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Day 794 – What does the Rhino say ?

So today I have been working with mowing the lawn. It was a very decent job and I quite like that type of work. I was able to use my body and to work up a sweat. Which I enjoy !

After dinner and dishes, I went into my apartment where I live, and where I have my computer, and I felt a bit tired, like after having worked well and eaten well – feeling like resting.

So I thought to myself, what would be nice to listen to now ? Music ? Something else ? While dozing on the sofa ? So I went to the online store of eqafe.com where I have a subscribtion, and I found in the animal’s life review section, the consciousness of the Rhino.

That is right; the two sound files, of the Rhinos consciousness was after a few seconds and clicks, sent to me to listen to. It was the Rhino talking about life, the mind, the physical, the beingness and the breathe….

That is where we are at folks ! That is the type of awareness that is out there, at your fingertips, and that we are able to access. Eqafe.com will blow your mind like nothing have done before. Guaranteed. Give time to eqafe – give time to discover self.

Are you ready for this next level shit ? We are moving… are you with us ?

I literally came home from work and dinner, and I lay down on my sofa and listened to the words that the Rhino want to share with humanity. Pretty fucking awesome huh ! If you listen to it: you know deep within, that it is sound, real and honest.
Here are links :

https://eqafe.com/p/the-consciousness-of-the-rhino-part-1
https://eqafe.com/p/the-consciousness-of-the-rhino-part-2

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enjoy !

Day 737- relying on likes

relying on likes

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to rely on likes on facebook, instagram and other services to see that  “thumb up” and to give into that brief and simple appreciation of seeing that other people like or appear to like something i have created.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel down and sad and isolated if there are few likes or “thumbs up” on my page and on my creation, that would lead me into thinking why am i not popular and why don’t no one like what i do; ect feeling down and low/isolated.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be excluded from the norm.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be excluded ultimately by myself and my living since i have learned to love/live/accept myself without relying on energies/thumbs and mind/polarity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to fish for likes by posting things I would assume is cool.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the now of consciousness when I make myself addicted to likes, instead of living/producing matereal free, honest, here in awareness and “raw” from my inside to the outside/facebook.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine or think that i am in need in any way to have likes and followers to be “right”

 

 

surprising to me, i had a cry last night :

 

 

 

http://wiki.destonians.com/Self-Forgiveness

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

http://desteni.org/

 

Day 614 – It is all energies (Jar of Self – Forgiveness)

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(an old bike of mine – Stavanger/Norway 2000 something)

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for the pain I feel in my right feet where I search and find that it is my hypofyse that is connected to my feet right where I feel pain, where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is not all we know of this part of the brain and physics which leads me to the awareness that I myself have to be honest, in fact self honest about how to indentify this pain as a energy and its components/substance/physics.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that self honesty and investigating of life and dimensions of this existence require some deep and honest investigating and commitment/writing to really find the cause of the pain/dimension/topic and to release the energy, to forgive and to let go of the memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that as my mind stabilizes within my process of walking a 7 year (14 year) journey to life I am at the same time, becoming aware that physical is stronger than mind and even though I will not conquer my mind in this life, I will and must stabilize my relationship with it, like I am, and so start to consider others as I consider myself equally in my every breathe awareness on my journey to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to investigate life and living as of thinking I should be more or do more within my awareness of realizing and myself and living my fullest potential, as life, failing to see life and failing to be life and rather to be using energies on expectations and in competition in mind and with conscious imaginations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I have troubles and difficulties with imagination thinking that my imagination is driving me insane/crazy with its complexity and strength, failing to realize that it is all energies that are fucking with me, like rides and mind fucks: it is all simply: energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can cure my mind energies with new energies, creating new conscious over and over again mesmerizing myself with projections and thinking/pictures getting all entangled and fucked up with energies and data within driving me to psychosis and suffering/pain in my body, where I fail to realize again: it is all energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am only stabile when I write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I must write a book, or climb a mountain, to “truly” empower myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at my old teachers/system for not teaching me to empower myself as of school and society could not, so coaching and empowerment is major business of today letting the elite (wealthy) run of with the most and best esoteric/educative training, feeding the poor with empty promises and the limitations of hope and religions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I have to jump out of my good self, meaning to “jump ” out of my comforts zone and become more than myself and to realize myself as more or greater, failing to realize it is simply a question of integrity or of status/awareness, how I feel inn a given moment, which is supposed to be in equality and oneness because that is what I strive for and that is the purpose of this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is no connection in these self- forgiveness sentences that I write so I should not post it, judging myself as “not worthy” or “inferior” or “bad” because of how I see myself as not clean or not tidy, and thinking my writing is a mess.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my effort and my writing to those of A or B thinking that A or B or anyone else in reality is not me and we are all different with our unique skills and experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am obligated or supposed in any matter and to feel pressured to realize myself or feel pressured, to live my fullest potential where I would in any matter think that this is NOT something I want or should do simply because I have my diagnosis and I should there for be handicapped and limit myself out of my own paranoia.

Check out the links & have a nice day !

Yo listen : https://eqafe.com/

The platform of all the fun: http://desteni.org/

Walk the talk: http://desteniiprocess.com/

Lets walk the easy first: http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

The program: livingincome.me/

Day 533 – Stop the separation of self

What is me.
Stop the separation.

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I realize that I am going head on into some stress within my daily living lately. It comes and goes. It is the stress of feeling like separating from the parts of me that I would think of as some old trolls or skeletons in my closet. From the past.

I have a few skeletons in my closet. They are there. I need to embrace them from time to time to make sure that they are my responsibilities to handle, and I notice that I would fear them to be exposed to the sun shine or to the public conscious, and I further realize that I would fear to have them out open in the open, out of fear of separation from that and of letting go of the responsibilities of the memories. Because I must not forget that these memories are a part of me. They make who I am.

I realize that I have done everything that I can do to remove the energies from these trolls or these memories. And if there is components that I can work on still. I will do that. I realize that I must from now include these memories to my living and to my responsibilities of who I am. I realize that I must let myself escape from myself that would be separation and that would be wrong, and conflict.

And this is one of the BIG points in life. We as humans are seperated from mind. And it is driving us CRAZY. That is some of the purpose of why I am participating with desteni. To become equal and one with my mind. And literally everything.

It is a life chore to let go of the “hook from the past”. It is important to be one, total and genuine and responsible with self. Lets walk it together.

http://desteni.org/

Day 528 – Safety of income = edification of myself.

I joined desteni 3 years ago. It was in January 2012.  At this point in my life I was very much a wreck. My process kicked off in may 2012. I first walked some months with demonology as I was having some possessions that I had to clear out. Desteni can help with such measures: http://demons.desteni.org/ I have walked Desteni I process lite: http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ – it is cool, and it is free, and now I am busy constructing mind constructs, with the Desteni I process pro (professional). I joined to become free of voices. And to clear my mind. To straighten up in life. And to my pleasant surprise, Desteni, is so much more than that. Much more. I work through mind. Perfecting me. I feel like I am in the middle of my process and I am making progress quite extensively. And that have very, very much to do with the fact that I can do this. I can afford the cost, to participate with this program. Welfare inn Norway makes it affordable to walk a Desteni I process pro, with my back ground. The lite course is for free, and so is participating on Desteni forum. The professional course cost, and so does eqafe products. I can afford to walk with Desteni and to learn mind. And I don’t not have to work to be able to participate. It is a really cool experience, with being secure of income. I receive 16000 kroners (2100 USD) each month. From disability. From rock bottom.  Anyone should be granted this kind opportunity to have a automated safe income, to be able to walk this so genuine and very cool experience that Desteni, offers. And for that I feel grateful and glad. I am included in the online community of Desteni. Anyone could be included there, as long as one is ready to take responsibility and to be honest. To learn self forgiveness. It is the coolest group. Being here, In the now/moment. Realizing, exploring, walking through, focus on and breathing inn and out, as our very presence.

I am a destonian. I am becoming a leader in my own world . Taking responsibility for myself with everything that I do. 100 %. Through purifying my thoughts, words and my deeds. How am I becoming a world leader ? Like the world/word – word – I am taking responsibility of the words that are within and so without of me. I am active participating with what is best for all. Because what is best for all is also best for me. Through learning the mind, learning self, and learning world systems and then being able to say and bring conclusions and most important solutions, to the world/humanity. I chose what words that are to be the factors/floating out there, within the world that I live. With Desteni I learn critical thinking. I have straightened up from bottom low, to be a more and more responsible person, I am becoming equal and in one with my mind. And then stopping the mind and becoming one with my surroundings. Using self forgiveness, find solutions, equality and oneness. That what is best for all, to build a fundament on further in life. So I step out and I become a world leader – will you join me ?

http://desteni.org/

Thank you

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