Things strike back
I have been wondering into blame. And I thought I best sort out blame and make certain what my relationship to blame is. I have been avoiding consequences and responsibility of standing in absolute equality and oneness with myself. It have grown into anger and fear. From not dealing with the blame that I create, not taking responsibility for this carcinoma that I make inside of myself.
Emotions, anger and self sabotage occur. I would project out my blame. In this I am creating self sabotage within voices and sabotage and communication within entities within me. As I blame I am opening a door to self – sabotage, because I am not standing equal and one with everything in life. I have made myself into superior in relation to others. I realize that blame have grown into quite a bugger for me. I have been projecting blame, within me, towards the government and towards system officials. I fail to stand in equality and in oneness with myself and my life and living to the point that I would go into aggression directed to the system eventually to myself, and aggression and blame directed to the system officials, and to other people. I fail to realize that I am the one to blame. I am one and equal to everyone else inn my life and my living, and I realize that when I give into blame I am making myself superior or inferior to others. Blame is this ultimate pin point between superiority and inferiority. Sort of. Blame is this direct “hit” or judgment and sort of punishment from one to another. I have been living this blame and sending out this sort of punishment onto people that are around me. Failing to realize that it is myself that I am hurting. It is me that is projecting. It is myself that I am angry at. I would blame and project out the energies, towards the programmed scapegoats, with my energies. And energies are not stabile. Feelings and emotions and not stabile. That is why blame is so tricky. It will balance oneness energies and all of a sudden one is paranoid blaming other people. Out of pre – program. When one is really blaming self and angry with and within oneself.
I have been creating and nurturing blame and anger that have ended up within myself as aggression, blame and fear. Within me like cancer. It is typical of me having this Schizophrenic result within myself becoming fearful, on top, from my own blame.
What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.
– June Roca
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let into myself energies of emotions and self sabotage, starting from blame because I do not live the actual change that I promote to others within EQUALITY and ONENESS, to all and everyone at all times.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself from thinking that I do not blame it is only others who blame, where I create this reason for me to blame, and I go into aggression over and how to behave with life and not living it myself, ending up with self sabotage and self judging as the end result, failing to see and experience the actual blame and also the aggression within me that I project.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have gone into blame over how society, does not know how to teach children of emotions, inn school, where I find myself not treating people with equality and oneness, where I restricted to myself this awareness, that turns into aggression within me, where I blame society for not doing its job with the population where a few is in control, as I am in control, deceiving the population from equality and oneness with not teaching on emotions or anything “real” at all where I fail to realize that I am as much of the population as any other people is the population, and the anger is directed back at myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame at the media and the huge media houses, from not daring to tell the whole truth and to display all the nitty – gritty details that goes on in this world, where I see that it is within myself that I am hiding myself, from daring to talk to people and open up on emotions or feeling that I have inside, like desiring girls and seeing opportunities to talk to them but I chicken out, I get scared just like whistle blowers are scared to silence that I would really like to open up upon and talk to girls and be honest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame over the ignorance that I would call the CIA and of US military, that is so clearly crime that is not seen or dealt with, the agents, and their starting of wars in the world that they are paid as contractors of war, in the middle east and in Africa, where I see myself that I have been ignorant to solutions from blame and bullying, like I could forgive and make good again from where I myself have acted in ignorance been wrong, and I myself have ignored typically think that I would call water under the bridge that I could make sure, and visit people, and talk to people, to make sure things is forgiven.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I feel like screaming out in the sky that I hate humans and I hate military so much that I would like to delete them in total and I hate that they are present and doing what they do in this world, where I fail to realize that it is myself and my own life that I hate, where I see that I in unconscious have been participating within this old pattern, within the system and it is myself that I hate because I have helped build this system earlier, within my unconscious mind.
Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for blaming the US military and blaming the contractors of war and the CIA, when I realized that blaming other people is not resulting in any sort of solution, we must be considered as equals and as brothers and sisters all of us.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame A and B for them being sort of stereotypes in this society where I think that the big families that A and B represent are parts of the people that I blame, where I fail to realize that when I blame these families, it is myself and my relation to my family that is matter it is simply a reflection of where I come from, of mind, over and over again and that it is the sin of the fathers, and how I see that sub – conscious and projected blame is choking humanity, and choking me from my starting point of blame, making me fear to deal with my own family from the blame I place on A and B’ s families as typical scapegoats.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame on to society for not teaching me of emotions and mind and psychology when I was younger, where I fail to realize that teachers or parents and others, did not either know of this emotions before, where I see that I would blame the teachers from those days, and I would fail to see that the teachers and the people in society are mostly not aware of that sort of psychology but since I am, and I should be teaching it to children and to everyone as much as I can.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with fear and insecurity and to claim that I have been addicted to energies, so I cannot be responsible for anything, where I realize that I am a victim of my own blame where I blame A and B and others for being participating with the world and with the society that where they live, living the sins of the fathers, and I realize it is me that is the problem, and it is me that is the reason within being irresponsible with myself from experiencing self – sabotage, and experiencing illness of my mind and body that is making my life into hell from the self sabotage I experience with blaming the society around me failing to realize that I can be the cure myself with my life if I can stand in equality and oneness and be that changing piece of instrument inn my everyday life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into anger and blame over people like x and his program on TV that I would say is discriminating people with disabilities, where I realize that I can make my own life on my own TV and tell people about solutions and tech about psychology and equality and oneness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame A, and B and the whole families of A and B, for their part playing in society where I would blame them and others, for accepting of how this world is stitched together from abuse and crime, going back to the banks of fraud and lies that is spread through society, where I fail to take things into my own hands and create a better alternative out of the world where I live and be responsibilities I have with myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge the society and the world where I live for what I see as faults and mistakes with the world that I find that I must bring it back to myself, and remind myself of every tiny thing that I hear is related to myself, how I must be 100% clear that what ever I hear of voices in my head is related to myself and my physical, and that I must reason with it in equality and oneness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the society and the school where I grew up, for what the teachers then chose to teach me, and I specifically forgive C and D and also E for how they taught me in school, of me in elementary school, and how they would bring me up with the teaching from their choice, and their idea of what was cool for me to learn.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that people are too busy with themselves and to busy with pre – programming and busy with their living within family values and sort of values that they miss the big picture of what is going on in the world, how everyone is living projecting blame, and they are blind to what goes on, and they are blind to change and to what is really matters of this world, and they cannot be blamed.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at F for his program “Trygdekontoret” , that I would think is bad to the people on welfare money in Norway and that I would judge and blame him and his show, as wrong and abusive when he and his show is simply living his pre – program, and that it is a popular show that I would judge and blame and I would be angry at F for his role in the program, where I need to stand equal and one with F and his show to be a solution to the challenges and the need for “bread and circus” to the people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my general aggression against everything and all that is of established and of culture or out of society that I would judge and blame as sick and I wrong where find mistake and faults with the system because I fail to stand in equality and oneness with it and be a part of the solution.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into projecting blame over society being corrupt and being a pre program, that I would think to myself that is for me to blame the society and blame the world around me for all the faults of this world where I need to equalize myself with this world and its challenges and be responsible and bring solutions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into anger and blame and to project hate and fear onto people in my society and failing to stand inn oneness and in equality with myself as I am all and all is me. It is all directed back at me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct blame towards A, B and C where I see that when I do that, I would blame them for being typical male leaders and male figures of this world/society failing to realize that it is myself that I am angry at and that I blame from not being that leader that I would like to see/be in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I do not understand the concept of blame.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would think that blame is tricky or complicated because it is a projection.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not understand emotions and to just take emotions for granted and to not realize or understand the effects emotions has on me.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blame others for not teaching me about emotions, instead of taking responsibility for teaching myself about emotions.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my teachers in school didn’t know anything about emotions either, which is why they didn’t teach me about it and so I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blame them within expecting that they should have taught me about emotions, when in fact I didn’t even know about emotions myself, so how can I expect them to?
When and as I see myself projecting blame and reacting to other peoples ignorance and poor awareness, I stop and I breathe. I realize that people are being comforted with lies and that I would hurt them with truth. I realize that it is a matter of being dragged out of comfort zone, and it is matter of being pulled out of oneness comfort zone, and into reality and awareness. I realize that I can do a lot of changes with simply living my life for what is best for al. I realize that there is lots I can do with simply speaking to people about solutions and not compromise myself with lies. I realize that I can bring solutions to life and I realize that I can be a change in the life that I want to see and experience.
I commit myself to speak truth and to not be silenced by lies or to not be silences by deceive, or by ignorance. I commit myself to be that piece of change in my life that we all have been waiting for within bringing equality to life and not settle for less. I commit myself to be that piece of instrument and of awareness, that brings light today and to matters, where I can bring solutions to the life that I live, and to the world that I am living. I commit myself to be that solution by spreading awareness of the world where I live.
When and as I see myself going into aggression and blame over other folks, I stop and I breathe. I realize that the anger and friction I feel inside is all about myself and my life and my living. My aggression is about myself and my experience. It can all be directed back to me. I realize that I must come clean from blame and anger because when I blame others it is really simply myself that I really blame. I realize that all is rooted back at myself within anger and blame. I commit myself to stand in equality and oneness with myself as I am all and all is me in this world we are all born equals. I commit myself to be that leading figure that stand in the storm sort of, and that is calm and directing and in equality and oneness with my everything.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, and by taking this life in a more easy and gentle manner, I commit myself to be the change that I want to see in this world. I commit myself to be responsible with myself and to end projecting blame, and to create solutions to everyone else in my life.
Thank you for reading.. lets continue walking for what is best for all