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Day 562 Living words : control

Living words : control

Current allocation: I see that within this word I think of control of myself. I think of controlling something like a bike or a car. I think of having a personal control within and without of myself is precious. I also associate with the ruling hand or ruling force of government and political or other ruling elite of the world. I think it is also very related that If I have control of myself within myself I am then also having good control without of myself. I think that control should be limited and that the system should “float” without friction and that one should not need that many controlling forces at all. I think there is a lack of real control in this world and that the majority of, controllers/police/lawyers/judges are being deluded.

control
dictionary definition
1. to command, direct, or rule.

Etymology:

control (v.)
early 14c., “to check, verify, regulate,” from Anglo-French contreroller “exert authority,” from Medieval Latin contrarotulus “a counter, register,” from Latin contra- “against” (see contra) + rotulus, diminutive of rota “wheel” (see roll (n.)). From a medieval method of checking accounts by a duplicate register. Sense of “dominate, direct” is mid-15c. Related: Controlled; controlling.

Sounding of the word

con – troll – Mocking/deluding the troll. Speaking negative of trolls.

county – n – oil – A country that have oil.

come take the oil – One country robbing other countries its recourses.

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Polarity attachment
negative : fear, judging, blame, guilt, shame, sorrow, anger.
positive: responsibility, change, honest, best for all, make perfect.

Creative writing. This is about conning or making the troll pay its taxes and to share its treasures. The troll have been mocking and scaring us for too long. From nose mythology and fairytale the “troll” – where old “demons” and they often had great treasures and lots of money/gold – that they had stolen from the humans, in hidden caves. The old trolls from the past must be brought out. Like the trolls within finance or war systems and warmongers. Corruption and scams must be exposed and melted in the sunshine like the troll from the fairytale. I realize that today the trolling elite/corrupt elite, is also controlling the controllers/police/judges and that must also change to expose the really nasty troll so that what is best for all can come through. I realize that the ultimate control is no control like the perfect oiled machine that needs no maintenance or repairs. No trolls. That is the kind of system we must create. Where we do not need to be paranoid and controlling with each other. Control must be lived, from within so that one within do not need internal medication or repairs or recovery at all. One must run/live like a perfect machine: the body. And from there inspire others, and create what is best for all.

Self forgiveness:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control and to live the word “control” because of how I simply wanted to live my life as a irresponsible person and to not take responsibility for my life and my living and “not give a fuck…”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I become angry when I see that the people in charge , the real demons behind the curtain does not get caught, still, at all, because of lacking control, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry as I notice that the people that are doing the abuse is in control of the controllers and that makes the whole system corrupt and wrong and in need of real control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad form the poor people and the not informed people of how this world is stitched together, that I would think they deserve to know, where I go into guilt and sorrow because I fear to tell people the honest truth and I start to fear they live in vain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I become angry and sad from seeing that the controllers are violating people’s rights and hurting ordinary and poor people because they are protecting the real trolls and the greedy elite and doing so hurting the poor and the ordinary people with riot police etc..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could make the perfect system that would be to live the word control where we would not have to be in con – or deluding each other, and there would be no trolls either as we would live in equality and in consideration without abuse and in control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my mind does not want to live in control where I realize that the mind only wants its energies and if I can control myself I will stop the addiction of giving energies to my mind and to rather live in control and without friction/thought/reaction/paranoia/fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that only police can control, where I give into the thinking that we need controlling police when the abuse and the paranoia and the corruption in the very, very center of the “troll” is not being dealt with, and it is not taken into consideration on how for instance all wars are bankers wars and how we are trolling each other all the time in all sorts of situations and relations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would fear to take on to myself control because I would fear to fail and to fall, and to go into judging of myself within this and I would fear to take on to myself and live the word control because I do not want to be seen as different or as special.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can not be in control because I have this diagnosis and label with me from mental hospital and doctors diagnosis of schizophrenia.

When and as I see myself given a chance to live the word control or I face this word, I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that I want to from here on, live this word, and not fear it. I realize that I want make sure the we do create a perfect system like no system based on equality and oneness, and what is best for all. I realize that when I take on word I take on responsibility. I realize that it was a cool experience for me to bring out this word and it feels empowering to work through it. I commit myself to go through words that are possessing me and that I have certain relation to, like a polarized relation to. I commit myself to work through words. I commit myself to live words so that I can live, what is best for all. I commit myself to bring to awareness/forum, words and to expose and defy words. I commit myself to live/write words until there is no friction/reaction/fear/paranoia left in relating to any words.

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Day 560 – I need to stabilize

I need to come clean. I need to clear out energies and obstacles from my 3 former, compartments of mind. Subconscious, unconscious and conscious mind. These 3 “old ” units need to be totally cleaned out within & without of me. For me to be able to move over to quantum mind and quantum physical. For further understanding of what quantum mind and quantum physical is, I suggest to seriously investigate time with desteni.org

I need my 3 units of mind, that I have lived with for so long time, serving energies to them, to be clean empties out completely. All the nitty gritty. All goes out. All forgiven. Now I have lived and given into energies to these 3 units within my mind, for 30 something years. Now it stops. I want to change and stabilize as quantum – mind and as quantum physical.

I will walk out self forgiveness on all the energies and the issues that are within these, former controlling units. I will empty out all the stuff from my mind and my head, and my former controlling units that are simply old constructs of mind and sucking energies out of me and control of my life. I will walk into quantum mind and to quantum physical. And I need to slow myself down within this. I need to stabilize within this kind of thinking and working. I need to stabilize myself within my process of working with quantum and physical mind.

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What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of my desteniiprocess and my studying of psychology with desteni to be simply to speed through, and get it over with and move on from , and that there would be new changes all the time for me to be challenged with new things all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is always change to everything and that since everything comes from somewhere it will always change, failing to realize that I am simply brainwashed by commercials and Hollywood to think that what is new is always best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that since I am stabilizing I will not change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that rushing into something will get we anywhere.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that change must come fast.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am desperate to stabilize.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control of certain elements of quantum mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control within quantum mind and within elements of quantum mind because I would fear to have to give into tunnel vision and to be a victim of the drug called “hope” and to hope to be able to take control of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I need to real stabilize myself in a form of here that will lead me to more control and more direction within my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control in my life because I relate the word control to that of police and military and government rule and to archaic society structures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will not manage to control my quantum physical and my quantum mind and that I would need to balance between these two ways of life and living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that quantum physical and quantum mind goes hand in hand.

I realize that there is a lot of responsibility involved here. I must stand and take responsibility for my quantum mind and my quantum physical. 100% of it, 100 % of the time. I need to stabilize myself and ground myself here as breathe and here as my roots/feet and my body.

When and as I see myself thinking that this is just one more change within the race of changes that I will push myself through to get to the end/goal. I stop myself and I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that I have to sort of make my nest here, I will have to learn what I can from these two types of common sense/mannerism. Quantum mind and quantum physical is my life and who I will live my life and living within what is best for all, and for the future. I realize that when I stabilize here, I will not fall that fast;  into reactions and possessions. I realize that I will have to get to know my quantum physical and my quantum mind. I realize that I must be rooting here. I commit myself to root myself here to be the best leader that I can be. I commit myself to stabilize myself here as breathing and as awareness and common sense, that I would need to bring change to the world and to my environment. I commit myself to live in quantum mind and in quantum physical.

Day 558 – Irritasjon / anger / malfunction

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I realize that I today have some instant fall backs within my mind & living, and within my way of letting things get into my mind, and create a bother out of it. I let into myself grains of sand, issues, I react inside to them with anger. Instead of seeing the pearl wisdom of these things can be,  I get irritated and angry. It is like I let into my mind, corns of sand, and I get annoyed and irritated from this, experience. It grows into a bugger of aggression and pain within me.

The corn of sand could be anything. The world system, poverty, crime, abuse, corruptions, etc. I let these corns of sand grow into huge demons for myself. I let these “sand corns” become a war inside me. Where I see myself living as I was 11, 12, or 13 years old and throwing fits against my parents and against the system, doing small crimes and sabotaging society.

I realize that I let these corn of sand become huge conflicts within me. Where I picture myself angry as young man and a child going into adult hood, and into adolescence.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I see myself fetching out into the air like I would become mad and angry as a child at my parents and I would fetch and hit through the air with my hands, imaginary, just to prove to myself that I was angry and that I had a fit and rebelling against the system, inn my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the energies of thinking totally paranoid thoughts, that I would hit other people if I was threatened and I would become sad from thinking I cannot be safe and I have to be locked up and drugged because I have rage inside of me from having being a adolescent and from taking on irritation, today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let into myself small tiny bits of thoughts from the outside world and from actual events that I let turn into huge snowballs and avalanches inside of myself, and thinking back at where I was a youth and having behavioral difficulties growing up going into aggression and going into pain and malfunction, illness of self and simply serving mind its energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I cannot be with a woman again, because of how I cannot control my emotions, and trust myself, and my aggression, going into inferiority thinking that I am troubled and that I should be alone, completely judging myself from this experience and completely judging myself and my experience that I see is bothering me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my particular memory of throwing a chair into locker inside my old room at my old home, creating a hole in the locker where I was so mad at my parents and the world and system, that I realize that I was becoming more grown up of age and I would be throwing fits and aggression because I did not like what I was facing as growing up and being a human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would fear the responsibility of being a human growing up and being adolescent, going into the lines of adulthood where I would become fearful and sad because of how I was angry at my parents and the grown up generation for not doing enough to help the world and to heal the pain of the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that anger can solve anything at all, within my world and within my being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at anger as a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that anger and spite could do any good like to enlighten others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there could be anything, like the least minute detail of support from anger or from aggression at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to other people at my age back then, thinking it would heal my pain and fix my aggression to think of how other kids where doing when I was lost in anger and frustration within my life, realizing that comparing did not help other than placebo.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would think back at being 11, 12 and throwing tantrums around me where I would think that I was not being sane and I was not been treated right from my parents and a caring point of view, and from a point of view that I was not dealt with right, where I see that I project out blame onto my parents and to society and I blame them, when they simply did their best, and I realize that I really blame myself because I was not able to understand back then being 11, 12 etc.. the rules of money. I was not able to understand the rules and the games of money and there for I would blame my parents and the society form not being able to understand the point of money in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to think that it should be a child rights to learn on economics and to learn this old system that we have that is now, so very, very wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so mad with anger that I would fear myself, and that would also be my bridge out of the aggression and into breathing awareness, and to stop the anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become irritated and mad because of how I could not seem to forgive my parents for not teaching me on economics back then, but I realize some common sense and I forgive them today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am not sane because of my temperament, but I can tune it down and into nothing from breathing awareness and self forgiving of the emotions, and through self application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed how I see myself biting into the air like hungry cat stretching its jaws, that I do in my imagination, to remind myself that I am angry.

When and as I see myself taking on aggression and irritation in my life and in my living, I stop and I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that If I take on irritation like that I am not being responsible with myself. I realize that if I take on reactions and irritation like that I am easy to be bullied and to be mad and angry. I realize that I am best of without anger. I realize that aggression is but the disease. I commit myself to living my life for the best of all. I commit myself to take out and handle all my reactions, anger, sorrow or anything that is making me react energetic. I commit myself to fuel myself with energies and if I produce more than enough energies for myself I can give or fuel others, but firstly I want to give and fuel myself and my body so I can live a life in sufficient energies and not have to blame or judge myself or other but to keep a healthy balance with my everything, so within so without.

When and as I see myself thinking that anger could solve the question or make my day, I stop and I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that anger is nothing but trouble, and really a illness and a bother. I realize that anger and spite are some of the biggest trouble, and challenges to humanity. I realize that I must let go of aggression and irritation, completely. I commit myself to let go of all anger and all irritation, to forgive the emotions and to evolve as a human, and move on. I commit myself to not limit myself with anger, but to deal with issues that might occur and that I face, with self forgiveness and honesty and applications, and to improve myself from day to day living.

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Day 556 – Honest

I research myself within my participation with desteni.org, and I realize that there are certain points that are more prominent than others. Within me. Like this point of reading loud to myself from blogs and articles. I want to give myself the best possible treating and service possible. I want to heal myself. I want the tip top product to myself and my body. And that is desteni.org offering me, so; I want to be 100 % honest with myself and I realize that I have this very, very important point of reading loud to myself. From blogs and articles.

I live alone. I have a place for my computer and my stereo, in my living room. I realize that since I do not bother anyone with reading loud: I should do just that. I should give myself that special treatment out of love and common sense. Like when I read loud. It makes the whole balance into perfection. If I am at a library or a office, where and there are other, people around me, I cannot read loud then I will read inside of me. That is not a problem.

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I forgive myself for the friction within me, for the reactions, for old energetic memories, expectations, convictions, and personalities, ideas, ego, and comparisment and so on. Meta data. For my emotional past. When I forgive myself I would most like to say it loud to myself: to give myself that special message/massage to my physical out of granting myself love/forgiveness like care for myself – from myself. I would like for there to be honesty with my everything. So I investigate myself and I find that when I read like mumbling just screaming through the text, I am experiencing reactions and friction within me. My physical cannot hear /heal what the eyes are reading. I realize that when I react or produce thoughts I am acting out of e- motions, energies in motion. Pre – program, where the “e” in emotions eventually symbolize both, energies and ego. It is a tight as that. Investigate honestly for yourself. You will have great discoveries if you give time to desteni.org. It is not a joke. It is a gold mine/mind.

Here is a little honest treat for you: because If you do not, forgive yourself…If you do not us this tool, that you have in front of you, then you are what? What are you then ? A personal number ?? Yes.. meaning nothing but a Adolf Hitler copy. Another copy. The ” worst man”- where everyone is competing to be as greedy – and get away within it… the ego, the energies, the emotions, thoughts, … life (?) You are nothing but a copy from the past. I am not joking when I say that self forgiveness is the great key in life. Please use it. I beg of you. Stop the deviant, derision; pre – program movie in your mind head. You have seen it before. Movie in the head. Same same.

There is a desideratum of honesty in this world. Seek no further: desteni.org: it is honesty

So I investigate myself and whet I find important and prominent is that I would like to use my voice & tonality to really talk to myself and heal myself… it is 2015. Time to open up. Tell myself how much I love myself that I could even forgive myself. For anything, and that it is mostly meta – data/junk and thoughts, and shit like that within the mind, that is the human bother.

So I suggest for you to give yourself the very best treatment in town: : investigate self, investigate desteni. It is the honesty of this world. I am telling myself to develop self – communication. What I need to is read out loud. I tell myself that I should read aloud to comfort myself and to give myself that special time and care to myself that I want and need. Not in a druggish way. Self – forgiveness is the release of energies. – Which is mostly what addictions/ drugs is all about : energies. Free yourself: investigate desteni.org

Have a forgiving day

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Day 555 – Restless at spring

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It is spring time in Norway. The first flowers have emerged from the ground and the first birds have arrived from the south. It is that time of year where new life is born. The farmers, in the rural area where I live, are having lambs born of their sheep. And it is that time of year where we can be allowed to play outside without a jacket, and without the extra clothes that winter forces on us.

A phenomena that I have discussed lately, that is just sad and wrong, is the winter/summer times, that comes with turning the clock to a different season/light. This is just lunatic and wrong. It is like we are told that we do not handle light and darkness. Come on. This is mockery and it have got to stop. There are 5 % more heart attacks in Norway during this shift. That have got to end.

But back to my point. During spring I get, anxious, I feel like moving, traveling, exploring, meeting girls, sing and shout, and … I feel like I want to do something, there is a urge within me. Like I am more superior.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live this urge over and over again each spring like a automate pattern that is simply reoccurring over and over again. I want to live without this urge and my need to move and get anxious.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am allowed to feel superior because it is spring.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that spring is the farmers time to work on land and to care for animals and that this time of year is specially dedicated to the farmer and that this again creates a urge within me to become farmer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the urge I get when there is lambs being born and there is Easter and the tradition around the world with Easter, that is supposed to celebrate Jesus dying and living again where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my tradition of boiling eggs and burning a fire on the mountain with my family and the people that I hold dear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I think that we have created a cool solution to celebrating Easter that is like to be with family and friends on a mountain, that is a cool new tradition to give each other time and to be with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am living my life from the past, like seed buried in the snow and that I am living life over and over again with the same urge like a pre – program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my desires are born during spring and that this is the good time to have sex and meet women because of my urge to be more active and have less clothes on inn general programmed, feel more free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project out blame on to the government and officials because of how they still cling on to the old summer winter time schedule, of truing the clock, where I realize that it is my ability to be social and to make new friends, that is the root of this blame, where I realize that I need new friend and I need to socialize more and to be more “out there”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that every time the spring comes I need to follow my dreams and my desires, thinking that I could become a farmer or to set plants and seeds for the future and be a part of nurturing life and to see life grow and develop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the spring is better than fall or summer or winter.

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When and as I see myself going into this urge or doing something extra or more like I get superior during spring, I stop myself and I take a deep breath and I slow myself down. I realize that spring time in Norway is that time of year that life is reborn and that life is re – created. I realize that spring time is that time of years that I relate to Easter and to be with my family on a mountain and burn a fire. I realize that I like to be with my family/friends, and to bring on traditions that are the best for all life. I realize that all people have spiritual sides with them that they need to or want to live out. I commit myself to root my spirituality and to be here and as my spiritual self, like I am a spire, I spire, I inspire, within life on what is here in front of me and to not limit myself spiritually but to use commonsense and to do what is best for all. I commit myself to let people have their spiritual or religions in peace and to not confront or attack anyone, in any way about their spiritual lives, but to follow the golden rule of do onto others like I would like to be done unto myself.

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Day 552 – Living words : Expectations

I want to investigate a word. The word is expectations. Lest first see what the online dictionary says of this word :

expectation

– a strong belief that something will happen or be the case

– a belief that someone will or should achieve something.

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So this is interesting in both cases the expectations are based on be – LIE -f. A lie. So that many times you do not get what you expect, and you calculate this because you know that the be – LIE – f is just a lie, within your unconscious you are aware of this. It is like to spell the word God (or believe in God) that is in fact only dog spelled backwards. This is something else. So this word is giving me ideas like exclusive and .. sort of egoistic. I would expect something from habit or addiction. From pre – program. I would expect something to happen perhaps from my intuition. My intuition tells me so and so… Like math. Maybe I am right – and I get what I expect. The problem is that I have already sorted out the be – lie f- because it is bullshit or… a lie. And from there it is a rollercoaster of energies and happenings what the actual experience and “something” is to be played out .

Ex – pec – ta – tions, is based on a lie. Of coerce you can expect money from a employee, or you could expect your children to lose their teeth at a certain age, and you can expect your car to run out of gas if you do not fill it up, and so on, but these are more like plans. This is all designed and planned to happen. It is not unexpected – like expectations. It’s fundament of a lie. So… fuck expectations, right ? Right! And live life instead. I think this is what many people, especially within the love and light or “Namaste”, category, do not want to have plans. They do not like plans. But plans are cool, if you simply calculate OUT (minus) the expectations and rather go full inn to make it the best for all solution. Which is always present. Live like breathe. Inn full awareness. Right and wrong, good and bad a simply pre – program, what is best for all is the reality, and is always a choice. Listen to the body.

Do not get me wrong there is nothing wrong with the world expectations. I do not want to judge words. Word in themselves are innocent and they cannot be judged. It is my relations to the word that need clearing out.

I will remove my programmed energies within relation to this word, with self forgiveness:

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

Enjoy!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into a believe character that is simply giving to me lies of my pre program and my past, and imaginations, that I realize is simply re – runs off the same old programs over and over again into infinity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have believes from my childhood years of the character Jesus and thinking that I should be expected to live like he did in my every day, and how I was thought that that was the way I should live and I would expect people to tell me of Jesus and to live like he did.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into ego over the word expect because I would like there to be benefits and coolness for me within my world and my environment that I take for granted, that should happen to me like with a programmed ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this world is not ready to be confronted with what expectations really is, and that many people have unrealistic expectations, from program and from past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would compare expectations to each other, from different situations, and I would be sort of bubbling the values from this comparing, thinking only selfish and that I should have this and that, on top, while others have nothing and less so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect there to be food in my kitchen for me to eat every day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect there to be a believe within expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I should not expect anything any time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would think that I out smarted the love and light – character, by calculating out expectations instead of gambling/living the “lie”, “god”, “Namaste”, that is common with people that are considered to be followers of love and light.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectations to the word expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would expect there to be money income to my bank account every so and so often.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I should have expectations and that it is normal to expect things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people that expect things and that are living in be lie – ve of something to come to them out of the blue like a habit or addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have no expectations at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I expect thing to be a certain way with certain people, and in certain facilities, smells, or sounds, experiences, of house and that there are expectations to events like traditions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectation at a event on my birthday or during Christmas, like with gifts, and I would expect there to be a carting focus on me and a certain attention to me if I talk in a crowd or in a gathering/meeting/party.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is something wrong with my expectations.

When and as I see myself going to some event or to some happening, and I start to build up this sort of expectations to what is going to take place. I stop and I breathe. I realize that expectations are creating a falseness and lie with the happening and that things rarely live up to their expectations, and that expectations there for is very much based on ego to me. I realize that I would benefit from NOT having expectations. I realize that I would like to live my life without expecting the outcome and that would be what is best for all. I commit myself to plan my life and not live in expectations. I commit myself to live what is best for all and have pleasant surprises.

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Day 551 – Investing money in stocks

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I have decided to invest some money in stocks. Online robots. I am just about to start to invest some money to stock robots. It is a promising and cool offer that I have met on Facebook. The promises are high and there looks to be few or little risk. Off coerce there is always risk with going to the stock exchange with your money. And I might lose it all. I must be aware of that. And I will release the energies that I have in relation to investing money on stocks.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

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Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will for sure make money from investing in stocks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that now I will become very, very rich and I can by a new car and a new apartment for myself, going totally into egoism and selfish desires – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as ego or selfish for having these ideas, thoughts, and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that it is from fear of money / fear of not having money that I feel this urge to invest my money on stocks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this is a totally risk free offer and that I am guaranteed to have income as of this – failing to realize that there is always a risk with going to the stock exchange.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would compare my living and my income to others like A or B or C and doing so thinking that I can manage my money better than them and that I am more money vice, so I should be granted more money since I am able to spend it right or more correct than A, B, or C.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to A, B or C with the usage of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I would think that I know better than others, what is right spending and use or investing of money is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my backchats : “I will be stinking rich”, “This will make me a millionaire”, and “Now I get to show off now”, “This will be so great” and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within my mind with these backchats, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project these backchats onto others like 1, and 2 and when I do that I remove myself form the responsibility of having these backchats at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my past spending of money on drugs and alcohol and other items as a waste of money, and that I would blame myself and judge myself for this matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame on others like D, E or F for how they use money on alcohol and drugs today, where it is myself and my limited awareness of stock exchange programs online that I in fact blame, because I know too little about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think to myself that ecological and fair trade food and goods are rights spending/investing, or at least more sustainable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify buying and investing in ecological and fair trade products and companies as more valuable or positive than other companies and products.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I do this because I think I have to little income, and that this would improve my income.

Self corrections:

When and as I see myself going into ego over thinking I can by everything new, like a car or laptop or apartment. I stop and I breathe. I realize that it is easy for me to give into ego from such money / greed thoughts. I realize that I might have some more money of my hands that I must spend wisely. I commit myself to spend my money wisely. I commit myself to be grounded with my investing and my goal for investing. I commit myself to common sense mannerism and solutions to the best for all.

When and as I see myself going into backchat or reacting over money, or over my opportunity to invest money, I stop and I breathe. I realize that If I can afford to lose the money it is ok to invest it. I realize that If I am going to invest money I must be aware the risk. I realize that it might be cool solution for me. I realize that there is possibilities for me to have more income. I commit myself to be realistic and down to earth when it comes to this type of investing. I commit myself to listen to advice and to be cautious about investing. I commit myself to give as I would like to receive. I commit myself to give to equal life foundation, money, because it is the very best solution to support as of this hour.

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