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Day 792 – self and energies & ….. the spider monkey ?

So.. I am a energetic being. What does in mean that I am living as energies ? What levels of energies are there ?
This is a very, very huge topic… let’s see if there is anyone out there, who can assist us getting a grasp on this question…

me: hellooo….(?) anyone here can tell me about how I live as energies ? ….. anyone… please ?

me : anyone in this matrix so called life who can assist me ??

me: is there really no body to assist me on my energies and how that functions ?

spider monkey: I can assist you….

me: what ? you are a monkey… how can you assist me ?

spider monkey : well monkey or not, I know quite a lot about consciousness energy, beingness energy, and physical energy. It happens to be like that.

me: ok… let’s listen to what you have to say

spider monkey: here you go use these links (they will blow your mind) :

https://eqafe.com/p/consciousness-of-the-spider-monkey-part-1

https://eqafe.com/p/consciousness-of-the-spider-monkey-part-2

 

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Day 781 – Dragging along old mind junk – mind recycled

Dragging along old mind junk – mind recycled

Who am I as a creator ? What do I truly create ?

Something that I was recently made aware of, and that I in self honesty also knew of, is how I drag with me old mind junk, and mind data from the past that I would like to say that is gone and that I am done with – that is still here. Some of the old dominating systems of my mind. Things like “self judgment” and “fear” – systems. These two buggers in particular.  Some of the very dominant system that we as humans carry. These systems, have very deep seated roots on the humans experience. And people walk through life without properly dealing with it. This has effect on life as we know it on earth today  – as well as for the afterlife and infinite existence of humans. Now, I have tools to work through this, I know how to heal and how to work through this and … literally I know how to change. It is only myself who is responsible for not changing. I have self forgiveness, self honesty, living words, breathe, etc, and I should know how to balance this by now. There is no excuse for me to not change.

 

Still my mind programming is heavy. And in this interview of Annuaki he explains how this responsibility is mostly missed by humans, that we are not creating for real – we drag with us old systems, still.

So these two systems, self judgment and fear, are poking me like crazy. And they should – because I should not need to be mind slave within such a equation. Thing is that I see that my consciousness is recycling itself like it did before. Making old problems new again, “making suffering great again”…lol…within mind,  making fear into anger, and self judgment into blame and so on. So I must stop it and alter – create a better reality.

 

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self forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drag on specifically fear and self judgment, where I think to myself that some of the things I have done is unforgivable to myself as a being, and that I would think in my mind that me in my afterlife/reflection would not be forgiven, by my beingness,  for some of my deeds/thoughts on this earth, missing the picture of how I let my conscious mind dictate me into thinking “I am not good enough” – “I am not forgiven enough”, “I can’t do this” and ending up in fear and in self judgment – mind systems recycled.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a moral obligation to drag with me fear and self judgment thinking everyone does this and so should I, not seeing or reflecting on how the word “moral” in this world,  protects the very abusers (religion, war, government etc), and within so I am not better than anyone else, for dragging with me fear and self-judgment like emotions that I am eager to give away, and look into my beingness/awareness, and how I need to dump & delete these emotions once and for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to undermine, the thought that  I can make a drawing and a picture or some arts about me leaving “my old emotions”, and systems behind and not fully seeing, how drawing and arts it could assist me in quantifying my process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find it fascinating and yet disturbing to see how I find it very hard to dump of me, these systems (fears, self judgments) and at the same time how eager mind is to pick it up and  recycle it into my living/suffering.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be fascinated by my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to give my mind direction, and a “occupation”.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I had not been able to see or fully realize and comprehend, that as long as I drag with me the constructs/concept of fear and self judgment, my mind will know so, detect so,  l and it will make a big thing/addiction/suffering/recycleling out of it – since both fear and self judgment  are mind based systems.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the desire to see into my fears and my self judgment, like  a desire to see it diminish and disappear,  like to kiss it good bye for good where I would indulge in memories and my mind would catch up with me and “boom”… the mind systems are recycled.

 

When and as I see myself going into re – inventing fear and self judgment, I stop myself, I take a deep breath, and I slow the fuck down.  I have come to realize that I must know my fears and my self judgments – and from there “weed them out” from a distance. To see them, within self, to alter within self and change as self so that awareness/focus/reality is something else, and not fear, and self judgment. I realize that I have all the tools I need to get through this, I must simply slow down and find myself stable and ready to create best for all/best for  me solutions.

 

I commit myself to be with my tools, and my support to give myself chores and creative tasks. I commit myself to stay busy, creative but slow and commonsensical.

 

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These links are super – potent with the finest of support

– I am living proof

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

 

Day 753 – more on the word: organized

more on the word: organized

 

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a continuation from blogs:

https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/2017/01/19/day-742-living-the-word-organized/

&

https://tormodhvgj.wordpress.com/2017/03/10/day-749-becoming-more-of-me-expanding-through-living-words/

 

 

today I redefine this word again :

 

organized: have a certain structure, to keep it neat and uncluttered and also to have comfort within ones environment.

I today take on this word, within. A new process opens up with walking with words more on my insides – letting words guide me within, and sorting out more of my thoughts and emotions.  so I can birth life from my physical, meaning I can be a example in my own flesh / body for other people to see and realize/wake up within them self/mind, to live more fulfilling living for what is best or all in equality and oneness.

 

I have been walking now with this word organized for quite some time, and I have grown within this word. I notice that I take my time with such a word and I don’t know if it is because I jump to other words to fast, and act within being unorganized. Or if I simply needed to take that time. I guess it is a  mixture of both.

 

I now see opportunities and possibilities as well as response – abilities open up for me with walking with this word on my inside. I find this very interesting and fun to see with my real – eyes. To be intimate (into – me – I – see) with my body.  I think I will take this gradually and really mature within this word.

I go through my day with all sorts of things going on within my mind. Self judgment and certain emotions like angst, or depression,  and I take out and look at how I can live this word organized in such a relation to disturbances like emotions.

My mind is a reflection of me. If I am in my nature grounded, stable, firm and  organized, THEN my mind with be the same in return – to me. It is basic math, that goes to prove the equal and one relationship that one have to develop within ones being (body).  I make most of these realizations from working physical with my body. That is where I nurture my awareness – the  most.

 

Meaning …….. you might not have seen the last definition yet !

 

For more living words and how-to see : SOUL

 

 

other links:

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

 

enjoy breathe !

 

 

 

Day 648 – Living word: breathe

Roman Mosaic Donated by President Bourguiba

Allocation to word:

Breathe…. where to start. I am always breathing, the body is constantly working with oxygen and air. The question is am I aware of my breathing ? It is constant but not a automatic process. It is close to automatic but not quite so. Breathe gives life to who I am. Breathe gives life to my physical. I see that I have been over living this word I have been trying to live it too hard. I have been trying to breathe with awareness – to hard. I would think of breathe and I would associate with two things, life and stress. I breathe myself to stress by over doing it. Further I realize that it is not just me that is breathing. Most life forms breathe. Even fish have organs to breathe for them under water.

Dictionary definition:

  1. to take air, oxygen, etc., into the lungs and expel it; inhale and exhale; respire.
  2. (in speech) to control the outgoing breath in producing voice and speech sounds.
  3. to pause, as for breath; take rest:

How about giving me a chance to breathe?

  1. to move gently or blow lightly, as air.
  2. to live; exist:

Hardly a man breathes who has not known great sorrow.

  1. to be redolent of.
  2. (of a material) to allow air and moisture to pass through easily:

 

Etymology:

breathe (v.)

  1. 1300, not in Old English, but it retains the original Old English vowel of its source word, breath. Related: Breathed; breathing.

breather (n.)

  1. 1600, “a living creature, one who breathes,” agent noun from breathe. Meaning “spell of exercise to stimulate breathing” is from 1836; that of “a rest to recover breath” is from 1901.

 

 

Sounding of word:

bris – (gentle wind in Norwegian)

best

rest

beth

bath

bæsj – (poo in Norwegian)

stach

smash

meth

 

Polarity of word:

negative: I would associate breathe with stress, and with getting anxious from over doing it. I would think I had to breathe in a stressing tempo to be aware of my breathing. I was overdoing it.

positive: I would associate with calm and comforting breathe that fills me with life from breathing inn and expressing myself when breathing out.

Creative writing:

Breathe can be so much more supportive to me than what I allow it to today. I realize that most life forms I know of is breathing. I realize that I can improve my breathing skills, by slowing down and breathing more calm. A calm breathe is so much better than a stressful breathe. A calm breathe is more sane and more healthy. Breathe should be experienced as supportive and nice. One should work with self communication and release energies to better oneness breathe/chest from obstacles and ones pain and energies. To have a overall improved and better life. Breathe is supposed to flow through me like a gentle stream. Breathe should be nice and calm. Gentle and smooth.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think in brief moments during my day, that I should hurry up and breathe or push myself through fields of energies to be able to breathe, making my life stressful and painful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to be aware of my breathing in moments of stress during my ordinary day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I had to push myself to breathe going into energies and sort of vibration within my body, and my mind thinking this is a solution when it is simply a painful and confusing process where I need to bring myself back from that “high” into sanity, calamity and ease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to think of my breathe because I would fear to face my secrets and my so called week spots within physical and for refusing to take on or talk about breathe, since I am so dependent on it that I look upon it like it is a addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of breathe like a addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I don’t fully know the benefits of breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don’t know really what breathe is.

When and as I see myself compromising my life and my physical, in  movements and I go into stress, and I forget to be aware of breathe. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that slowing down is moving faster through process, and I should along with slowing down also focus more on my breathing. I realize that a slow and calm breathe is better for me. I realize I should not strive and keep pushing myself as much compared to simply : to slow the fuck down, and to further feel my breathe/physical. I commit myself to feel my breath each time I breathe. I commit myself to live by the virtue of breathe awareness and self honesty. I commit myself to breathe as nothingness.

 

New definition:

Breathe is the experience of inhaling and exhaling of air through ones body. Breathe is a important part of life.  Breathe is food for the body.

Day 560 – I need to stabilize

I need to come clean. I need to clear out energies and obstacles from my 3 former, compartments of mind. Subconscious, unconscious and conscious mind. These 3 “old ” units need to be totally cleaned out within & without of me. For me to be able to move over to quantum mind and quantum physical. For further understanding of what quantum mind and quantum physical is, I suggest to seriously investigate time with desteni.org

I need my 3 units of mind, that I have lived with for so long time, serving energies to them, to be clean empties out completely. All the nitty gritty. All goes out. All forgiven. Now I have lived and given into energies to these 3 units within my mind, for 30 something years. Now it stops. I want to change and stabilize as quantum – mind and as quantum physical.

I will walk out self forgiveness on all the energies and the issues that are within these, former controlling units. I will empty out all the stuff from my mind and my head, and my former controlling units that are simply old constructs of mind and sucking energies out of me and control of my life. I will walk into quantum mind and to quantum physical. And I need to slow myself down within this. I need to stabilize within this kind of thinking and working. I need to stabilize myself within my process of working with quantum and physical mind.

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What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

http://desteni.org/

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of my desteniiprocess and my studying of psychology with desteni to be simply to speed through, and get it over with and move on from , and that there would be new changes all the time for me to be challenged with new things all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is always change to everything and that since everything comes from somewhere it will always change, failing to realize that I am simply brainwashed by commercials and Hollywood to think that what is new is always best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that since I am stabilizing I will not change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that rushing into something will get we anywhere.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that change must come fast.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am desperate to stabilize.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control of certain elements of quantum mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control within quantum mind and within elements of quantum mind because I would fear to have to give into tunnel vision and to be a victim of the drug called “hope” and to hope to be able to take control of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I need to real stabilize myself in a form of here that will lead me to more control and more direction within my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take control in my life because I relate the word control to that of police and military and government rule and to archaic society structures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will not manage to control my quantum physical and my quantum mind and that I would need to balance between these two ways of life and living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that quantum physical and quantum mind goes hand in hand.

I realize that there is a lot of responsibility involved here. I must stand and take responsibility for my quantum mind and my quantum physical. 100% of it, 100 % of the time. I need to stabilize myself and ground myself here as breathe and here as my roots/feet and my body.

When and as I see myself thinking that this is just one more change within the race of changes that I will push myself through to get to the end/goal. I stop myself and I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that I have to sort of make my nest here, I will have to learn what I can from these two types of common sense/mannerism. Quantum mind and quantum physical is my life and who I will live my life and living within what is best for all, and for the future. I realize that when I stabilize here, I will not fall that fast;  into reactions and possessions. I realize that I will have to get to know my quantum physical and my quantum mind. I realize that I must be rooting here. I commit myself to root myself here to be the best leader that I can be. I commit myself to stabilize myself here as breathing and as awareness and common sense, that I would need to bring change to the world and to my environment. I commit myself to live in quantum mind and in quantum physical.

Day 557 – My voice tonality

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My voice. I use my voice every day, almost all the time. I have developed a degree of self communication. I heal myself with my voice. I tell myself love, forgiveness. I realize that I would like to further develop my voice to further heal myself within my words and my tonality. And by that I mean how I speak to myself. Not so much what I say, It will be honest, but more focus on how I say it. I will weigh how I speak my words, and not so much what I speak. I will not lie to myself, I will do what I can to not deceive myself or others, but tell myself some honest truth. And to have a clear focus on how I say – what I say. I realize that I would like to bring a more serious type of … investigating like a professional tone to my voice.

Like reporters reporting from Syria, or Tokyo, New York or Brazil, I will report with being serious from within or without of emotions, personalities, fears or enjoyment and often from pre – program, all to heal and cure myself from being a slave of mind and of existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have not been serious enough when I talk to myself and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am not honest enough with myself thinking that I should bring up more serious thoughts and more serious topics and often emotional type of talks and more in depth type of self communication to further heal myself where I judge myself for not pushing through and ending up with old grudges and old emotional patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am only a joker and that I am not serious enough with myself to be that professional reporter, of my mind and of psychology that I would like to be , where I end up judging myself for not speaking in a serious enough tone to myself that I would like to have, to heal myself and to do what is best for all and so for me as I am one of all – as all is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into fear and thinking that I do not have what it takes to be that serious with myself and I would go on thinking and judging myself with old grudges and old faults from my past, that I would like to experience as water under the bridge, and to move on a to handle self as who I am here in physical and as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into energies and thought telling me to enjoy myself and to live life as it is presented as simply energies and not real life, where I see that life today is being abused and it is not being even considered serious enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the precarious of this world is not being taken serious enough, and that there is limited time left to actually save this world and this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that energies is not real life and I would think that if I let energies control me I am simply living ego and greed, to save up my money/energies, so that it owns me, like water/blood running through the body/earth, where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let energies posses & own me and I go into reactions and fear out of letting energies possess me and building up energies so they go into reactions or fear out of how I am pre programmed, or I am telling myself to possess/own money/energies, out of not being trained enough to handle energies/money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am not serious, within my voice tonality that I would like to have, where I realize that it is mostly to be able to slow down that seems to be the matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lock at reporters and at people working with news broadcasting where I envy their sincerity and how they are precise that I would also like to gain with myself, with how I speak to myself and with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I do not talk enough to myself about the things that matter and about things that I really truly care for , and that are I precarious within my life.

When and as I see myself starting to talk to myself on subject that I care for, or that I find important, I stop myself and I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that the most important I can do in such relation is to slow myself down, really take my time with communicating with myself and to slow myself down. I realize that I must slow myself down and to really take things more easy. I realize that I must be able to speak in a moderate tone with easy to myself. I commit myself to talk in honesty to myself on thing that I find important and to talk in common sense to myself on all sorts of subjects and issues. I commit myself to open op on topics that are hidden in plain sight that is the real gold mine/minds of my being as investigation and experience have proven.

Desteni I process

desteniiprocess.com

Desteni Stands for Oneness & Equality

http://desteni.org/

Free online writing course:

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

Destonians

http://destonians.com/

Day – 549 – Dragging along old dirt / reason for self sabotage.

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Since 2002 I have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia. I have lived as a drug addict, with milder drugs, and also alcohol addiction for many, many years. I have a history, like anyone, as being adolescent and experiencing trouble and drama with growing up being 12 – 19 years old, and experiencing a emotional fuck ride through life and through experiences and war inside.

These memories and this guilt, and old shame, and sorrow, I carry with me from these episodes today. And judge myself with self sabotage and guilt to this day. These are mostly isolated happenings that I have gone through rounds with self forgiveness and I have released the energy component to these happenings.

But within my awareness they are still there, I drag it along, and it is causing me to judge and go into anger. From building emotions from my past, and judging myself. Failing to let go.

This have been and is today reason for my self – sabotage. Having bad thoughts and backchats within my head that I really do not need, and that is not supportive to me at all. It is like I said: self sabotage. I will go through this porridge until it settles and it is calm. Until there is no more self sabotage. I will stir up the foundations of these episodes and these emotions, until it all settles and I can be calm. Get myself out of comfort zone, sort o speak.

I will write about these circumstances ; that I drag with me these emotional rides, until they are all gone and left for good. I will write them all away. I will tell myself everyday that: I lay my past behind me – and I move on.

I commit myself to leave my old stories of emotions, behind me.

We are the change we have been waiting for. It is this time that is OUR time. We can make this into heaven for all. It is a possibility that is here. We can melt all the tanks and all the guns and all the bombs, it is a opportunity that we have. Lets do just that, lest make this place into what is best for all. I call it positive realism. It is living the Jesus message – without becoming religious. It is common sense. Lets forgive our past and; do what is best for all. I commit myself to tell myself that I lay my past behind – everyday for a long time – until the bother is gone. I will prove that I have what it takes. I am life. I life.

Do you have what it takes?

Desteni I process

desteniiprocess.com

Desteni Stands for Oneness & Equality

http://desteni.org/

Free online writing course:

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

Destonians

http://destonians.com/