system and capitalism from the pristine child, naked and true/unpolluted into form and system/debt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how we are suited into obeying to thoughts from our very birth certificate and from that birth certificate our very “value” of the estimate of money is given to the crown corporation of London under operation of the sovereign pope of Vaticane the law from Washington and that this triangle is in charge and command of all humans on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how se inn self honesty that the origin of thoughts is paranoia and trauma deep within my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to call body communication for thinking and by doing that validating myself to go into thoughts and thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine nature and animals and life around me as thoughts when thoughts and thinking is a direct separation of self and physical within just that: thoughts and thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for more than 30 years with the idea of thoughts as normal or cool or acceptable, when it is deep, deep down a violation and separation and sabotage of self / flesh /my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word to “think” even though I am not thinking, I am not in separation, more like frozen in the moment – studying it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to confront people with the fact that thinking is a  way to sabotage self and in great detail and specify to hurt self from within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the color read in my head as this mushroom or bubble in my head waiting to be cut off and to be “spun” first as muscle tissue, entity /(God), and then into reactions, personality driven direction and psychology.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to speak the truth about thoughts & thinking because of  fear of what people would react to my words and how people would react to my sharing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like blaming myself and judging and hurting myself for carrying this deep down truth of what thoughts and thinking really is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that in a split second and in a moment of stress I can go into thoughts and thinking and end up like I am sabotaging myself  simply, because of allowing the separation of my own muscle tissue from my body, and from this awareness of allowance going into great fear/paranoia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like thoughts is ok sometimes like with desires or with self pity, like that candy every now and then simply feeding the abuse/sabotage/separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think to myself  that there is no other solution to metaphysical than to go into thoughts and thinking like with separating myself from myself, or project this entity out onto others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to reason with myself that a stabile body communication and awareness of self is a cure and a solution to this suffering of separation of self, and that awareness and quantum mind are keys together with living words and breathe act.. that there is many tools to use to prevent thoughts and thinking even though most turn to alcohol, drugs, addictions and medication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sense this clear difference between thinking and awareness, where awareness is more like sane and trustworthy solid and supportive, while thinking is more like direct sabotage and pain.

We don’t need to think – no one have likely taught you in detail/practicality – how to think (!!) , as it is a war inside of your head/mind and life would be better for us without thinking. Thinking is a sabotage of self and not at all a intellectual manner.

 

Thoughts and thinking is a very corner stone of the old mind consciousness slaving system.

Thoughts and thinking make you less, but don’t fear your thoughts,  use awareness instead, and learn to forgive self  !

 

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Thanks: enjoy breathe !

Day 693 – Black & White

Black & White

 

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Black and white. Good and bad, right and wrong, red and blue… dividing us, separating us with lies… (be – lie – ves) from programming.

There is very many subliminal and direct messages served to us on a daily basis. The shifting between black and white and chessboard design where patterns and trickery that we see, playing on our programming, especially on the (TV) screen is massive.

We are tough to be-lie-ve that light (white) is something to cherish and to follow. We are singing songs about to follow the light.

We are programmed (!!) in school and by parents to believe in the light. To favor the white light. We are told stories about God/Jesus/ etc and The Devil/bad and so on. We are thought that white light is good and darkness is bad and evil. We are tough to suppress and hide/deny darkness, and to cherish and praise the light.

 

From mainstream media we can see how news from Afghanistan, Kenya, Sudan, Nepal etc…. are not equally important to us… or that is how we are raised to be-lie-ve. This turns into the egoism of racism.

There is very, very much deceive with the white light. Consciousness is white light energy that wants to live eternally. We force yourself to live by the light and we are thought by school and system to serve consciousness and to serve the old systems of abuse. The old lies from yesterday.

 

We are told to praise and follow the light, a light who makes us blind and then we are robbed and murdered because we are walking blind. Blinded by light, robbed and killed by greed and egoism again: because we are weakened and blind.

I suggest this is something to investigate for everyone.

Do you want to live and slave by consciousness (thoughts, reactions, personalities, imaginations, backchats, fears) or not ? Do you know what consciousness is ? Do you know what it does? Do you have consciousness defined to yourself ? I suggest to have  a clear understanding of what consciousness is… and how you have been living it.

One thing is certain:

If you are to work on psychology on self and to walk off some data and mind, unschooling of self and face some internal demons, you most likely have to work through some darkness. You will find yourself as you have to embrace that darkness within and forgive it and live the change.

When it comes down to it, light is just light and darkness is just darkness. No need to complicate it. But truth is that we are complicated it is a difficult puzzle – but anyone can walk it. And sooner or later we all must walk it and become free of all our programming.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat something different or to act different if i see or experience black or white and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach positivity to light and negativity to darkness and to separate the two, from my be – lie – ves that I as they must be in separation as of thoughts and “how it is suppose to be”.

 

 

 

http://wiki.destonians.com/The_White_Light/Soul_Construct

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Day 533 – Stop the separation of self

What is me.
Stop the separation.

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I realize that I am going head on into some stress within my daily living lately. It comes and goes. It is the stress of feeling like separating from the parts of me that I would think of as some old trolls or skeletons in my closet. From the past.

I have a few skeletons in my closet. They are there. I need to embrace them from time to time to make sure that they are my responsibilities to handle, and I notice that I would fear them to be exposed to the sun shine or to the public conscious, and I further realize that I would fear to have them out open in the open, out of fear of separation from that and of letting go of the responsibilities of the memories. Because I must not forget that these memories are a part of me. They make who I am.

I realize that I have done everything that I can do to remove the energies from these trolls or these memories. And if there is components that I can work on still. I will do that. I realize that I must from now include these memories to my living and to my responsibilities of who I am. I realize that I must let myself escape from myself that would be separation and that would be wrong, and conflict.

And this is one of the BIG points in life. We as humans are seperated from mind. And it is driving us CRAZY. That is some of the purpose of why I am participating with desteni. To become equal and one with my mind. And literally everything.

It is a life chore to let go of the “hook from the past”. It is important to be one, total and genuine and responsible with self. Lets walk it together.

http://desteni.org/