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Day 793 – Book of life – self authority

I just had the most amazing discovery last night !

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Let me share with you, I was going to bed and doing so, going over some words that have been afloat in my awareness the last days. Some living words. The word “self authority” would peak out. And I would look at it. Close. To see what lies hidden within this word for me ??

First thing i would imagine is a police-man, being all authority and “hard”. Or a thought that “God” is the ultimate authority. Or an old teacher perhaps ? All such things I have now laid behind me and forgiven in detail.
After forgiving the energy addictions within so, I have come to open up this word to myself further – beyond actually – and what it would show me was absolutely amazing. Have you heard about term: “the book of life ” ? Well the saying goes that everyone has a book of life that is being read by self and in that manner – lived by self. It may seem complicated to understand but the basic is that we create our own reality. Abracadabra. So myself authority is me, and within me being the author of my book of life, I create and shape my words to go into my own book of life – that is my life and my reality that I create breath by breathe. Word by word.

Soooo that leads to the very bold but sane conclusion that I am my own self authority – by being the author of my own book of life. Creating my own book of life with my next breathe.

I know that there is no God that is ruling us like we are often led to believe. But now grounding it more back to self, back to reality, oneness and equality and what is best for all – and within all is also me. So I get what is best. By creating, in this second/breathe my own reality.

The book of life is my life – I will not leave it up to some projection of a bully, to rule me. No more !

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Check out the links; they assisted me to come to this very awesome discovery:

These links are super – potent with the finest of support

– I am living proof

https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

living words & school of ultimate living: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuBohSdyFq2Dyr5CJikvhsA

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Day 784 – Holding Back and Imprisoning My Life – Life Review

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Living the words “What are you waiting for ?” I think we all can see our self face to face with our limitations somehow, and that most of us have lived this sentence, within our experience. Like sentencing our self. “I sentence you/self to so & so..”

https://eqafe.com/p/holding-back-and-imprisoning-my-life-life-review

So within this interview from some ones living and experience, this is then explained how these words, this sentencing of self is making our life – less. Often we find that it is some specific thing from our past that we cannot take responsibility for. It is some event or story from our past, that we will not become one with, where we really would benefit, grow and expand if we really dare to look behind this sentencing. And how it is fear and fear of losing control that will make us abdicate and further separate from these events from our past. Emotional things, that has command on us, in a deadlock. So we end up simply recycling or mind systems and our past emotions and live those systems over and over again.

Listen to this person unwrap the life process that was walked with challenges starting to accumulate at art school and how life is limited from a experience at school.

It is about taking that little leap of self communication, being open and honest with self. Learning to know self, and work ones way through the limitations.

 

Looking at the words “what are you waiting for ?”, or “what is holding you back?” can be used, written out with pen and paper, to really investigate self and see within self, into me I see…. forgive the energy components within and realize self from those points that had self in prison by self.

You would be amazed of your potential if you could start with listening to this interview, and then go asking self, some real deep and existential questions, like what is holding me back from living me ? We all know and have dreams of utopia, and our outmost potential. Individually we are the key.  The change starts with a really deep look into our self. Into me I see. Don’t forget self forgiveness.

 

So really:  what is holding you back ?

I recommend pen and paper.

 

Enjoy !

 

These links are super – potent with the finest of support

– I am living proof

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

Day 774 – Establishing a consistent daily routine

There is some routines and some patterns that I would like to add to my day to day living. I have been practicing living this for a while, but I need to establish it further and more sound, so I write about it.

 

In the mornings when I wake up: first thing I do, maybe before going out of bed, is to drink water. It is very healthy for the body to start with water – first thing in the morning. Then standing up and after  getting dressed, I embrace myself (!) and tell myself that; I embrace myself within this day in totality with all its content, and then I find one or two words to live, during my day.

I go about my day with all that there is and use the application of self forgiveness and self correction, breathe awareness, and so on… to assist me through the day. Writing out my thoughts and issues as the day goes, and practicing self forgiveness as the key to change. Writing and living the change is key to understand self, grow and expand.

In the evening after massaging my feet, I lay down and I make up status for my day. What happened this day ? How did it affect me ? Did I face challenges ? What are my thoughts during the day ?

Answering this as I lay down and talk to myself, finding the outcome and solutions to my issues, this completes my day.

 

 

This eqafe recording concerns lots of what I mention here in my writing:

https://eqafe.com/p/when-memories-run-deep

 

For more info on life challenges, solutions and issues:

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

 

 

Day 653 – Living Words: Discipline

At desteni we are : LIVING WORDS

Check out links: http://wiki.destonians.com/Living_Word

& http://forum.desteni.org/viewforum.php?f=147

 

Here I am taking on the word: discipline

 

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Current allocation:

I would relate to military and strict rules when I relate this word. I would imagine  teachers that yell and shout at me from this word. I would imagine a sergeant in military, yelling and screaming at me to do things according to the rules. I would associate this word with lots of rules and regulations. I would think of physical work in relation to this word. I could need to strive for discipline in my life.

 

Dictionary Definition (s)

Training to act in accordance with rules; drill: military discipline.

Activity, exercise, or a regimen that develops or improves a skill; training: A daily stint at the typewriter is excellent discipline for a writer.

Punishment inflicted by way of correction and training.

The rigor or training effect of experience, adversity, etc.: the harsh discipline of poverty.

Behavior in accord with rules of conduct; behavior and order maintained by training and control: good discipline in an army.

A set or system of rules and regulations. Ecclesiastical. The system of government regulating the practice of a church as distinguished from its doctrine.

 

 

Etymology:

early 13c., “penitential chastisement; punishment,” from Old French discipline (11c.) “discipline, physical punishment; teaching; suffering; martyrdom,” and directly from Latin discipline “instruction given, teaching, learning, knowledge,” also “object of instruction, knowledge, science, military discipline,” from disciples (see disciple (n.))

 

Sounding of word:

 

Disciple

The disciple

Led Zeppelin

This is pine

This in bin

 

Negative polarity: I related to military and also physical punishment with this word.

Positive polarity: It is something to achieve and gain in ones process that could be over all supportive to reach for.

 

Creative writing: Discipline can be very much a struggle and a strive. Discipline takes strength and determination and will power. Discipline have been occupied from military because of the rules and design within military. The word discipline have been taken into military  living because of how one can evolve and adapt to this word. To achieve discipline is like training self in being.

 

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word discipline to military and by doing that I make myself a victim and thinking there is a sergeant yelling at me “teaching” me discipline.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that military is the right or wrong place to learn discipline and because of giving military this idea that is good for discipline I feel like I betray myself from giving military this idea because of how I think military is over all a bad and wrong institution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link discipline to institutions and to betterment or improvement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to picture a drill sergeant yelling at me, telling me orders, creating a picture in my head of what discipline is all about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear discipline from fearing military.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate discipline from hating military.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that military is wrong in its ways only to realize that it is a product of our overall programming and brainwashing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take on discipline out of fear of hurting myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that discipline is a too hard a chore/task for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take on discipline out of fear of what I might experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that discipline is only a physical experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link discipline to physical working out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to picture myself stretching my arms out to reach for discipline.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that discipline is that perfect order within or without of oneself.

 

Self correction:

When and as I see myself thinking of this word discipline and relating it to military, I stop myself I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that I associate this word to military because of military firmness and strictness. I realize that I associate this word with military from military codex and obedience, order and authority. I realize that I will take on this work discipline and I will work to end all military and such programming. I commit myself to end all programming and separation, that leads us to think we need a military. I commit myself to teach myself discipline within my everything. I commit myself to take on challenges to live the word discipline within my everyday living. I commit myself to live in and as discipline.

 

New definition: Discipline is to reach for the perfect order.

 

 

Day 652 – Living words GENTLENESS

At desteni we are : LIVING WORDS

Check out links: http://wiki.destonians.com/Living_Word

& http://forum.desteni.org/viewforum.php?f=147

 

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GENTLENESS

Current allocation: I would think of this word like : over protection, like giving more coz and attention than needed. Like a nurse simply “diddeling and doddeling” with you, giving you lots of extra and not asked for attention and consideration. I would think of this word as a word over the top, like to exaggerate. To overdo something.

Dictionary definition: gentleness

  1. Considerate or kindly in disposition; amiable and tender.
  2. Not harsh or severe; mild and soft: a gentle scolding; a gentle tapping at the window.
  3. Easily managed or handled; docile: a gentle horse.
  4. Not steep or sudden; gradual: a gentle incline.
  5. a. Of good family; wellborn: a child of gentle birth.
  6. Suited to one of good breeding; refined and polite: a gentle greeting to a stranger.
  7. Archaic Noble; chivalrous: a gentle knight.

 

Etymology: gentleness (n.)

  1. 1300, “inherited nature,” from gentle + -ness. Meaning “freedom from harshness or violence” is from 1610s.

 

Sounding of word:

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gentel test

geenes

gentle nest

jeans next

 

Polarity:

Negative: I would think of gentleness as “to much care”. Like to overdo it. “Too much of good” sort of. And a sort of fear of what opens up within – from experiencing gentleness.

Positive: I would think of considering and providing care and consideration to others. To be gentle and to go with ease.

 

Creative writing:

It is connected to genes somehow, like how we must be gentle with even our genes. Harsh is like the opposite of gentle(ness). I would realize that there is no overdoing goodness or ease at all, it is just my imagination. Doing good cannot become “too good”. By doing lots of good or being over all gentle and easy, one is making people more kind and open to more gentleness. By being gentle one opens up new doors and oneness consciousness to new consideration and to simple best for all solutions. It is sort of claiming peace.

 
Redefinition:

Gentleness: is being so; over all good and acting with such ease, that it inspires to further consideration and further healing. Gentleness, is claiming peace by being so good it makes people surrender their tensions/arms/polarities.

 

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Day 650 – Personality: “mr perfect”

I realize I have been living a personality. To end this polarity game,  I forgive it, and correct myself and live the changes: enjoy:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my life and my living must be perfect and clean and neat sort of making myself obsessed with my every move and what goes on inside myself where I get so perky about my mistakes that I forget to live the change and I forget or I suppress my data/elements, and forget to actually correct myself and live the change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a complete personality out of myself where I give into the negative pole by thinking “I can’t be perfect” and “I have to arrange myself”.. with something higher and something more precious and more of value all the time like living in archaic system that is also collapsing at the same time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the positive polarity of this person with how I think I have to improve myself over and over again telling myself to be more of light or more of luminous and more enlighten than anyone else, making myself into this superior hero type that no one can get to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of myself as out of reach.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for my childhood dream or fantasy about having the perfect life of infinite limits, that I strive to ever after/present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is not sane or healthy to experience my life as perfect or superior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that perfect is superior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide these ideas about myself in my secret mind, where I experience backchats and self victimization over not being perfect or living up to my idea of perfect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a idea of being “perfect” and how it must be a like a Hollywood star or a body builder etc, some fabricated robot of mass media that is supposed to be “perfect”, that is projected to be perfect, and lovable, like Brad Pit or Michael Jordan or any other male Idol or star from programming.

 

When and as I see myself going into stress and commotion/friction over not being Mr. perfect, I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that the road to perfection is long and perhaps not that easy to walk, all the time, and I realize I must allow myself to do mistakes. I can’t learn unless I do some wrongs. I realize that I must use common sense and down to earth principles within this.   I realize that perfection can take many years. I commit myself to walk everyday steady and consistent towards perfection. I commit myself to slowing down to be able see myself and to support myself.

Day 645 – Living the word “relax”

 

Living words. “Word” is very much like “world” – in this world/word we are driven by words to do things, either in honesty or in ego, it is almost always something driving us – we are living words. To be aware of this and to take self direction of this is my chore. We must take on words that we can proudly carry in openes and to live these words in sincerity and inn virtue. It must be understood that if you live a “bad” word a word with negative polarity with it, you are then also creating negativity around you. At the same time, to be aware of how polarity work. If I give into my polarity “love” – I give in these energies to my positive polarity, failing to see how the energies also feed the down side of the pole, the fear. I give into my polarity construct “positive energies” failing to see the down side of the polarity which is – fear.

Polarity design:

https://eqafe.com/p/the-design-of-polarity

 

Living word:

http://wiki.destonians.com/Living_Word

 

When I hear this word relax – I imagine myself laying down and not doing anything, just breathing. I am not doing anything in particular. When I relax I am centering and grounding myself with and as myself by breathe and my physical.

Lets look at the dictionary definition:

make or become less tense or anxious.

“Cicely relaxed her hold”

  • straighten or partially uncurl (hair) using a chemical product

make (a rule or restriction) less strict.

“the ministry relaxed some of the restrictions”

 

Etymology:

relax (v.)

late 14c., “to make (something) less compact or dense,” from Old French relaschier “set free; soften; reduce” (14c.), from Latin relaxare “relax, loosen, open, stretch out, widen again; make loose,” from re- “back” (see re-) + laxare “loosen,” from laxus “loose” (see lax). Of persons, “to become less formal,” from 1837. Meaning “decrease tension” is from early 15c.; intransitive sense of “to become less tense” is recorded from 1935. Related: Relaxed; relaxing.

 

 

Sounding of the word:

real – axa (axa is a food company)

real – axe (the real axe)

re – lex (a lexus one more time)

re – leks (new home work, the norwegian word “lekser” means home work)

re – laks (one more time salom, laks means salmon in norwegian)

re – lax – to let go of anxiety again

 

Polarity of word:

Of the negative polarity experience of this word, I would think that I have to stop what I am doing and sort of change my activity. I would have to slow down or stop what I doing and do something else.

Of the positive polarity I would think that when I relax I let go of tension and anxiety. I would simply breathe into healing from angst.

 

Creative writing:

When I relax it is obvious I do something from a starting point of having done it before and am doing it over again. To re – something do it again on repeat. So I would think I would know what this is about. But do we really know how to let go of anxiety ? Is it as easy as it sounds ?

To re – charge ones batteries sort of and to let go of anxiety. When I relax I am listening to the body and checking it for possible damage or energy movements. In the deepest form it would be to go back to being embryo in my mothers belly to live that point and to picture myself as a embryo and at the start of my life, to re – live myself again to re – lax and feel comfort.

 

New definition:

Relax : is to get in contact with physical self and to update on ones status of body; to let go of anxiety.

 

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