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Day 795 – Relationship patterns within me/self forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have second thoughts and to practically want to dump the relationship when it gets hard within facing some challenges and to have a plan B, a extra girl that I could go into a relationship with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don’t really want a relationship, I want just the sex and good times the rest can just be, and within this fall back on old patterns of using girls in relationships as objects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want the hard parts of a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know what a relationship is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think a relationship is like “Friends” or “Sex in the city” or any typical TV show or magazine picture that is 100 % fake news – on what a relationship is about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust in TV and Hollywood/whatever lifestyle on what is reality and how things work, living in a bubble, that has no match, it is simply no-good for relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have not defined a relationship to myself, how I would realistic want it to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can not value or appreciate a girl since I have schizophrenia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to commit to a girl, out of fear of what I might say or do that would expose me and leave me vulnerable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be honest and to fear to be me, open and vulnerable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am not mature enough to have a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad and sad for how I have handled relationships in my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an abuser of relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate myself or the other being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value life as I would like to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate myself and give myself space.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect someone to love me when I don’t love myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect someone to like me when I don’t like myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect someone to want to be with me when I cant be with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to open up and communicate on all levels of me to a partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money solves all issues with a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that sex solves all issues with a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that imagining, nice fluffy words, imaginations and projections is any good for a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Netflix/HBO solves and saves a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to……….(you can fill in on your own terms; self forgiveness goes beyond relationships)

 

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self forgiveness has the best effect : when spoken out load – like self communication

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Day 793 – Book of life – self authority

I just had the most amazing discovery last night !

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Let me share with you, I was going to bed and doing so, going over some words that have been afloat in my awareness the last days. Some living words. The word “self authority” would peak out. And I would look at it. Close. To see what lies hidden within this word for me ??

First thing i would imagine is a police-man, being all authority and “hard”. Or a thought that “God” is the ultimate authority. Or an old teacher perhaps ? All such things I have now laid behind me and forgiven in detail.
After forgiving the energy addictions within so, I have come to open up this word to myself further – beyond actually – and what it would show me was absolutely amazing. Have you heard about term: “the book of life ” ? Well the saying goes that everyone has a book of life that is being read by self and in that manner – lived by self. It may seem complicated to understand but the basic is that we create our own reality. Abracadabra. So myself authority is me, and within me being the author of my book of life, I create and shape my words to go into my own book of life – that is my life and my reality that I create breath by breathe. Word by word.

Soooo that leads to the very bold but sane conclusion that I am my own self authority – by being the author of my own book of life. Creating my own book of life with my next breathe.

I know that there is no God that is ruling us like we are often led to believe. But now grounding it more back to self, back to reality, oneness and equality and what is best for all – and within all is also me. So I get what is best. By creating, in this second/breathe my own reality.

The book of life is my life – I will not leave it up to some projection of a bully, to rule me. No more !

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Check out the links; they assisted me to come to this very awesome discovery:

These links are super – potent with the finest of support

– I am living proof

https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

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Day 764 – meeting the portal

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My first meeting with the interdimentional portal

 

I was just this last week in Brussels, Belgium, for a destonian gathering. We had been planning to meet there since new year’s 16/17. We all chipped in for a ticket so that Sunette (the portal) could travel to Belgium to see us. We where about 30 people at the most when we would gather in central Brussels.

 

I was first greeted by my fellow destonian Talamon (Tala), at the airport. After that we would travel into the city to see Leila, Gian, Cesar and Sunette. Before meeting I have been going through some projections and expectations of the whole thing. I would forgive and release these expectations when they occurred. The moment I would hug Sunette I sort of went into a reaction. Both from being tired of traveling, and also from the surprise of seeing how normal and ordinary people really are. You might say not what I expected lol.

 

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So in that station hall, we would then first meet and hug. It was a sort of breaking point to me, and I was quite shaking right then and a few minutes later. But to my pleasant surprise I managed quite fine. I was able to release the energy and move within/without.

 

I was considered and my mental health, and I was asked if I was not tired. I was asked if I was ok. I was going though some reactions, like I said,  but I managed very good. I was surprised by myself how well it all went.

Later in the park, we got to see first-hand portaling. Beings like Anuaki, Lilly and Mykey, presented them self to us. And we had a chat then in the Brussels park. A very cool experience indeed.

Also I had a portaling done, to only me, to hear from my mind, body and being. With the intent to bring my being forth within. To give me some strengthening advice and hear what my being /body / mind could tell me that I could not see/hear or had missed. I was told among other things that “You are stronger than what you think you are” and “Start with yoga” – such a advice. I was very thrilled to hear this and today is my third day of yoga, doing a new beginners course from youtube.

 

So meeting the portal and all the other destonians walking life process, was a  deep honor and a deep sense of gratitude. It was over all fun and I learned lots about myself.

 

Thank you each one of you that I was able to hug and greet !

Together we walk, equal and one  !

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http://desteniiprocess.com/

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https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

 

 

Day 586 – How to end self judging ?

Why do we self judge?
Why do I judge myself because of what happened years back ?

When I look at this point I realize that I wonder sort of why do I want to punish myself … ever? I have this little room or space within my awareness and sort of within my being and mind that tells me that I should not judge myself because then I will only hurt myself. What is this place or this area where I can nurture and give place to grow, to NOT judge myself ?

One more time. I have this space or seat or area within myself … where I do not allow myself to judge myself at all – because it is foolish. Self judging is wrong. It is obvious but it is very, very forgotten by most. So.. I have managed to create this little space within myself out of common sense, to tell myself to NOT judge myself.

The place in itself is sort of naked and … natural by looks. From origins sort of. It relates to learning and to being inspired.

Capture this: My space inside myself, that tell me to avoid self judging is a place for learning and inspiration, creativity and occupation. Learning new skills. Being busy. That is important. Not giving myself time to judge myself – by having a schedule to follow 24/7 – that is it ! What is best for all. Learning new things meeting new folks, sharing new ideas, eating new food, talking new tunes, dancing new dances etc. That is the opposite to judging self, That is real life.

That is the area that I will nurture. I will make time supportive, and to make my creativity and self worth grow and expand.

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Day 555 – Restless at spring

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It is spring time in Norway. The first flowers have emerged from the ground and the first birds have arrived from the south. It is that time of year where new life is born. The farmers, in the rural area where I live, are having lambs born of their sheep. And it is that time of year where we can be allowed to play outside without a jacket, and without the extra clothes that winter forces on us.

A phenomena that I have discussed lately, that is just sad and wrong, is the winter/summer times, that comes with turning the clock to a different season/light. This is just lunatic and wrong. It is like we are told that we do not handle light and darkness. Come on. This is mockery and it have got to stop. There are 5 % more heart attacks in Norway during this shift. That have got to end.

But back to my point. During spring I get, anxious, I feel like moving, traveling, exploring, meeting girls, sing and shout, and … I feel like I want to do something, there is a urge within me. Like I am more superior.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live this urge over and over again each spring like a automate pattern that is simply reoccurring over and over again. I want to live without this urge and my need to move and get anxious.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am allowed to feel superior because it is spring.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that spring is the farmers time to work on land and to care for animals and that this time of year is specially dedicated to the farmer and that this again creates a urge within me to become farmer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the urge I get when there is lambs being born and there is Easter and the tradition around the world with Easter, that is supposed to celebrate Jesus dying and living again where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my tradition of boiling eggs and burning a fire on the mountain with my family and the people that I hold dear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I think that we have created a cool solution to celebrating Easter that is like to be with family and friends on a mountain, that is a cool new tradition to give each other time and to be with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am living my life from the past, like seed buried in the snow and that I am living life over and over again with the same urge like a pre – program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my desires are born during spring and that this is the good time to have sex and meet women because of my urge to be more active and have less clothes on inn general programmed, feel more free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project out blame on to the government and officials because of how they still cling on to the old summer winter time schedule, of truing the clock, where I realize that it is my ability to be social and to make new friends, that is the root of this blame, where I realize that I need new friend and I need to socialize more and to be more “out there”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that every time the spring comes I need to follow my dreams and my desires, thinking that I could become a farmer or to set plants and seeds for the future and be a part of nurturing life and to see life grow and develop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the spring is better than fall or summer or winter.

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When and as I see myself going into this urge or doing something extra or more like I get superior during spring, I stop myself and I take a deep breath and I slow myself down. I realize that spring time in Norway is that time of year that life is reborn and that life is re – created. I realize that spring time is that time of years that I relate to Easter and to be with my family on a mountain and burn a fire. I realize that I like to be with my family/friends, and to bring on traditions that are the best for all life. I realize that all people have spiritual sides with them that they need to or want to live out. I commit myself to root my spirituality and to be here and as my spiritual self, like I am a spire, I spire, I inspire, within life on what is here in front of me and to not limit myself spiritually but to use commonsense and to do what is best for all. I commit myself to let people have their spiritual or religions in peace and to not confront or attack anyone, in any way about their spiritual lives, but to follow the golden rule of do onto others like I would like to be done unto myself.

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