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Day 556 – Honest

I research myself within my participation with desteni.org, and I realize that there are certain points that are more prominent than others. Within me. Like this point of reading loud to myself from blogs and articles. I want to give myself the best possible treating and service possible. I want to heal myself. I want the tip top product to myself and my body. And that is desteni.org offering me, so; I want to be 100 % honest with myself and I realize that I have this very, very important point of reading loud to myself. From blogs and articles.

I live alone. I have a place for my computer and my stereo, in my living room. I realize that since I do not bother anyone with reading loud: I should do just that. I should give myself that special treatment out of love and common sense. Like when I read loud. It makes the whole balance into perfection. If I am at a library or a office, where and there are other, people around me, I cannot read loud then I will read inside of me. That is not a problem.

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I forgive myself for the friction within me, for the reactions, for old energetic memories, expectations, convictions, and personalities, ideas, ego, and comparisment and so on. Meta data. For my emotional past. When I forgive myself I would most like to say it loud to myself: to give myself that special message/massage to my physical out of granting myself love/forgiveness like care for myself – from myself. I would like for there to be honesty with my everything. So I investigate myself and I find that when I read like mumbling just screaming through the text, I am experiencing reactions and friction within me. My physical cannot hear /heal what the eyes are reading. I realize that when I react or produce thoughts I am acting out of e- motions, energies in motion. Pre – program, where the “e” in emotions eventually symbolize both, energies and ego. It is a tight as that. Investigate honestly for yourself. You will have great discoveries if you give time to desteni.org. It is not a joke. It is a gold mine/mind.

Here is a little honest treat for you: because If you do not, forgive yourself…If you do not us this tool, that you have in front of you, then you are what? What are you then ? A personal number ?? Yes.. meaning nothing but a Adolf Hitler copy. Another copy. The ” worst man”- where everyone is competing to be as greedy – and get away within it… the ego, the energies, the emotions, thoughts, … life (?) You are nothing but a copy from the past. I am not joking when I say that self forgiveness is the great key in life. Please use it. I beg of you. Stop the deviant, derision; pre – program movie in your mind head. You have seen it before. Movie in the head. Same same.

There is a desideratum of honesty in this world. Seek no further: desteni.org: it is honesty

So I investigate myself and whet I find important and prominent is that I would like to use my voice & tonality to really talk to myself and heal myself… it is 2015. Time to open up. Tell myself how much I love myself that I could even forgive myself. For anything, and that it is mostly meta – data/junk and thoughts, and shit like that within the mind, that is the human bother.

So I suggest for you to give yourself the very best treatment in town: : investigate self, investigate desteni. It is the honesty of this world. I am telling myself to develop self – communication. What I need to is read out loud. I tell myself that I should read aloud to comfort myself and to give myself that special time and care to myself that I want and need. Not in a druggish way. Self – forgiveness is the release of energies. – Which is mostly what addictions/ drugs is all about : energies. Free yourself: investigate desteni.org

Have a forgiving day

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Day 555 – Restless at spring

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It is spring time in Norway. The first flowers have emerged from the ground and the first birds have arrived from the south. It is that time of year where new life is born. The farmers, in the rural area where I live, are having lambs born of their sheep. And it is that time of year where we can be allowed to play outside without a jacket, and without the extra clothes that winter forces on us.

A phenomena that I have discussed lately, that is just sad and wrong, is the winter/summer times, that comes with turning the clock to a different season/light. This is just lunatic and wrong. It is like we are told that we do not handle light and darkness. Come on. This is mockery and it have got to stop. There are 5 % more heart attacks in Norway during this shift. That have got to end.

But back to my point. During spring I get, anxious, I feel like moving, traveling, exploring, meeting girls, sing and shout, and … I feel like I want to do something, there is a urge within me. Like I am more superior.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live this urge over and over again each spring like a automate pattern that is simply reoccurring over and over again. I want to live without this urge and my need to move and get anxious.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am allowed to feel superior because it is spring.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that spring is the farmers time to work on land and to care for animals and that this time of year is specially dedicated to the farmer and that this again creates a urge within me to become farmer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the urge I get when there is lambs being born and there is Easter and the tradition around the world with Easter, that is supposed to celebrate Jesus dying and living again where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my tradition of boiling eggs and burning a fire on the mountain with my family and the people that I hold dear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I think that we have created a cool solution to celebrating Easter that is like to be with family and friends on a mountain, that is a cool new tradition to give each other time and to be with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am living my life from the past, like seed buried in the snow and that I am living life over and over again with the same urge like a pre – program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my desires are born during spring and that this is the good time to have sex and meet women because of my urge to be more active and have less clothes on inn general programmed, feel more free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project out blame on to the government and officials because of how they still cling on to the old summer winter time schedule, of truing the clock, where I realize that it is my ability to be social and to make new friends, that is the root of this blame, where I realize that I need new friend and I need to socialize more and to be more “out there”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that every time the spring comes I need to follow my dreams and my desires, thinking that I could become a farmer or to set plants and seeds for the future and be a part of nurturing life and to see life grow and develop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the spring is better than fall or summer or winter.

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When and as I see myself going into this urge or doing something extra or more like I get superior during spring, I stop myself and I take a deep breath and I slow myself down. I realize that spring time in Norway is that time of year that life is reborn and that life is re – created. I realize that spring time is that time of years that I relate to Easter and to be with my family on a mountain and burn a fire. I realize that I like to be with my family/friends, and to bring on traditions that are the best for all life. I realize that all people have spiritual sides with them that they need to or want to live out. I commit myself to root my spirituality and to be here and as my spiritual self, like I am a spire, I spire, I inspire, within life on what is here in front of me and to not limit myself spiritually but to use commonsense and to do what is best for all. I commit myself to let people have their spiritual or religions in peace and to not confront or attack anyone, in any way about their spiritual lives, but to follow the golden rule of do onto others like I would like to be done unto myself.

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Day 552 – Living words : Expectations

I want to investigate a word. The word is expectations. Lest first see what the online dictionary says of this word :

expectation

– a strong belief that something will happen or be the case

– a belief that someone will or should achieve something.

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So this is interesting in both cases the expectations are based on be – LIE -f. A lie. So that many times you do not get what you expect, and you calculate this because you know that the be – LIE – f is just a lie, within your unconscious you are aware of this. It is like to spell the word God (or believe in God) that is in fact only dog spelled backwards. This is something else. So this word is giving me ideas like exclusive and .. sort of egoistic. I would expect something from habit or addiction. From pre – program. I would expect something to happen perhaps from my intuition. My intuition tells me so and so… Like math. Maybe I am right – and I get what I expect. The problem is that I have already sorted out the be – lie f- because it is bullshit or… a lie. And from there it is a rollercoaster of energies and happenings what the actual experience and “something” is to be played out .

Ex – pec – ta – tions, is based on a lie. Of coerce you can expect money from a employee, or you could expect your children to lose their teeth at a certain age, and you can expect your car to run out of gas if you do not fill it up, and so on, but these are more like plans. This is all designed and planned to happen. It is not unexpected – like expectations. It’s fundament of a lie. So… fuck expectations, right ? Right! And live life instead. I think this is what many people, especially within the love and light or “Namaste”, category, do not want to have plans. They do not like plans. But plans are cool, if you simply calculate OUT (minus) the expectations and rather go full inn to make it the best for all solution. Which is always present. Live like breathe. Inn full awareness. Right and wrong, good and bad a simply pre – program, what is best for all is the reality, and is always a choice. Listen to the body.

Do not get me wrong there is nothing wrong with the world expectations. I do not want to judge words. Word in themselves are innocent and they cannot be judged. It is my relations to the word that need clearing out.

I will remove my programmed energies within relation to this word, with self forgiveness:

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

Enjoy!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into a believe character that is simply giving to me lies of my pre program and my past, and imaginations, that I realize is simply re – runs off the same old programs over and over again into infinity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have believes from my childhood years of the character Jesus and thinking that I should be expected to live like he did in my every day, and how I was thought that that was the way I should live and I would expect people to tell me of Jesus and to live like he did.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into ego over the word expect because I would like there to be benefits and coolness for me within my world and my environment that I take for granted, that should happen to me like with a programmed ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this world is not ready to be confronted with what expectations really is, and that many people have unrealistic expectations, from program and from past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would compare expectations to each other, from different situations, and I would be sort of bubbling the values from this comparing, thinking only selfish and that I should have this and that, on top, while others have nothing and less so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect there to be food in my kitchen for me to eat every day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect there to be a believe within expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I should not expect anything any time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would think that I out smarted the love and light – character, by calculating out expectations instead of gambling/living the “lie”, “god”, “Namaste”, that is common with people that are considered to be followers of love and light.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectations to the word expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would expect there to be money income to my bank account every so and so often.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I should have expectations and that it is normal to expect things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people that expect things and that are living in be lie – ve of something to come to them out of the blue like a habit or addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have no expectations at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I expect thing to be a certain way with certain people, and in certain facilities, smells, or sounds, experiences, of house and that there are expectations to events like traditions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectation at a event on my birthday or during Christmas, like with gifts, and I would expect there to be a carting focus on me and a certain attention to me if I talk in a crowd or in a gathering/meeting/party.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is something wrong with my expectations.

When and as I see myself going to some event or to some happening, and I start to build up this sort of expectations to what is going to take place. I stop and I breathe. I realize that expectations are creating a falseness and lie with the happening and that things rarely live up to their expectations, and that expectations there for is very much based on ego to me. I realize that I would benefit from NOT having expectations. I realize that I would like to live my life without expecting the outcome and that would be what is best for all. I commit myself to plan my life and not live in expectations. I commit myself to live what is best for all and have pleasant surprises.

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Day 551 – Investing money in stocks

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I have decided to invest some money in stocks. Online robots. I am just about to start to invest some money to stock robots. It is a promising and cool offer that I have met on Facebook. The promises are high and there looks to be few or little risk. Off coerce there is always risk with going to the stock exchange with your money. And I might lose it all. I must be aware of that. And I will release the energies that I have in relation to investing money on stocks.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will for sure make money from investing in stocks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that now I will become very, very rich and I can by a new car and a new apartment for myself, going totally into egoism and selfish desires – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as ego or selfish for having these ideas, thoughts, and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that it is from fear of money / fear of not having money that I feel this urge to invest my money on stocks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this is a totally risk free offer and that I am guaranteed to have income as of this – failing to realize that there is always a risk with going to the stock exchange.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would compare my living and my income to others like A or B or C and doing so thinking that I can manage my money better than them and that I am more money vice, so I should be granted more money since I am able to spend it right or more correct than A, B, or C.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to A, B or C with the usage of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I would think that I know better than others, what is right spending and use or investing of money is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my backchats : “I will be stinking rich”, “This will make me a millionaire”, and “Now I get to show off now”, “This will be so great” and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within my mind with these backchats, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project these backchats onto others like 1, and 2 and when I do that I remove myself form the responsibility of having these backchats at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my past spending of money on drugs and alcohol and other items as a waste of money, and that I would blame myself and judge myself for this matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame on others like D, E or F for how they use money on alcohol and drugs today, where it is myself and my limited awareness of stock exchange programs online that I in fact blame, because I know too little about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think to myself that ecological and fair trade food and goods are rights spending/investing, or at least more sustainable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify buying and investing in ecological and fair trade products and companies as more valuable or positive than other companies and products.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I do this because I think I have to little income, and that this would improve my income.

Self corrections:

When and as I see myself going into ego over thinking I can by everything new, like a car or laptop or apartment. I stop and I breathe. I realize that it is easy for me to give into ego from such money / greed thoughts. I realize that I might have some more money of my hands that I must spend wisely. I commit myself to spend my money wisely. I commit myself to be grounded with my investing and my goal for investing. I commit myself to common sense mannerism and solutions to the best for all.

When and as I see myself going into backchat or reacting over money, or over my opportunity to invest money, I stop and I breathe. I realize that If I can afford to lose the money it is ok to invest it. I realize that If I am going to invest money I must be aware the risk. I realize that it might be cool solution for me. I realize that there is possibilities for me to have more income. I commit myself to be realistic and down to earth when it comes to this type of investing. I commit myself to listen to advice and to be cautious about investing. I commit myself to give as I would like to receive. I commit myself to give to equal life foundation, money, because it is the very best solution to support as of this hour.

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Day 547 – Deleting a personality part 2

Deleting a personality part 2

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Art By:  Marlen Vargas Del Razo

I use self – forgiveness to take away the energies and my judging from this self sabotaging and this personality.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create thought patterns, from energies and programming, that evolved into backchats from being a young boy at elementary school, and taking on energies from where I would create thought patterns and backchats within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into backchats, and to participate within the backchat inn my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the particular backchats within my head that goes like:

“I suck at wood work”

“I cannot use the sanding paper properly”

“I cannot handle the planer to go with woodwork ”

” I am not a good carpenter – so I am not a cool guy in general”

“I cannot hit a nail in properly”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project out all these backchats to other people like A and B and C, and doing so removing myself from the responsibility of having the backchats in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame myself from taking to myself the points from the backchat from this personality, and doing so dragging myself into lots of emotions and guilt and sorrow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will never work with woods again because of this backchats/personality that I made within myself, and limiting myself with living this self sabotage/personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the particular wood working room, with its content, from my elementary school days, and for thinking it was bad or a negative room, from my experience of participating there when I was a child, where It is me and my experience that went wrong and negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pity myself from this personality and these emotions that I would gather during the years of being aware of this personality and its limitation on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk out in tears from the carpeting fabric that I worked some year ago, where I experienced self sabotage and backchats within, that where ruining for my work experience, to the extent that I quit.

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Day 544 – SF on, Anger/aggression from mumbling, when I read blogs.

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This is a continuation from my previous blog, here:

https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/2015/03/22/day-543-angeraggression-from-mumbling-when-i-read-blogs/

 

Within this blog post I will work on self forgiveness to release myself from the automate patterns from my past, and the tunnel vision that I have been craving/living.

It is the best tool to mankind, it is self forgiveness.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speed through blogs because I would think that the world is at stake and we must hurry and save this live and existence from abuse an crime, and I give into stress and start to speed through and mumble when I read , loud from the blogs, and I make myself angry for not paying attention to what I am actually reading and simply speeding through with a tunnel vision and in search for my drug: hope, and quick solutions.

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look back at my reading and my experience of reading the blog and realizing that I am stuck within this crave for tunnel vision of searching for my hope/drug and I am fucked in this search for hope/drugs just like I was a addict before, to drugs and alcohol, that I am also today, for hope and quick solutions and my crave for tunnel vision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the folks of the blogs that I read, for my own mistake of starting to mumble and speed through the blogs, where it is myself that I actually blame for my addiction to tunnel vision and solutions where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see the deeper context and the details of the individual blogs for what it is and what it contains of information for my edification.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry within fragments of a second from not remembering or being able to piece together the blogs that I have just read because I was in a hurry and inn search for/with my tunnel vision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger and in aggression within pictures and backchats within my mind/physical on how I become angry and stressed from not remembering the blogs I just read, and for not remembering the larger context, and the bigger/larger patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to mumble and read blogs, like with resistance to what I am reading, preventing the words from reaching me and avoiding them, as I mumble, to have the full effect from reading the blogs and I refuse to live the blogs, and my own, fullest potential in oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid, living the blogs that I have read and within that avoiding to live my fullest potential as the living words as myself here as life and what is best for all.

Self corrections to be lived in next blog.

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Day 541 – My skin burning episode in the Canaries

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I burned myself really bad (picture) on my body after having forgotten to take on myself sun blocking, from the strong sunshine in the Canaries. I ended up with a body full of dandruff and scars.

I realize that if I had taken precaution I would not have burned my skin at all. But I got lots in the lovely fussy, warm feeling of the sunshine and relaxing sun bathing so I got burned.

I was listening, before this, to these interviews: https://eqafe.com/p/the-science-of-energy-part-1-quantum-mind-self-awareness

& this : https://eqafe.com/p/the-science-of-energy-part-2-quantum-mind-self-awareness

From eqafe about energies that need to come out from within that are simply stocked up. With me. It is usually nervousness and fear, and other emotional components that are within me that I have to de – bunk somehow – it needs to come out. And it must come out and out through the skin – it comes. The skin then experiences a rash and irritation, a heavy load of irritation to my body is channeled through me and it is felt on my skin and I start to scratch. And – voila you have my eczemas – that I have had since I was a toddler.

I realize that my skin now need healing and care. For some time.  And I am more aware that energies within,  can also, like sunburning,  create rash/irritation without – on my skin.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to care and protect my skin against the strong sunshine, and against sun burn at the vocation. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame onto sun lotion companies and also my dad who I was traveling with for not telling me to putt on the sun – block, where I realize that it is myself being irresponsible to forget to putt on the lotion, from my experience should have known, that makes me angry and depressed with myself that I go into projecting blame at others where the responsibility lies within myself and my desire for comfort and luxury.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize how I try to channel out my energies and emotions out from my body in particular areas of my body and where I get all obsessed with my inside and think that I can self change it through whatever part of my body that I want and that I would think I can control my body to such degree to channel out my extra energies and my life source through any part of my body that I would prefer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted an allowed myself to react with flabbergasting and surprising, to this discovery where I see that I have a totally different view and connection with my body and energies, that I had before, when I was living pre – program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think within my thoughts and my rational mind that this changes who I am in relation to energies in total, and I notice that it is through steady and continuous self – forgiveness and also through adding to it ; knowledge and information that I take onto myself to enter nothingness and to reset myself, of pre program, to be able to fill myself up, later, with equality and oneness from scratch again. From nothingness into life. Day by day, step by step, for what is best for all.

When and as I see myself entering sun – bathing with little clothes on. I stop and I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that they produce sun blocking lotion for a reason, and I should use it when exposed to sunshine, early on. I realize that my skin, from Norway, is not used to as much warm sunshine that could potentially burn my skin and I could end up ill, like I did, here. I commit myself to use sun block and to take pre- action with my life and my being. I commit myself to that knowledge and awareness that my body needs to channel out some energies that I call my eczemas. I commit myself to commons sense mannerism and what is best for all living.

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