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Day 673 – Perceived Righteousness

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sugar coat my opinion,  within giving into my perceived righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself excused to modify reality or to change and manipulate reality out of desire to be perceived by others as superior and great.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I forget to accept things as they are when I sugar coat reality to further bring on my verdict of perceived righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the act of perceiving something about a situation and then within the flick of a second, make a judgment based on my believe of being superior and feeling blessed, where my judgment is there for valid within my perceived righteousness and from within my mind – making myself the big looser eventually since this has consequences – to myself – like a boomerang.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and deny from having a  blessed/believe of perceived righteousness and failing to see the boomerang effect striking back at me – knocking me out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see with real – eyes how myself granted perceived righteousness strikes back at me with full effect and making me loose and making me face consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that issues of living with perceived righteousness is not my type of problems and ignore it and there for not something I would bother to look into investigate – having a  point of resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe of myself as blessed and within this feeling/believe of being blessed I grant myself the archetype of being a judge and a ruler based of believing myself to be blessed and therefore in a position to judge and to moralize others from superiority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to open up the point of being blessed out of fear of being called out/bullied for being a spiritual or Christian or a Buddhist and feeling fear that others would judge me out of religious or other types of bashing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and deny for feeling “blessed” and for  feelings “spiritual” or living “a believe” within my life and from my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to find myself within this concept  that I have a “be – lie – ve” and for the feeling of resistance so, and feeling like I want to reject and dump the “be – lie – ve”  from myself and within this dumping of believe I am serving my imagination and fantasy/movie in my mind and simply slaving to mind with energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act in perceived righteousness and in a believe that I am blessed and I know best – acting out like I am superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of myself as blessed for the country where I live and the life that I have, failing and rejecting the parts of myself that is based on be – lie – ve and being righteousness, failing to see that I have not yet lived  but living a lie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to se with real – eyes that my perceived righteousness is something I step into from this role when I am about to act – do something/communicate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my perceived righteousness is mostly active when I act out and specifically when I write on facebook.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to think of facebook as my territory to play and mess with making judgments and to moralize over what I find there, acting like a judging robot, and communicate there with my perceived righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of facebook as the place to be if you are blessed of carry believes and to make myself the supreme judge and moralizer from my feeling of blessed and feeling righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how we end up correcting each other and bashing each other on facebook, not living the meaning/purpose of life as in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in doubt and fear out of thinking If I don’t have my be – lie – ve, I must then live in fear/doubt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that if I don’t live blessed or inn righteousness I will lose and live in poverty and in inferiority, failing to realize that poverty and inferiority is a consequence of actually living in being blessed and within righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see within myself how deep this lie of blessed or righteousness goes within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a need to “lift” myself up, that is based on ego and on playing the polarity game and making an ass of others and  to boost myself on energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into ego and failing to see each and everyone as one and equal, with giving into stress and anxiety within my mind and within my body.

 

When and as I see myself ending up going into a state of feeling blessed or having a perceived righteousness. I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that if I go into acting within feeling blessed or righteousness I am living a lie, and I am clearly not self honest or fully responsible within myself. I real – eyes that in order to end  my perceived righteousness, I have to change how I act around certain activities. I realize that for me to have less consequences facing myself or others I have to become self honest and responsible with myself – as a starting point.

I commit myself to consider ONE more time before writing on facebok.

 

I commit myself to check myself ONE more time to be certain I am not acting in a be – lie – ve or in righteousness.

I commit myself to take my time and dump my be – lie – ves and to dump my blessing and my perceived righteousness.

I commit myself to be modest and commonsensical with leaving/dumping believes and not give into imaginations when doing so.

I commit myself to change in my communication and in my way to talk to people, particular on facebook.

I commit myself to listen.

I commit myself to consider and to be real, self honest and responsible.

I commit myself to stop sugar coating reality, accept things as they, are and rather work with that in responsibility.

 

 

have a nice day !

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Day 672 – forgiving my internal policeman

 

This is a continuation on my last blog: Day 671 – “personality of a policeman”

Self forgiveness and self corrections on “personality of a policeman”

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the archetype of a judge and to simply pass the “movement” of perceived righteousness onto my opinionated character of a police man after having been a judge first, sort of working the lines of order,  and living the matrix.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have forgotten most of what went on when I was a kid growing up, and I realize I have suppressed it and forgotten most of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine myself as a police that is always at work blaming and bashing out on people and making people stand accused of whatever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to call the judges archetype and the police archetypes for specifically : demons as I see both how they act out in society/news and how they act a moral, controlling and oppression of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that my suppression and denial of my past and of living daily with archetypes, is making effect on other people today/life forms today,  in this world and having consequences for life that I am not aware of but still responsible for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be confronted with these archetypes of judges/police as I would suppress it further and call out a  need of more control further bringing oppression and violations and abuse to/against life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize and deny for the word “perceived righteousness” and pushing this from myself and refusing to take responsibility for this phenomena when it is a part of who I have been and my life/ my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to live this word “perceived righteousness” as I would call it out to be not understandable, and I would hide from it and call it a lie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge all police and judges as bad or wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that we don’t need judges and police.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that sometimes on rare occasions, I can enforce control or judging – totally giving into the character.

 

 

When and as I see myself about to “kick-start” a game of moral/control within and as myself, with playing on perceived righteousness and judge/police archetype, I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that my perceived righteousness is totally wrong and only based on be – lie – ve foundations. I realize that my foundations of feeling I need to enforce some control have grown on me from having live a life- without control and also I the same sentence, without responsibility. I realize that there is a huge difference between control and responsibility.

 

I commit myself to be more flexible. I commit myself to use common sense if people ask me to take part in something. I commit myself to investigate, further how to get over my perceived righteousness and  my believe systems. I commit myself to expose what my findings to the world.

 

When and as I see myself going back thinking I have this relations from control or being a enforcer, and simply thinking it is my programming, I am excused, thinking I don’t have to take responsibility for it. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that perceiving is  not natural it is a product of mind.  I  realize that if I perceive something or make a fantasy up in my mind, it is just meta – data and not real.

I commit myself to work on how to take on responsibility further for my life and also in “new” areas of my living. I commit myself to work on debunking all my believes and imaginations. I commit myself to embrace the word responsibility.

 

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Day 671 – Personality of “a policeman”

– seeing myself as a police & control freak

I have some issues with perceived righteousness. Thinking I know what is “right”. Judging myself and others when I be – lie – ve,  something wrong within a situation. Thinking of myself as this special person, giving my character a opinion – a opinionated character of a police, within my head and my mind.

It is like this: you have a personality/ polarity construct. This needle/battery is then given a opinion,  a certain energy flows into this character to make it into me, playing out this character in life. I have this urge to feel that my way is “right way” and to feel superior to have my idea or “right” enforced on others, based on my be – lie – ves of who I am, and have grown into from programming.

 

It is not a fun thing to admit, lol, that I have this urge within to be a enforcer,  a police man, within and as myself.

Let me give you some perspective.

 

When I was a young kid at 7 – 12 years old. I grew up with 3 sisters and lots of cousins. We would play a lot and be messy, and play, sometime rather violent play. I remember my mother calling me the “police man” of the house. I have later suppressed this of forgotten it, but my mother tells me that I would pick on or bully particular my younger sister if they, according to me, did something wrong.

I would be on top of them and put them in their designated places. This is mostly forgotten within me now today,  but I see this personality polarity playing out and,  “wops” comes this memory of me playing police with my sisters. This plays out today within reactions, friction within me as the archetype of a judge archetype, and then triggering into a police archetype, that works it’s was through facebook, news, shopping, making dinner, working out, writing, walking etc… It is like a tiny part of my consciousness that sparks this police in my head to life and to living, practice.

 

It could play out from; looking at facebook and judging a picture a article or a video, on facebook. Or I could judge and feel need to correct someone in talks/dialogue in my daily life, or just on sight at the supermarket, judging and feeling like I have to correct it. Appearance, clothes, comments, mannerism, act etc…

 

This metaphysical “police” is like the second demon, in line after the (demon) judge archetype makes its judging, just like in society. It is all programming and lies, running a spiral – eating itself – like cancer. I have to realize that there is no right and wrong. There is only what is best for all. Investigate all things and keep that which is good – best for all.

 

Self forgiveness and self corrections inn blogs to follow.

 

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