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Day 593 – Living words : Deliberate

Deliberate:

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Current allocation:

I would think of this word as something that is being done. A action or non action. Something is happening within this word and it is related to movement and things taking place. It tells me that something is being done because of something else , there is a reason for something is done. Like there is a reason why things is done at all. The doing have a reason and sort of “push” into happening from reason. Something is being done as a result of agreement. There is this one thing that directs it. I would also think of this as how this world is stitched together, to this day, with abuse, and crimes, and that from the top of the elite pyramid, it is all done out of deliberate from the very elites of this world. That is where much of the deliberate, origins. And also from ordinary people; accepting it. The very far elites of this world that control this world is creating abuse out of deliberate, purpose. And we allow it to go on. That also strikes me with this word. How all the abuse that goes on is on purpose and is done deliberate. Also It strikes me that so many people know and read the news about what is going on in this world yet do nothing or little about it. It strikes me the deliberation that so many people live in this awareness yet, do so little about it. I also relate this word to sports of deliberate acting.

Dictionary definition:

done consciously and intentionally. careful and unhurried. fully considered; not impulsive. engage in long and careful consideration.

Etymology:

early 15c., “done with careful consideration,” from Latin deliberates “resolved upon, determined,” past participle of deliberate (see deliberation). Meaning “slow, consciously unhurried” is attested by 1590s.

Sounding of word:

the lie was with thy

the day was comfy

the day we buy hay

the lie with the eye

at the blink of a eye

they live close by

Polarity:

Negative polarity: I would simply look at all the abuse that goes on in this world and think to myself that this is all done deliberately and I would feel bad for taking part.

Positive polarity: I can be change. I can bring my deliberate intention and be change, for what is best for all.

Creative writing: What is deliberate must be done with self honesty and in consideration to what is best for all life. What is deliberate must be done to the best for all. What is deliberate must serve oneness and equality. Today much deliberate is done in the way of corruption to poison and pollute mankind and all life. This must turn. What is best for all must shine through. Deliberate must again be of support to all life. It is deliberate that deliberation must serve the best for all life in oneness and equality.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that people that live in this world is letting abuse and crime go on deliberately simply because they are not standing up against it and taking a stand against it, tired from brainwashing and programming/lies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am deliberately holding back something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think to myself I do not know this word at all, I need to see it in context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that there is a lot of responsibilities with this word.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this word is old or outdated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I would need to live this word.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link this word to sports where “deliberate foul”, is committed within a game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame such everyday people that do not in their everyday lives stand up against the abuse that we see in this world to go on unreal with simply repeating itself in cycles over and over again, like on a brain – washing – machine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of humanity as hopeless and deprived in how we until now have failed to address and deal with abuse and crime in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the middle class for their accepting brainwashing and lies to let the abuse and corruption go on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people like the world elite for wanting to create war and friction within the world and for how they want to make war and make money and profit from war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think to myself that with self – forgiveness all is not lots we can still deliberately create heaven on this earth – let’s do that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the worst is the people who witness the abuse but do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge middle class and or other in particular for how they deliberately accept abuse and crimes.

Self corrections :

When and as I see myself doing something like a action or making a choice or a movement. I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that all actions and things taking place within and as me must be deliberate to the best for all. I realize that all action and thing that I take part in must be deliberate and for the best for all. I realize that my acting must be considered. I commit myself to be responsible with my actions. I commit myself to let people know what goes on of abuse and how to stop it. I commit myself to keep bringing forward solution to make this world a better place for all. I commit myself to share my awareness with everyone else to the best for all to shine through.

When and as I see myself judging the very elite of the world, the middle class or others for not doing anything to bring change to the world and judging them for deliberately creating abuse and crime from them not taking part in change. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that judging them creates further abuse. I realize that when I am judging them I am also supporting the abuse to go on. I also realize that the middle class and most humans are brainwashed and programmed to the rim. I commit myself to be that safe and kind honest guy with solution to issues. I commit myself to live in self honesty. I commit myself to bring to topic solutions to make sure that everyone is heard. I commit myself to be that safe haven for others to seek, through working with desteni.org, and I commit myself to deliberately create heaven on this earth. I commit myself to live and to deliver.

Redefinition: same as dictionary.

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Day 567 – Living words: decision

Living words: decision

Current allocation:

A decision is to me, like a choice only more important or sort of more “heavy”. A decision is to me something that one makes. One reaches it after comparing and after validating pro and cons and after having investigated the case of study/matter. And out from this I developed a decision. I would think decisions can be very important, I often find it difficult to make decisions, since a decision would lead to a act, or to / not a act. It would drive me into reactions literally, over not being able to reach my decision. I would think that important decisions are often made by old men in suits in meeting rooms and in conferences and in the various, so called, democratic institutions around this world. I would think of a decision for myself would be like should I have fish or meat to dinner? Or decision like should I have a morning shower or not ? I would weigh the pro and cons of the outcome and make my decision. Decisions to drive to the city to a cafe and by a coffee and a piece of cake, or deciding to work on writings like this here, and ; this is a decision for me to write this. Equally I would think that my life would be better if I did not have to make decisions at all. I think that I struggle a lot with making decisions because of corruption and crime made from decisions/democracies in this world.

Dictionary definition:

decision : a conclusion or resolution reached after consideration.

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Etymology:

decision (n.)

mid-15c., from Middle French decision (14c.), from Latin decisionem (nominative decisio) “a decision, settlement, agreement,” noun of action from past participle stem of decidere (see decide). Decision making (adjective, also decision-making) is recorded from 1953.

Sounding of the word:

there – sits – John

the – sion

this – is – sion

d – session ( a lot of D -s)

Polarity:

Negative: I would think that too much decisions are made my corrupt politicians, and “hidden” elite people, and this influences me to make my own, bad, decisions in my life. It causes doubt within me. I realize that decisions made by politicians today, like business deals, are based on corruption and crimes and not much at all, of what is best for all. I realize that I as many others, struggle with making the right decisions – because of how I see the crappy decision made by politicians in this life. And this confuses me big time, to make my own decisions in my everyday life and I feel like I am unable to make good decisions. And with me as with many other, I fall into abuse/reactions, like the so called leaders do, and we all make, or made before, the wrong decisions. I realize that I judge myself, both before and after making my decision and that my decision is wrong and bad anyhow.

Positive: I would like to make good decisions for the best of all. This is a word that I would like to practice well. I would like to see positive results from my decisions. I would like to smoothen my decision making so it is easy. Decisions can be done for what is best for all. And for that, we need change from today’s system, and I will stand up for that change and make it happen.

Creative writing:

Decisions is something that we make after weighing pro and cons. From investigating. To consider the question and outcome for the best of all. There are different decisions, like there is different cultures in this world. I realize that we need to change the whole picture of who is in charge of this world and to take away the world leaders of today. Like there is many “Johns” sitting at the computers and at their desks, in front of the TV screen, doing nothing but feeding the mind its energies, and not participating, in the world, not making actual decisions/change, being decided for from media/elite, simply passive sitting and not doing anything at all. They are ruled over from politicians making decisions for them. They are the salves of this world; they are, part of the 99 %.

The many John’s that are sitting thinking only of themselves, in leading positions, that is not for the good of all. The many Johns that are sitting in the different governments, and in the different chairs of power are not doing what is best for all. I realize that it is a cool solution to stand and make my voice be heard. I prefer to stand and be a change – without reacting/violence. I commit myself to the decision to change this picture so that all voices are heard and that no one is left out that would be real decision making and a community based on what is best for all. Decisions need not be that many or that hard like they are today. There would be fewer and fewer problems to solve in a future where everyone gets to speak. Decisions can be made easy, by letting everyone speak, and for the best of all, like with direct online democracy, where everyone participates. Equally. I realize that when I struggle to make a decision I can write pro and cons to figure out what to do and how to act in the given moment, over the question and then, also, slow down, and make my decision, based on what is best for all.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I make bad decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am programmed to make bad decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to make bad decisions and then blame it on the politician from how they make bad decision, in politics – failing to realize that politics is here now everyday all the time in real life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make decisions because of how I see politician of today make crappy and corrupt decisions that makes me fearful of making a single decision equally in my life, that might sound easy like to visit someone or to go swimming , or take a morning shower. It all becomes so damn hard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I consider it my big weakness to not be able to make good decision at all, and I would start to react within this question of making good decisions and I would judge myself as week and wrong because of how I see politicians as corrupt and wrong, and fearing to do the same myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of the word “there sits John” like, he (John) is a boss or a ruler of some kind and I would think of John the Baptist from the Bible, and how we would Baptize people in the water/river and I align this with how hard it could be to achieve good personal hygiene and to have a clean and cozy home, that is difficult for many, many people, that I would see is relevant for this word and the sounding of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear how people in power are really bad leaders and I would fear that they would should “do” much bad decision making, and that their decisions are harmful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make a decision for myself on the many different things that I can take part in within my life that I would fear to take part in because I would fear the decision making involved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame all the passive “Johns” out there for simply sitting doing nothing in front of the TV and not taking active part in changing this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to feel a urge to hide and suppress my desire for good decisions within my physical and within my being so that I am eventually ending up with a lot of surprised wrong decisions within me, feeling bad for making wrong decisions over how I would think of humanity and life as one, and think that I would corrupt myself by the idea of finding my answers from my thoughts and my thinking, which I would consider wrong, to go into thoughts/stress.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the believe that there is a certain awareness with the “sitting John” like “sitting bull”, that we are all waking up to a new era of time and a change in the wind like Bob Dylan would have said it in his song – and that we are the change we have been waiting for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I find that I need more time to make the right decision in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that in the future we would not need to decide that much because we would live like it was heaven – for all and everyone on this planet.

When and as I see myself, standing in front or a type of question or something where I need to make a decision and I notice resistance/fear. I stop, and I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that I need to take my time to make, the very best choice within a decision. I realize that I can write pro and con’s to the matter and to have the mathematical result of pro and con. I realize that I can gather my results from my experience of making a pie chart and looking at what factors that are there, and what is positive and what is negative and forgive for the charges, and release the energy that are charged within the pro and the con/result. I realize that I must take my time with this process of all my choices and my decisions. I commit myself to slow myself down within my decision making. I commit myself to slow myself down, within my decisions, and to take it more easy, and not stress or haste my decision/choice.

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Day 562 Living words : control

Living words : control

Current allocation: I see that within this word I think of control of myself. I think of controlling something like a bike or a car. I think of having a personal control within and without of myself is precious. I also associate with the ruling hand or ruling force of government and political or other ruling elite of the world. I think it is also very related that If I have control of myself within myself I am then also having good control without of myself. I think that control should be limited and that the system should “float” without friction and that one should not need that many controlling forces at all. I think there is a lack of real control in this world and that the majority of, controllers/police/lawyers/judges are being deluded.

control
dictionary definition
1. to command, direct, or rule.

Etymology:

control (v.)
early 14c., “to check, verify, regulate,” from Anglo-French contreroller “exert authority,” from Medieval Latin contrarotulus “a counter, register,” from Latin contra- “against” (see contra) + rotulus, diminutive of rota “wheel” (see roll (n.)). From a medieval method of checking accounts by a duplicate register. Sense of “dominate, direct” is mid-15c. Related: Controlled; controlling.

Sounding of the word

con – troll – Mocking/deluding the troll. Speaking negative of trolls.

county – n – oil – A country that have oil.

come take the oil – One country robbing other countries its recourses.

Internet-Troll

Polarity attachment
negative : fear, judging, blame, guilt, shame, sorrow, anger.
positive: responsibility, change, honest, best for all, make perfect.

Creative writing. This is about conning or making the troll pay its taxes and to share its treasures. The troll have been mocking and scaring us for too long. From nose mythology and fairytale the “troll” – where old “demons” and they often had great treasures and lots of money/gold – that they had stolen from the humans, in hidden caves. The old trolls from the past must be brought out. Like the trolls within finance or war systems and warmongers. Corruption and scams must be exposed and melted in the sunshine like the troll from the fairytale. I realize that today the trolling elite/corrupt elite, is also controlling the controllers/police/judges and that must also change to expose the really nasty troll so that what is best for all can come through. I realize that the ultimate control is no control like the perfect oiled machine that needs no maintenance or repairs. No trolls. That is the kind of system we must create. Where we do not need to be paranoid and controlling with each other. Control must be lived, from within so that one within do not need internal medication or repairs or recovery at all. One must run/live like a perfect machine: the body. And from there inspire others, and create what is best for all.

Self forgiveness:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control and to live the word “control” because of how I simply wanted to live my life as a irresponsible person and to not take responsibility for my life and my living and “not give a fuck…”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I become angry when I see that the people in charge , the real demons behind the curtain does not get caught, still, at all, because of lacking control, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry as I notice that the people that are doing the abuse is in control of the controllers and that makes the whole system corrupt and wrong and in need of real control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad form the poor people and the not informed people of how this world is stitched together, that I would think they deserve to know, where I go into guilt and sorrow because I fear to tell people the honest truth and I start to fear they live in vain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I become angry and sad from seeing that the controllers are violating people’s rights and hurting ordinary and poor people because they are protecting the real trolls and the greedy elite and doing so hurting the poor and the ordinary people with riot police etc..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could make the perfect system that would be to live the word control where we would not have to be in con – or deluding each other, and there would be no trolls either as we would live in equality and in consideration without abuse and in control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my mind does not want to live in control where I realize that the mind only wants its energies and if I can control myself I will stop the addiction of giving energies to my mind and to rather live in control and without friction/thought/reaction/paranoia/fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that only police can control, where I give into the thinking that we need controlling police when the abuse and the paranoia and the corruption in the very, very center of the “troll” is not being dealt with, and it is not taken into consideration on how for instance all wars are bankers wars and how we are trolling each other all the time in all sorts of situations and relations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would fear to take on to myself control because I would fear to fail and to fall, and to go into judging of myself within this and I would fear to take on to myself and live the word control because I do not want to be seen as different or as special.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can not be in control because I have this diagnosis and label with me from mental hospital and doctors diagnosis of schizophrenia.

When and as I see myself given a chance to live the word control or I face this word, I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that I want to from here on, live this word, and not fear it. I realize that I want make sure the we do create a perfect system like no system based on equality and oneness, and what is best for all. I realize that when I take on word I take on responsibility. I realize that it was a cool experience for me to bring out this word and it feels empowering to work through it. I commit myself to go through words that are possessing me and that I have certain relation to, like a polarized relation to. I commit myself to work through words. I commit myself to live words so that I can live, what is best for all. I commit myself to bring to awareness/forum, words and to expose and defy words. I commit myself to live/write words until there is no friction/reaction/fear/paranoia left in relating to any words.

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