Day 703 : Day 10 : Change

 

 

Day 10 of 21 days of walking with self forgiveness

I will take on the challenge from my brother : Gian Robberts on walking a 21 day trial of (only/daily) self forgiveness on points. I will walk these points of self forgiveness for self/world change during 21 days.

 

Here is Gain’s Blog :

http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.no

21 days of self forgiveness on key points.

The points will be that kind of relevant points as of this world and our living.

Money, sex, politics, work, religion, mind  and so on.

 

Day 10: Change

 

Please read loud for best effect

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change as in fearing something I don’t know what is and fearing to let go of old routines and old comfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself feel pride and righteousness over how I have changed over time and developed into a more and more responsible being particular within what goes on of metaphysics within and without of myself that causes effect and has a deeper impact on “real world” and living, so within so without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for not seeing in clarity until today how bad I have been longing for and wanting change realizing today that I must be that change I want to see in my world, practically physically 24/7.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine how I would be dividing and driving myself into this and that direction out of assuming that the change would/could be bad change – failing again to realize that my effort and my living in everyday breathe by breathe is what makes change and that I must change for the better, self comfort and most of all: for what is best for all must come through, first as self change and then as world change – basic math!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and moralize over what I see as bad changes, which is just old system repeating itself like with US president election or war in middle east, which is totally filled with abuse and irresponsible which is again a pin pointer to let us all know that nothing changes unless we change and learn to love/live our enemies and to embrace them and to change our self and this world = equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define change within myself as a improvement and as a way to improve my life from physical and as a way to become hole and complete and self honest – a path of the way to well being : a good road.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I would need to place trust within other people and their leadership and to place trust in a direction to have change, if failing to have a direction myself, and failing to be with myself and to listen to myself intimately (in to me I see) and to be comfortable with myself and to dare to take response – ability/to be a leader.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to give up my ego to have change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would believe it would hurt to give up my ego for change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be – li – ve that all change is good, then it is a matter of how I define change, and what is just looping and mind fucking / same old.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a fault and a mistake and to blame myself because of not seeing enough change and not seeing the change I want to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think my ideas of change is utopian and unrealistic and that I live in a  bubble world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to divide between my pre-programmed likes or dislikes of good change and bad changes.

 

Real change is something to happen for the best for all beings !

 

Change can be painful (like birth), but if we use self forgiveness

we can get past the mind points.

 

I realize that all I want i to improve my life equally to yours and for everyone – with change.

 

 

 

Living the word change :

 

CHANGE

How to live the word change ? In a world that most defiantly need both huge and small time change how do we live this word change to its greatest ?

What is my allocation to change? To me change is something new that is replacing something else, something that is a replacement. Change is a substitute and something that replaces something. So in this world there is lots of change going on. So how to value change in its best form ? To value the cool change the good change and the change that is best for all. Most importantly change comes from the inside and from the psyche of self. I want to live like to be that change that I would like to see. I will live the change I want to see, in the kitchen, in the bathroom, in working with animals with talking on phone, with showering, with driving with shopping with walking…. with living:  be it/be change – be considerate !!

 

Dictionary definition:

change :

1. 1. make or become different.
2. 2. take or use another instead of.

 

 

Etymology :

change (n.)

1. 1200, “act or fact of changing,” from Anglo-French change, Old French change “exchange, recompense, reciprocation,” from changier (see change (v.)).

 

 

Sounding of word:

 

she – hangs

chen – guest

chen – guess

henges

chains

 

 

Polarity of word:

Negative:

I would associate negative on this word; because of lack of change : that there is not enough changes in this world. There should be more changes and further changes, for the best of all.

 

Positive:

I associate that typical change that are best for all, is cool changes I like those changes that are best for all. I cherish and honor them. I realize I will only change myself for what is good – so there for all change is in deeper essence:  good/for the better.

 

 

Creative writing:

Changes are very much like chain reactions. Like a stream of money (changes, coins) and like the pearl or pieces of a neck less. The petals of a flower symbolizes changes to me, or coins that are changing hands. It is almost like changes are a chain reaction in itself. Changes are still very physical and it is like to change direction within and, change one tone of speaking or change ones approach. Change ones pants. Particularly I would like to emphasis the direction from introversion that is driving change, so within so without.

 

 

Re- definition of change:

Change is a improvement to occur, in advance of oneness first point, matter or direction.

 

 all 3 pictures are made by me

 

http://www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

 

 

 

 

Day 701 : Day 8 : Freedom

Day 701 : Day 8 : Freedom

 

 

Day 8 of 21 days of walking with self forgiveness

 

I will take on the challenge from my brother : Gian Robberts on walking a 21 day trial of (only/daily) self forgiveness on points. I will walk these points of self forgiveness for self/world change during 21 days.

 

Here is Gain’s Blog :

http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.no

21 days of self forgiveness on key points.

The points will be that kind of relevant points as of this world and our living.

Money, sex, politics, work, religion, mind  and so on.

 

Day 8: Freedom

 

Please read loud for best effect

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I know what freedom is and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that I don’t know what freedom is since I have not experienced it yet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I lack to define “freedom” to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that freedom is to not have schizophrenia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that extreme sport is a point of freedom in anyway, or that to push oneself over limits can be liberating, but still one is surrounded by mind and psychology non the less.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that freedom can be a bad or painful experience as in breaking a leg during play / seeking freedom and hurting self emotionally within exploring social life or challenges and aiming for freedom.

 

more on the dare – devil topic  here

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  think that freedom belongs to one specific political idea/side/wing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to long for freedom within liberating myself from mind, thoughts and energies, and that here lies the greatest challenge to humans as of yet, to conquer self as of being directive principle – self and not be directed and driven by mind/separation and ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider self honesty as a  principle of freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider money as a point of where freedom can be applied equality to all humans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider some American or else .. politicians to be leaders of freedom – when they are almost all simply actors and projected abusers of self, and that this self is the ultimate key to freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear freedom as of fearing the pain within change into more freedom, that is very often a physical painful experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach to words to the word: freedom like to worship “the American freedom” – which is a illusion – or “religious freedom” which is a lie – and so on it is yet to discover…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider freedom as a undiscovered beauty to all human beings discovered with the tool of self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that freedom is to be nude.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other peoples idea of freedom like freedom to carry a gun or to bash and troll/bully others in thoughts, words and deeds.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that the ultimate bully is self onto self and so the ultimate secret/yet to discover is freedom from mind/thoughts/energies – to have a sense of being free within ones physical/temple.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad and sorry when I see soldiers or so called rainbow warriors who are fighting “the good cause”, and that are “freedom fighters” – all wrapped in the life of money/control/ego/etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that some people have very, very specific/possessive ideas of freedom and liberty – pointing at the constitution or a law system or a religion, that was put in place with rivers of blood – and so  we see it going on also today creating consequences from what foundation it was established.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to talk of freedom as I fear to not predict what will be said.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel despise of the idea of having lots of money and 5 cars and 3 houses etc… as a image or direction of “having freedom”, when it is all ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine I know something about freedom from looking at the birds or a the bees or the trees.. and thinking that sort of awareness and life style(?) is how life should be for us equally.

Freedom is a incredible and deeply individual issue on many levels. To me it is about gaining freedom/space from psychology and daily drama of mind – and to breathe – free and be physical and not in meta – physical.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge some thinkers and some of the people who is main stream culture and media is more “respected” and “appreciated” than others, where their voice is heard, in the main stream media, and I keep reminding myself that painful truth of how it all is hidden in plain sight and that either Socrates, Jesus or Bernard Poolman was popular with the establishment/system/mainstream, and I sense a gentle relief from not giving in not compromising and simply standing my ground because the “rules of the game” or the metaphysical existence have been changed and altered in favor of life on earth. I life.

 

oneness and equality is freedom & peace for all*

 

painting by me

 

Thanks !

 

 

 

 

 

Day 683 -Creating a better world

Creating a better world

 

No need to claim that this world is busy waking up and changing. People are seeing the deceive of mind and systems. The lies of banking, education, wars, news, entertainment govern-mind and so on… It is a long list and it is all lies…. And we are waking up like NEO in matrix.. one by one…

 

What does this mean ? It means that we are and we still need to create fundament of support and care for all of sustainable and ecological best for life: like Venus project lol. To me that is a cool goal to see created.

 

And so I have a goal. Venus project. Heaven on earth. Anarchy – the perfect order etc…How to get there. By creating part time goals and walking steps everyday to get to that point of actually building the Venus project (or other genuine supportive and best for all solution)

 

So by committing to everyday walks to take steps everyday in that direction and to have goals and a ways to work towards that greater goal. Part time goals in between – then you reach that goal in the end…

 

Creating new structures and fundaments, concepts, businesses  and service and platforms to further bring goals like.. the Venus project further. Consistent work every day towards that goal is key. Part time goals, everyday goals… until we are there!

To use the old problem, solution and reward recipe is also a good way to work and write. The in debt understanding of self is also very vital to be able to take  complete responsibility for self and self creation, which is rare today. Very rare.

What we accept and allow to go on these days, of atrocities, is beyond imaginations and is rooted in us like brainwashing and programing.

I want to explain to you something here. And that is how the point of control and “unit” of ..control way back behind all curtains and all the layers of control,  and conspiracies (!!) … that very point of unit/control/enslavement have been taken out. It is no longer here. You may think this sounds like star wars …and that is not far from the truth. We all should know now by now,  that we have been had. Big time. The brainwashing have been complete and to the extreme with all of us us… all we have ever known – have been lies… and lies and  lies.

 

That is why we can say stop, and realize that we must take a 180  degree turn. We can create  utopia, Venus project and beyond that. I am not joking. The very establishment of control and … be – lie – ves are not in “real” power any more, as the very core “product” they were serving have been taken out. I can explain all this is details, or you can go to YouTube and search through the millions of videos explaining the lies…. but I think you deep, deep within you understand my words.

 

So what time is this? This is the time of consequence,  and also the year of creation. It is time to create a better world, new supportive and best for all solutions.  Together we can walk towards a great goals of oneness and equality.

I am busy creating a better every day for mental health within psychiatry.

New platforms and new democratic instruments are here. We already have the opportunity to have direct democracy, all the solutions are out there, waiting to be used. Hidden by the mainstream media, and the “old” lies, rooted back at self and mind.

You like me are the key to betterment. Lets walk and create together. Life is waiting for its creators to create, a better world for all, Venus project and beyond…

I have walked a creation process now for more than 4 years. I have gotten over  possessions, obsessions, voices, addictions, imaginations, personalities, believes, judgments, fears, emotions, feelings, mind games, anger, sorrow, thoughts, sabotage, self hurt, suffering, self pity, secret mind, mind fucks….  and literally tons and tons of metaphysical material that I was carrying with me. All this I leave behind, like nothing  from walking my desteni i process.

I stand changed here, in creation. Will you create with me ?

 

the venus project

 

 

 

Day 675 – psychiatry relations

Paradigm-shift or zeitgeist is pulling us,  or – we are pulling it. No matter how we turn it – things are gradually changing within how this world is run. We are going to change in money and finances, in environmental issues, energy,  and in education, how we do our work,  in what we eat, to connect and communicate, and so on. We have a very, very different view of earth and life now; than before the internet. Internet is like the mind of this earth. Our/its global mind. And then we need to learn to read this mind from form knowing and forgiving our very  own mind with its levels and our history.

 

So there is change and things are developing  for a better or utopia tomorrow. How is it that psychiatry is changing today? What is the elements of mental health doing today ? There are several areas to look into, I would be glad to debate them with you. One of the most fundamental and devastating is that awareness of lack of mental health care in for instance China, Indonesia, Algeria and most of Africa and India.  These are a few of these countries I have investigated for mental health care service or lack of so. There is often poverty, and religions and traditions of ignorance, separation and  shame from having a family member with a illness. That leads to  torture/death as a outcome for many people that have a mental illness that don’t live in US, Scandinavia, UK or Australia and so on. Still in the western part there are made great pushes for further change. To throw out ECT for one thing. That treatment have been with us long enough. I am 100 % clear on that ECT is not a cool solutions. There are other solutions that are better.

 

More and more we see the words :recovery, gym, work out, back on track, community, work,  belonging, open dialogue, detoxify, family, empowerment, and survival. But we also see words like porn, drug addictions,  euthanasia, suicide, prison, and billions spent on chemical “therapy”.

So there is definitely challenges for the future of mental health care. Wherever you are in this world.

I used to be a patient and a multiple addict. Hearing voices, drinking,  and living in constant anxiety. I have been diagnosed with schizo – affective since 2003 till today. I recon I was born with it. Mental health is today more open out there, and not that much a taboo. Things like ECT make it a deep (!!) taboo still. Shame, calculated believes and inequality still push a lot of the old taboo in psychiatry in the western world. There are things being done though and we are making effect for the better. Like the Extended Therapy Room in Goteborg, Sweden,  or the Open Dialogue from Seikkula inn  Finland, Hearing Voices Network, Mad In America movement, Fountain House Foundation, Camphill Movement,  and grass root changes, people with user experiences taking stage and being genuine leaders, and lots of other smaller, and greater projects that matter, that are pulling the weight, but that is not that much noticed by media.

I have been committed to hospital for approximately 100 times . I was a addicted to that nurturing/hotel of psychiatry. It kept me alive. I am not afraid to tell this to children or strangers. It is a open and clear part of me. I don’t want to face lost of tripping wires about my past. I want it to be forgiven. From myself.  To me psychiatry is a rescuing boat and at the same time I have lost many friends, and cried many tears with this on my mind. I would so much like to give something in return, from what I know is working; to those people that are in psychiatry today.

 

So we still have ways to go to understand schizophrenia, autism,  ADHD, depression and so on. Also the point of pain of poverty, why is it that people in psychiatry must be poor ? From where is that logic ? Why should I have less than other people ? Closing the inequality gap is of great importance to psychiatry, and humanity,  because then, if everyone had plenty of money, equal. We would weed out sooooooooo much fear and hate. It is hard to grasp. A total utopia is then (!) within our reach… no joke !

 

So we still need  to inform ourselves about mental health, we all have hard times in our lives. Now and then we face things that are difficult and seemingly touch and painful. But we can get through it. I dare you to write to me if you have this one thing that really bothers you or pain within – contact me and we can talk.

That is some of the essence and beauty of this. To use this awesome web to connect and communicate.  Psychiatry might not be everyone first choice, or topic they would like to talk about, still it is a driving factor and a vital and most alive part of this world. Like it was with the old masters of art and painting  etc… it still is today. More now with autism and recovery perhaps. Which is enjoyable to withness.

 

We have this one life, this one chance, if we chose to hide and suppress  (!) things within over the years, you will on your dying day regret it and not know the consequences for doing just that. It is all up to ourselves.

We are the living creators of this world. Enough pain and separation. Lets unite and talk and create further solutions and cherish and support what solutions is already here! Let’s talk !

 

 

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Day 646 – Living words: change

How to live the word change ? Inn a world that most defiantly need both huge and small time change how do we live this word change to its greatest ?

What is my allocation change? To me change is something new that is replacing something else, something that is a replacement. Change is a substitute and something that replaces something. So in this world there is lots of change going on. So how to value change in its best form ? To value the cool change the good change and the change that is best for all.

 

Dictionary definition:

 

change :

 

1. 1. make or become different.
2. 2. take or use another instead of.

 

 

Etymology:

 

change (n.)

1. 1200, “act or fact of changing,” from Anglo-French change, Old French change “exchange, recompense, reciprocation,” from changier (see change (v.)).

 

 

sounding of word:

 

she – hangs

chen – guest

chen – guess

henges

 

Polarity of word:

I would associatenegative on this word to think that there is not enough changes in this world. There should be more rapid changes and further changes, for the best of all life, in this world.

 

Positive, I associate that typical change that are best for all, is cool changes I like those changes that are best for all. I cherish them.

 

 

Creative writing:

Changes are very much like chain reactions. Like a stream of money (changes) and like the pearl or pieces of a neck less. The petals of a flower symbolizes changes to me, or coins that are changing hands. It is almost like changes are a chain reaction in itself. Changes are still very physical and it is like to change direction within and, change one tone of speaking or change ones approach. Change ones pants. Particularly I would like to emphasis the direction from introversion that is driving change, so within so without.

Re- definition of word:

Changes is something to occur, in advance of oneness first physical point and matter or direction.