I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word and dimension of “feminine” to be something about girls and the female, connecting the word to that of body features, the period (menstrue-hate) dresses, colures, numbers, features, opinions, things, and as well as other words and dimensions that are from our world (cult- hour-e/culture) a part of how we see and make difference of male and female – when they are in fact BOTH (male/female) qualities within each and every one of us.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word “feminine”, and then also to not care for or consider myself, the parts of me that is part of the feminine expression/my left side of my physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the word “heroine”, to mean both to discover and see/use/medicate to see the very cure for ones emotions/memories/trauma, AND looking at the girl/lady/mother as the savior and rescuer of it all, and thinking “naah, I am not a girl so that (this life) is not for me” – making a clear divide within me of energy polarizing between left and right : female and male qualities – making the quest for heroine (drug) something I would crave, instead of simply looking at nurturing my own female, heroine/hero, expression/femininity within me – and dare to live me!
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the feminine is deeper, and it has a more consistent, more powerful, drive and flow to it, in compare to the masculine, and for thinking since that is the matter; I give up and rather sabotage the unity/oneness and responsibility within nurturing and caring for BOTH qualities within and as myself (my body/being/self) – but instead reacting in fear of the feminine and “giving up” on myself for the simple fact that I have a penis and not a vagina.
Within this I commit myself to nurture and care to work for BOTH feminine and masculine expressions/structure within me, to redefine energies/words/dimensions that are present but not of support – to flip them over – like concern can become passion, and worry can become intelligence – IF I put in the work to forgive, change and understand it, and alter my ways and my relationship to my left and right side of me, the expression = feminine and the structure = masculine – they are both part of who I am.
some interviews of support / diving deep :