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Day 790 – The reaction game


Reactions are one of the very core obstacles and points of human psychology and living. It is very much what keeps us in a dead lock position under control of mind. Reaction is that spark, that friction that goes off when we are presented something, we don’t like,  and then we are triggered inside. Reactions are like the effect from something externally that has a impact on us and our psyche. Reactions are, to me, like sparks and spikes that are making friction within my mind. Reactions will always try to validate itself. You would feel inside like the reaction is acceptable. It would let you know that it (the reaction) is right !!



He reacted in anger and slammed the door

There was a gentle reaction in my mind where I would blame my mom



self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a game of reactions just to prove to myself what reactions are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions over comparing myself and my efforts to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions over thinking this world is lost and crazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions over thinking this world is sick with its humans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions over judging humans as bad and wrong no matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the design and instrument of my reaction as only that, like it can’t be anything else, than a reaction, and that is it.


I realize that my life would be best if there was no reactions and I could just live and breathe without going into any reactions what so ever – that would be nice, and that it is up to me to create this in my own living !



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Day 582 – A thought and its components

Thought & components; within the thought.


This is an actual though that I had a while ago.

“Tormod might not make it in process”

Follow up thought:

“It is a shame that Tormod will not make it”

Within these sentences, lies hidden the components of:

Fear, anxiety, comparison, idea, belief, judgements and hidden anger.

I have been experiencing this thought lately about my process and I have gone into reactions over fear of not making my process. I have separated myself from the awareness that if I work steady and steadfast I should make process after some 7 – 14 years or so. All depending on my work and my effort and my commitment. My ability to live and practice what is best for all in common sense. Breath by breathe. Day by day.

I will use the very best medicine available to mankind to use: Self forgiveness.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear of thinking I will not make process and I will not be able to stand within my last breathe on this earth, thinking my life have been in vain and is meaningless, and I should simply quit and give up my commitment and my practice and walking of process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am like Jesus being tempted by the devil like I am being tested within my ability to slow down, continue breathing, and to live inn common sense and what is best for all; awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety within my physical when this thought occurs and for thinking that I am a loser and that no one wants anything to do with me and I see that I also go paranoid and think it is a conspiracy against me since I experience anxiety and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can feel this anxiety in my body within my physical and it hurts, and I would feel like crying inside from taking on this thought that would sort of burn a hole within my chest of burning/pain/anxiety.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself and my process to the process of A or B or C or D, and thinking that their process is so much more prefect or nice and cool etc. going into jealousy within my comparing with others radon people that also walk process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my writing and my economy and my work or my life and family to them (random friends/colleagues) and to start to give into this further comparesnent and valuing this over that etc. of what I perceive to my colleagues and their lives and really just compare for no further reason, what so ever, than comparing inn itself, as a mind fuck and judging like a machine simply; judging and valuing, within my very mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the idea that my life does not matter, I cannot make my process, I best just resign and quit, totally burying myself in ideas of less worth and self judgements and inferiority, all within a mind bubble.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this belief that I am sacred or I am special like this or that direction within myself, and that since I have bene hearing voices for so long I am extraordinary and I am special that makes me a special child or a indigo child or any way out of the ordinary from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to notice that hidden anger within me that is like aggression over fearing not to make process and fearing not to make my assignments and to have unrealistic expectations to myself and my living, and I would project out this anger at my parents and doing so I would be removing myself from the experience of having this anger at all.

When and as I see myself going into thoughts or fear of not making process, I stop and I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that there is nothing to fear, fear is fake and not real, it is really just to push through, and make it. I realize that it is simply to push through and face my struggles and to face my process and push through. I realize that there is really nothing to it. I need to bring all parts of myself back to myself. I realize that I must not give into fear at all, as fear is fake. I commit myself to bring back pieces of myself back to myself. I commit myself to give myself honesty and realistic chores and tasks. I commit myself to the unification of me. I commit myself to the awareness that fear is fake and not existent. I commit myself to stop creating thoughts out of stress and pre – program. I commit myself to not have thoughts as thoughts are separation of self. I commit myself to equality and oneness – and to realize that I have only this life on earth – I commit myself to give all my best for the future generations – all the time, breath by breath.

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Day 553 – What are reactions ?

1: something done, felt, or thought in response to a situation or event.

“my immediate reaction was one of relief”


2: A response to a stimulus.


So reactions “go of” inside of us and create the further thought/stress. We are living very much of our lives in reactions. We are thought to react to certain word and to certain smells and to certain colures and shapes. Like the swastika, that we are thought to fear. We are brought up to react to if people fart. Or if people express in a certain way. Nudity for instance. We are programmed to react.

Reactions are very physical. Meaning that it is actual mater from within oneness flesh that is the source of the actual reaction. Like voices in the head. It is actual matter that is making the noise/sound. From memories. So we are thought/programmed to react to certain events and certain patterns. But it becomes almost like a illness off stress and thoughts and backchats and voices in the head, if we let it go on. Like I said it is extracted from the physical. Reactions are born/seperated from physical flesh.

And if you allow it to simply go on the reactions will create stress and illness of mind/mental. I say till here no further. I will not go into reactions no more. I want to live calm and to live in ease. I was the good life. Don’t you ?

Enough reactions all ready. It have been going on too long. I commit myself to stop reactions and to end all the reacting in total. I commit myself to end the reacting that I have been playing and extracting from my physical like a illness. I commit myself to forgive my reactions. All of them. Enough separation from self and responsibilities. I have been having enough reactions as it is. I will work to stop my reactions. And I commit myself to breathing awareness and to living in responsibility. Without reactions.

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Day 512 – Nuclear radiation is a scam

I watched this video and I was quite surprised by what was said and proven. For years and years I have been living in fear of nuclear science. I have bought all the scare propaganda from groups like Greenpeace and Hollywood, through brainwashing and news, telling me that nuclear radiation is so very dangerous. This video and other videos tell a different tale. Now there are radiation from nuclear energy and bomb production, yes there is, but the radiation is not that dangerous as one have been told.

Nuclear science may not be totally “clean” but it is not that dangerous as one first was told from the fear and scare stories from Hollywood and groups like Greenpeace telling us that this is so very scary and bad.

The sun provides, together with wind and other energy sources, totally renewable resources, enough energy for this planet and more than that. We must chose the best solution, which is the 100% renewable energies. Sun and wind power. Nuclear energies is not renewable, at least not to my opinion.

TV and media have scared me enough and many times from even considering nuclear reactions as a way to have energy. That is now settled and I suggest for you to watch this video that is linked here.

And I want to ask of you not to simply give into things that you hear or read. Investigate and find the back ground stories, read it all and draw your conclusion based on what is best for all. Main stream media is growing more and more corrupt. For instance how the white house in USA, now owns parts of the channel CNN. That is simply not cool. There is a lot of stories like this. And we have to evolve and change. Join us in Equal Life Foundation and learn how you can contribute to a life that is best for all. Investigate LIG and have a nice day!