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Day 793 – Book of life – self authority

I just had the most amazing discovery last night !

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Let me share with you, I was going to bed and doing so, going over some words that have been afloat in my awareness the last days. Some living words. The word “self authority” would peak out. And I would look at it. Close. To see what lies hidden within this word for me ??

First thing i would imagine is a police-man, being all authority and “hard”. Or a thought that “God” is the ultimate authority. Or an old teacher perhaps ? All such things I have now laid behind me and forgiven in detail.
After forgiving the energy addictions within so, I have come to open up this word to myself further – beyond actually – and what it would show me was absolutely amazing. Have you heard about term: “the book of life ” ? Well the saying goes that everyone has a book of life that is being read by self and in that manner – lived by self. It may seem complicated to understand but the basic is that we create our own reality. Abracadabra. So myself authority is me, and within me being the author of my book of life, I create and shape my words to go into my own book of life – that is my life and my reality that I create breath by breathe. Word by word.

Soooo that leads to the very bold but sane conclusion that I am my own self authority – by being the author of my own book of life. Creating my own book of life with my next breathe.

I know that there is no God that is ruling us like we are often led to believe. But now grounding it more back to self, back to reality, oneness and equality and what is best for all – and within all is also me. So I get what is best. By creating, in this second/breathe my own reality.

The book of life is my life – I will not leave it up to some projection of a bully, to rule me. No more !


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These links are super – potent with the finest of support

– I am living proof







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Day 770 – Cold water experience


When I go to sauna which I love/live to do… I usually enjoy a cold shower in the breaking out of the heat from the sauna. To me public  baths are sacred lol … there is a very ordinary and very usable sauna and shower, with swimming hall to it, 30 minutes drive from here where I live. I use to go there on thursdays evenings, for swim – which is just me playing and fooling around in water 100 % embracing it and enjoying myself in the water.

Later I go out of the swimming hall, and I enter the showers, and the sauna. Now the sauna might be very warm, the way most like it. So I have grown into the habit of showering a very cold shower once or twice during my sauna – or breaking up my body heat experience with cold water.


To step under that cold water, from having spent some minutes totally hot in the sauna, is peculiar. I guess I can compare it to birthing myself – again. My breathe become fast and rapid, like intense,  almost like a obsession or possessing of mind and body. And that is mostly it, to mind myself to breathe, while under the cold water. I simply breathe and again – embrace the water and the experience.


I have learned that it is healthy, particular to the skin to have cold and hot changes, like with showers. It trains the skin at closing and opening the poors. It assists the skin at its service to the body. And the skin is a very important part of our body. Closing and opening of poors is a important thing to really train – with cold and hot water. It is a test to self and how much you know yourself, in the physical.


I can also have similar experience if I take a dip in the ocean, dipping in the cold water (if it is cold) and coming up again, and feeling reborn. Like totally fresh and “new”. I mind myself to embrace the experience and to sense it all as I breathe and ground myself. Awareness of self honesty is also important, that makes me more sane and aware of where my focus is.

Cold and warm showers changes is also recommended, after having cleared of all soap, to turn it really cold, and then after some seconds (30 + seconds…) turn it warm again – exercise for the skin. To open and close.

I truly recommend to experiment and investigate hot / cold water on skin, remember to breathe, don’t burn yourself and you will be fine !



Here is a cool video about cold and the body:


Enjoy embracing the water !


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Day 652 – Living words GENTLENESS

At desteni we are : LIVING WORDS

Check out links: http://wiki.destonians.com/Living_Word

& http://forum.desteni.org/viewforum.php?f=147






Current allocation: I would think of this word like : over protection, like giving more coz and attention than needed. Like a nurse simply “diddeling and doddeling” with you, giving you lots of extra and not asked for attention and consideration. I would think of this word as a word over the top, like to exaggerate. To overdo something.

Dictionary definition: gentleness

  1. Considerate or kindly in disposition; amiable and tender.
  2. Not harsh or severe; mild and soft: a gentle scolding; a gentle tapping at the window.
  3. Easily managed or handled; docile: a gentle horse.
  4. Not steep or sudden; gradual: a gentle incline.
  5. a. Of good family; wellborn: a child of gentle birth.
  6. Suited to one of good breeding; refined and polite: a gentle greeting to a stranger.
  7. Archaic Noble; chivalrous: a gentle knight.


Etymology: gentleness (n.)

  1. 1300, “inherited nature,” from gentle + -ness. Meaning “freedom from harshness or violence” is from 1610s.


Sounding of word:

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gentel test


gentle nest

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Negative: I would think of gentleness as “to much care”. Like to overdo it. “Too much of good” sort of. And a sort of fear of what opens up within – from experiencing gentleness.

Positive: I would think of considering and providing care and consideration to others. To be gentle and to go with ease.


Creative writing:

It is connected to genes somehow, like how we must be gentle with even our genes. Harsh is like the opposite of gentle(ness). I would realize that there is no overdoing goodness or ease at all, it is just my imagination. Doing good cannot become “too good”. By doing lots of good or being over all gentle and easy, one is making people more kind and open to more gentleness. By being gentle one opens up new doors and oneness consciousness to new consideration and to simple best for all solutions. It is sort of claiming peace.


Gentleness: is being so; over all good and acting with such ease, that it inspires to further consideration and further healing. Gentleness, is claiming peace by being so good it makes people surrender their tensions/arms/polarities.



Day 609 – Personality of observing people

Personality of observing people considering information

Within this derision of life and existence of this plane, there have been lots of hidden and secret element to discover amongst the ruling class, being humans and our understanding of words and life experience on this planet.

If a person would say to a doctor that his phone is bugged like 10 or 20 years ago, the person would be qualifying for as being mad, further drugged and hospitalized. People would freeze out the people that would present theories that would be disturbing to them. That would be outside the norm.

A old saying goes like this: “You can hurt me with truth, but do not comfort me with a lie”.

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Well… truth is that very, very, very many of us is still sleeping by the different lies. We deny and suppress and hide within or selves, refuse to accept, and friction and war is the outcome. So within so without.

People that would say the phone is bugged some years ago, would be listed as mad and ass conspiracy and potentially dangerous people. Now, Mr. Snowed have proved to the people of this world that all phones on this planet. That is right ALL phones. Can be tapped any time of the day, from the NSA/USA.

When people share light on for instance theories like chemtrails and geo engineering they are often look at with dubious eyes. They are maybe forced into silence or violated or bullied. What we see today in the modern elite world when we have washing machines for both clothes and crockery, we experience that such theories of surveillance and of chemtrails is being accepted as truth or reality.

Remember that phrase, “You can hurt me it truth but do not comfort me with a lie”.


So how does all this play out like a character or a personality to me ?

A personality is like a pin needle or a battery, with positive and negative, feeling and emotions. controlled by the metaphysical thinking and experience of such. A pin needle that within my schizophrenic mind fights other personalities creating voices and friction within.

The positive part of this personality is experiencing that more and more people are seeing what was earlier conspiracy theory and then taken as reality and start working to change it. And negatively the despair and aggression of how some people deny it and suppress it comforting self with lies. So my personality is this experience of swinging between seeing how more and more people learn theories and hidden agendas and also how some deny it an suppress it and this is then my swinging pin needle of a personality. A sort of observer of humans and behaviors.

Now the personality is exposed. It swing between the notion of positive : seeing truth being taken for what horror it often is, and blowing dust of old evidence and theories and also negative with how many deny what is in front of their nose, and oppose this with hiding in mind/ego/thoughts/friction.

There is lots to be said of this matters and I would like to invite you to join me in this journey to life exploring these words and their meanings. We are all entwined with different programming and personality and mind constructs. It is all metaphysical/energies and it is all politics. So within, so without. Check out the links to really discovers self and to start your process of self investigation.

Consider this last sentence:

“There is no truth there is only denial of what is here”

Thank you

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Day 588 – Living income works – I am living proof – giving people money – works


I am given approximately 17 000 kroner’s each month. Something like 2200 dollars each month from the Norwegian government. It is money to survive. To pay my bills. To live my life.

I am currently participating in more and more work. ( Proof)

I am participating with my experience as a mental patient and a energy/drug addicted and a confused young man, to recovery, to bring the new recovery innovations – to the world as a change within how we treat people out off mental issues. Also knows as psychiatry.

I am given 2200 dollars each month and I can tell you for sure that when I got myself cleaned up from drugs – I started to want to work. I want to be out there doing work voluntary or paid I want to contribute. I am not being able to work 100% or even 50% But I still participate – once I was clean of addition and could stand on my own fucking feet.

Today I will be dancing in the streets of Stavanger. I will be laughing into to summer night and I take on all the challenges that our world faces. Talk about it, and bring solution to it. Challenges are huge. You can hurt me with truth, but to not comfort me with a lie. Do you know why ? Because I fucking care about life and this earth. Genuinely. That is how I started a life with drugs/energies in the first place. I was sensitive and in need of drugs to ease my pain. So I ended up a long loop of addictions.

Abuse no more. I commit myself to stand as that rock solid and supporting piece of change that the world needs through breathing, and living the honest change. Of and as life.

I commit myself to life.

Living income guaranteed is the change the world needs. Do not miss it. Se you around.

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