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Day 783 – serious

Living serious



Who am I as the word serious ? The word serious can be quite interesting.

Let’s look at this word in my native tongue – Norwegian, let’s play and investigate this word.

Ser I oss ?

Ser dere oss ?

Can tho see us ?

Can you see me ?

Ser I ous –  can you see me/us ?

It ends up like a question, if I am visible or not. If anyone can see me. So what should make one stick out in a crowd ? What draws our attention on what premises ?

Let’s dive into this… We humans are a result of cultural and multilayered programming and upbringing. Consisting of memories, words,  data, energies, conscious, sub-conscious and unconscious mind that have made a myriad of impacts on us as beings. I mean we have gone thought some nasty shit to end up like we have, with constant war, crimes, inequality, pollution, abuse of life, rape, murder, ignorance and that list goes on & on. The human creation. Not a lot to be proud of – so far !


Most of us live under cultural influence and a undisputable demand to consume and  live according to polarized and painful energy surges and experiences  – constantly chasing the newest gadget, theme, movie, tech, money, porn, clothing, mobile, drug, hype etc.


We are driven by our minds (!) desire to do “this” over “that”.  Within a fraction of a  second we make our minds to chose, Paris Hilton over Naomi Klein, or Simone de Beauvoir,  we chose a coca cola, over a carrot or water, or porn instead of self investigation,  we choose violent computer games over writing our life story and reading books about perma culture. Can you agree to this  ?? We drive and chase porn, video games, and celebrities, energies, we do anything, all the time to have more money, and to improve our status above others in compare. This is still the core human drive of mentality.  This have been going on for some time now.


So why should I be serious, why should people look at one ? What makes one so special ?

To be special today, in a smart way, to be serious,  is to chose to be responsible to have awareness, and self honesty with ones living. To see and work with how minds has us in a dead lock position.  To address the programming within self, of energies and imagination within, being it emotions, believes, thoughts, addictions, personalities, behaviors, ingrained patterns, judgment, fears or desires. To see it all and I expose it, document it, chose to delete it with self forgiveness. To know how it came about, to prevent it to come again.

Here is a catch, If I don’t know what is driving me into fear then how can I stop fear ? If I don’t know the details and specifics of fear, how it origins and operates, then how to delete it ? And we know that fear feeds anger and so the spiral of abuse goes. And we see the conflict in the world as a direct result.

I am serious because I in full debt and consideration take measure of my mind, and chose to work through it, with the very best tool of self forgiveness.


I use myself and my life and living as example. I puzzle all that I have been, all my parts I dissolve and place back together after deleting the energy (addiction) involved. I am ser – I – us because I make myself un-corrupt in relation to energies/money. I delete all the element that have led me to the reactions, voices in the head, addictions, fears, judgments, ignorance, believes and so on. I take life serious. Still though;  I don’t want to separate myself into a “good person”,  a “Jesus character”, personality construct, no. I just want to share my earnest, sincere, and honest consideration of how I live my life and the experiences such.

Either to blame any type of programing – because that is all it is. Programs. If I blame something or someone that is a signal that I have something to take responsibility for in my living.


So again it is to “know thy self”  – meaning to know the physical, to know self from the flesh. To have a certain awareness of oneness energy relationship. To know how mind works, and gradually take charge of oneness mind and then ones living. To change. To be serious. It does not mean to be boring and dull and grey… no then we have missed the point. And besides that is a assumption and a judgment of others or self. To be serious it to learn self as all the self is, and to become responsible with ones process and living. To know the minds yoga and to learn how systems of mind works. To dissolve the mind systems before it manifests. To take a stand for change. Real honest and genuine. And fail me not: being serious, can be done in a clownish way. That is serious. I chose to be serious, I chose to stand up !


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Day 731 – thoughts, words and deeds

some guidance of voices/thoughts/backchats/words here today:

I have lived with voices/backchats for along time. It have been hell for may years. Today I am marginalizing my schizophrenia and my pre-programing, everyday with the tools that we share at desteni.org

And TIME HAS COME to get real, responsible and to become self honest

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“all thought is paranoia” – Bernard Poolman

I would like to look at a certain dimension, and perhaps a few different ones also. Let’s start with the scary bad/evil voices, backchats and thoughts:  And what they mean. We all have such bad nasty, backchats and they have consequences to us all. But they are in the head/mind. What do they mean ? What does it mean practically to have evil/nasty voices ?

If you have voices or tiny tiny voices/backchats in your head telling you to kill, or murder or to commit suicide. Do you know what it indicates?  We have all experienced this…

– you don’t have to be schizophrenic to hear voices

Voices or thoughts/backchats about ending a life, are indicating that you have to: change.  It means that you cannot live (this particular pattern)  no longer. It means that living a certain way, within your life, and existence that is not best for all. You hear the voices, backchats saying these words: because you need to change from a certain pattern in your life. Can you grasp this ? It is telling you to quit living a particular way.

Also one more dimension I would like to expose is thoughts, voices and backchat about sex. If you have thoughts, voices and backchat about sex, than that means that you have to look at your: self expression and/or your self – intimacy.

These two points/thoughts/voices/words peak out in humans existence. These two points are prominent and they might be alarming. But now you know (!) what they mean. So how to change ? Investigate the best place/platform to change:


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Day 656 – Living words : Balance

At desteni we are : LIVING WORDS

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Here I am taking on the word: Balance

Living words: balance



Current allocation: I would think of a juggler, juggeling with balls. I would think of balancing my breathe through the highs and lows of energies. I would balance the triangle within my thoughts, feelings and emotions. I would think I need balance to not fall over and tilt just from standing straight up. I think of balance as something I need of natural law. Balancing things on top of each other. I think of balance as a natural and universal law. I would associate balance with skills and with preformance. I would think of balance as this thing or construct that is in balance from before and that needs to be further in balance from how something else is in balance. Balance is like a state and a fundamental law.


Dictionary Definition: balance

  1. a state of equilibrium or equipoise; equal distribution of weight, amount, etc.
  2. something used to produce equilibrium; counterpoise.
  3. mental steadiness or emotional stability; habit of calm behavior, judgment, etc.
  4. a state of bodily equilibrium:

He lost his balance and fell down the stairs.

  1. an instrument for determining weight, typically by the equilibrium of a bar with a fulcrum at the center, from each end of which is suspended a scale or pan, one holding an object of known weight, and the other holding the object to be weighed.
  2. the remainder or rest:

He carried what he could and left the balance for his brother to bring.

  1. the power or ability to decide an outcome by throwing one’s strength, influence, support, or the like, to one side or the other.



balance (v.)

1570s, “be equal with,” from balance (n.). Meaning “bring or keep in equilibrium” is from 1630s; that of “keep oneself in equilibrium” is from 1833. Of accounts, from 1580s. Related: Balanced; balancing. Balanced meal, diet, etc. is from 1908.

balance (n.)

early 13c., “apparatus for weighing,” from Old French balance (12c.) “balance, scales for weighing,” also in the figurative sense; from Medieval Latin bilancia, from Late Latin bilanx, from Latin (libra) bilanx “(scale) having two pans,” possibly from Latin bis “twice” + lanx “dish, plate, scale of a balance.” The accounting sense is from 1580s; the meaning “general harmony between parts” is from 1732; sense of “physical equipoise” is from 1660s. Balance of power in the geopolitical sense is from 1701. Many figurative uses (such as hang in the balance, late 14c.), are from Middle English image of the scales in the hands of personified Justice, Fortune, Fate, etc.



Sounding of the word:

ball once

ball bounce

ball Hans

ball hands


ballan hans (Norwegian for: his balls)



Negative: I would fear to have unbalance on my credit card or fear to fall out of balance and to fall in physical from standing up.

Positive: This is a very positive word to me. It is like fundamental positive and a strong word. I am depending on this word. I am reliant to this word to live my life. It is a very supportive word to me.

Creative writing:

Balance is like a fundament of nature. A universal law sort of. I have drifted from balance into all sorts of issues. I need to have balance with my life. Balance is like, to rely on something so strongly that it will improve oneness progress. Balance is that non – movement and stills stand of calm and ease. Balance simply is. Balance is that unique way of structuring things. This world with its humans is lacking balance. This world needs balance so badly, so there is no wonder why there is so much war, abuse and separation going on. No wonder that there is so much difficulties going on as long as we have no balance. Balance is so badly needed, and I use this word to heal. I live this word, flow through it with my breathe and my senses. I live it with balancing my thoughts and feelings and emotions. I would live this word, and realize myself as this word. I would associate with this word and think of what I compare to this word. I realize how I write “I would” – with relating to this word. So there is something fundamental that I would do if I was living this word in my real or honesty or in virtue. Balance has deep roots with equality. And with being rooted or grounded. Balance is like to have a good self trust. Balance is to be calm and at ease. Balance is like to find myself, and to have a place of balance to empower from. I see balance as a my drug. I see myself carrying out some activity and doing some sort of work where I would rush for that one second and I would sort of loose balance, within the split of a second. This world is in colaps and it is crashing. So we are in system speaking, very out of balance today. So we need to find balance, a functional economy, and equality. That would change things – after the collapse. Further I would need to balance my days, with what I do to give the world balance i need to be in balance. Make food, vacume, go to gym, or just walk, read a book, writ a blog, do the dishes, and so on. I need a balance in what I do. I need different things to fill my day with. A balance. In this world that is so much out of balance, I need to be in balance. I need to be in balance, from how this world with its governments, wars, abuse, separation etc… is out of balance I need to be in balance.



Balance is when different elements and substance are cooperating into creating a solution that is best for all, reliant on the other to exist in equilibrium.








Day 649 – Living words : luminous



Current allocation:

Luminous, cool word. I don’t have much experience with this word to my awareness. I will nonetheless live this word. It is sort of a new word to me. Although when I see it defied as what it means, from dictionary and usage,  I recognize it from experiences of this word. This word is there for almost new to me.

Dictionary definition:

  1. radiating or reflecting light; shining; bright.


  1. lighted up or illuminated; well-lighted:

the luminous ballroom.


  1. brilliant intellectually; enlightened or enlightening, as a writer or a writer’s works:

a luminous concept; luminous prose.


  1. clear; readily intelligible: a concise, luminous report.



luminous (adj.)

early 15c., “full of light,” from Latin luminosus “shining, full of light,” from lumen (genitive luminis) “light,” related to lucere “to shine” (see light (n.)). Related: Luminously.


Sounding of word:

lome – nuss (kiss from the pocket)


low man is

law man is

Polarity attachment:

negative: I would think it is a strange word, slightly negative, because it is hard to open, I find the word strange/new. It is sort of hard to find. It is close to creating a personality or for a personality to take on this light and live like a personality, and that is not ok.

positive: To me this word holds great potential and it I find the word really exiting, I think I can learn lots from this word.


Creative writing: The sun and the stars are like luminous. And we sort of carry this inside of us from life.  Luminous is like you are holding on to a great and cool secret that can benefit us all. It is like the key to the treasure. If you hold luminuns you are important to consider. You are holding light and colores for all to discover. You are like a star that is to bring light on others.


Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of luminous is someone that is greedy and that holds back something, not willing to share with others.


New definition: Carrying light or glimpses from stars within ones being, to share and bring light with others.

Day 648 – Living word: breathe

Roman Mosaic Donated by President Bourguiba

Allocation to word:

Breathe…. where to start. I am always breathing, the body is constantly working with oxygen and air. The question is am I aware of my breathing ? It is constant but not a automatic process. It is close to automatic but not quite so. Breathe gives life to who I am. Breathe gives life to my physical. I see that I have been over living this word I have been trying to live it too hard. I have been trying to breathe with awareness – to hard. I would think of breathe and I would associate with two things, life and stress. I breathe myself to stress by over doing it. Further I realize that it is not just me that is breathing. Most life forms breathe. Even fish have organs to breathe for them under water.

Dictionary definition:

  1. to take air, oxygen, etc., into the lungs and expel it; inhale and exhale; respire.
  2. (in speech) to control the outgoing breath in producing voice and speech sounds.
  3. to pause, as for breath; take rest:

How about giving me a chance to breathe?

  1. to move gently or blow lightly, as air.
  2. to live; exist:

Hardly a man breathes who has not known great sorrow.

  1. to be redolent of.
  2. (of a material) to allow air and moisture to pass through easily:



breathe (v.)

  1. 1300, not in Old English, but it retains the original Old English vowel of its source word, breath. Related: Breathed; breathing.

breather (n.)

  1. 1600, “a living creature, one who breathes,” agent noun from breathe. Meaning “spell of exercise to stimulate breathing” is from 1836; that of “a rest to recover breath” is from 1901.



Sounding of word:

bris – (gentle wind in Norwegian)





bæsj – (poo in Norwegian)





Polarity of word:

negative: I would associate breathe with stress, and with getting anxious from over doing it. I would think I had to breathe in a stressing tempo to be aware of my breathing. I was overdoing it.

positive: I would associate with calm and comforting breathe that fills me with life from breathing inn and expressing myself when breathing out.

Creative writing:

Breathe can be so much more supportive to me than what I allow it to today. I realize that most life forms I know of is breathing. I realize that I can improve my breathing skills, by slowing down and breathing more calm. A calm breathe is so much better than a stressful breathe. A calm breathe is more sane and more healthy. Breathe should be experienced as supportive and nice. One should work with self communication and release energies to better oneness breathe/chest from obstacles and ones pain and energies. To have a overall improved and better life. Breathe is supposed to flow through me like a gentle stream. Breathe should be nice and calm. Gentle and smooth.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think in brief moments during my day, that I should hurry up and breathe or push myself through fields of energies to be able to breathe, making my life stressful and painful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to be aware of my breathing in moments of stress during my ordinary day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I had to push myself to breathe going into energies and sort of vibration within my body, and my mind thinking this is a solution when it is simply a painful and confusing process where I need to bring myself back from that “high” into sanity, calamity and ease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to think of my breathe because I would fear to face my secrets and my so called week spots within physical and for refusing to take on or talk about breathe, since I am so dependent on it that I look upon it like it is a addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of breathe like a addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I don’t fully know the benefits of breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don’t know really what breathe is.

When and as I see myself compromising my life and my physical, in  movements and I go into stress, and I forget to be aware of breathe. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that slowing down is moving faster through process, and I should along with slowing down also focus more on my breathing. I realize that a slow and calm breathe is better for me. I realize I should not strive and keep pushing myself as much compared to simply : to slow the fuck down, and to further feel my breathe/physical. I commit myself to feel my breath each time I breathe. I commit myself to live by the virtue of breathe awareness and self honesty. I commit myself to breathe as nothingness.


New definition:

Breathe is the experience of inhaling and exhaling of air through ones body. Breathe is a important part of life.  Breathe is food for the body.

Day 615 – I know & I don’t know

I can clearly remember saying “I know” – when my mother would tell me it is time to clean my room when I was young. Or saying “I don’t know” to the teacher in class when I think I could know the answer.

Saying “I know” to my mother is like turning her suggestion down in that moment. At the same time I say “I know”, I tell myself “yea right like I am going to clean my room” – serving resistance within my mind. So a new dimension is opening up to me.

Saying “I do not know”, is like letting the teacher know that I am not really interested in what is being said to me. I am not cooperating. “I don’t know” – “I don’t care”. A new dimension opens up.

Or if a friend asks me how this car/washing machine/computer etc. works, and if I would say “I don’t know”, I would simply not be interested in solving the issue/problem- at all. Careless.

So these words that are supposed to be like explaining a simple things of having or not having that type of knowledge, is then turned into almost like swearing, or acting in offense, defense and disapproval, almost like spite. Saying “I don’t know” is like acting  in defense or apathy or resistance.

Something that should have been easy going and simple turn into something new, a new dimension.

And that holds to me new prosperity and new opportunities to work on myself. And forgive myself, within the hidden layers of these words: “I know” & ” I don’t know”

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