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Day 784 – Holding Back and Imprisoning My Life – Life Review



Living the words “What are you waiting for ?” I think we all can see our self face to face with our limitations somehow, and that most of us have lived this sentence, within our experience. Like sentencing our self. “I sentence you/self to so & so..”


So within this interview from some ones living and experience, this is then explained how these words, this sentencing of self is making our life – less. Often we find that it is some specific thing from our past that we cannot take responsibility for. It is some event or story from our past, that we will not become one with, where we really would benefit, grow and expand if we really dare to look behind this sentencing. And how it is fear and fear of losing control that will make us abdicate and further separate from these events from our past. Emotional things, that has command on us, in a deadlock. So we end up simply recycling or mind systems and our past emotions and live those systems over and over again.

Listen to this person unwrap the life process that was walked with challenges starting to accumulate at art school and how life is limited from a experience at school.

It is about taking that little leap of self communication, being open and honest with self. Learning to know self, and work ones way through the limitations.


Looking at the words “what are you waiting for ?”, or “what is holding you back?” can be used, written out with pen and paper, to really investigate self and see within self, into me I see…. forgive the energy components within and realize self from those points that had self in prison by self.

You would be amazed of your potential if you could start with listening to this interview, and then go asking self, some real deep and existential questions, like what is holding me back from living me ? We all know and have dreams of utopia, and our outmost potential. Individually we are the key.  The change starts with a really deep look into our self. Into me I see. Don’t forget self forgiveness.


So really:  what is holding you back ?

I recommend pen and paper.


Enjoy !


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Day 667 – who am I & what is real ?

Who am I ?

..and what is real ?


(Is Israel real ?)

Fur further investigation of what lies behind the words we/I use please investigate. Here is a link to a you tube channel about words and meaning/definitions (from “Chiron Last”) and here, is a forum who is taking on words in practicality, and here is how to “live” words.  Also check out the link to the new coming: SOUL – school of ultimate living, on facebook.



I am a human. I am alive. I breathe. I have a birth name. I am physical. I am flesh and bones, blood, organs and skin. I am physical. I live on planet earth.


I have been living slaving to mind for more than 30 years. I have been living like robot. I have been living a lie from childhood years. I have been living in pain and in separation as of thoughts and mind and consciousness.


You see: all the trouble in this world/word can be traced back to our self – each and everyone of us. And our personal experience and living of mind and in our metaphysical individual reality/living.


I am a delicate balance between mind, body and being.


I am today taking responsibility for myself. I am standing up for my past, and to correct myself in present/future, inn oneness and equality. I am walking process to forgive myself. I embrace my dark sides and to learn to live again for real in physical. Balancing mind and being. I am Tormod. I am a male. I am living in honesty and I am striving to be the best version of myself that I can be. I am working on not to limit myself. I am taken by living my utmost potential.


I will be creative and create/design a word/world based on oneness and equality, where all life is considered – equally.

Creation is equality.


I am here in physical on planet earth. I am living breathing. My physical is my guide. My reality of that we are here on this earth trying to do our individual thing. I am here on earth, seeing abuse, separation, war, poverty, crimes, pollution and so on. I am here on earth to do what is best for all. I am here on this earth to be my very best example to others. To spread my nucleus of calamity, peace and consideration. I am here on earth to create a better life for all of us. All of life. I will honor life.  I am life. I life.



I see physical reality around me. What I can touch, smell, hear, see and sense. And I keep inn my awareness that this is less that a fragment of what is really going on around me, as of metaphysics and psychology/data. To further investigate what is “real” check out this link: to quantum mind.

I am alive, and I will honor life. I will commit myself to do what is best for all at all times.

What is real is what I sense with my awareness. What is real is my awareness.

My awareness is my reality.


Thank you !

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art by: Tormod Hvidsten Gjedrem

Day 631 – Recovery is always outside the hospital


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Every recovery story, that I hear is always taking place after having separated oneself, from psychiatry/hospital/doctors. Almost every single story I hear of with recovery, is rooted in the process of removing oneself from hospital care, or activity and often despite the doctors and breaking the contact with hospitals.

It is very similar with cancer treatment. Chemical therapy is designed to keep the cancer patient paying endless of money for the treatment, while the chemicals are killing the body. A huge industry and a similar concept to psychiatry and chemical therapy.

Almost each and every story I hear of about success and “butterfly effect” from psychiatry is happening after or later having broken with hospitals.

I have spent 10 year as a swing door patient. Hospitals and doctors did not help me with sorting out my past. My emotional and traumatic childhood  was hardly topic at all. It was left like cinder in the dark. What they focused on was my drugs (weed and hasjis) and my alcohol consume. My medications to myself. I repeat; the doctors I saw did not help me with my old trauma. I had to start working on them myself later after breaking with hospitals. The doctors could hardly gain my trust, which is essential in any relationship.

Psychiatry have been 100- 150 years of abuse. Plain and simple. Time we change it as we go on creating new care systems based on honest and common sense values and virtues. Lets talk and please contact me if you like, (leave a comment)  on how we can create a better psychiatry and then also a better world.

The user experience must be direct involved in the daily therapy of patients. Nurses and doctors have not been through my kind of shit. “My kind of shit” is traumatic and emotionally very challenging. But now I can stand up and tell others, young, patients, adults, about my story and how I managed to change. My story holds a value.

Don’t get me wrong; If you experience psychosis or drama in your life, please seek help if you need it. The hospitals is still there. I would also not fear to take chemical therapy for a period of time. Hospitals saved my life, many times.  But it did not help me recover, it was blindly serving me its hope.  It is what it is and it might help you simply survive and some what, manage life. But the recovery is not that easy and must be walked as yourself in honesty and with gaining responsibility for your life. Also your past here is very important.


So how do we really recover, from endless years of psychiatry and suffering ? It is a personal, honest and it can be a long process. Gaining self confidence from taking back responsibility. Forgiving and embracing self and past. Being honest and to learn that  honesty is; the raw and uncut, picture of  reality. Where self – honesty again, is to take action and stand to fix it. This is not easy and it takes time and esoteric skills to learn and see.

Recovery is not done over night, but be clear or your goals, (have a 5 year plan)  and walk small steps everyday in that same direction, have part time goals as well,  and you will experience empowerment and improvement.

A smart man once said:

“Do a job, that is easy, like it is hard, that way what is hard will in its turn become easy”

The best deal I could give you, ever, is to check out desteni.org even if you are not mentally suffering it can still be a very cool solution, and a good place to build yourself and your potential. Don’t miss your chance to work on self forgiveness – you are way too precious for that. Give yourself the best gift of self –> for – give – ness & have a nice day.



What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca