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Day 652 – Living words GENTLENESS

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Current allocation: I would think of this word like : over protection, like giving more coz and attention than needed. Like a nurse simply “diddeling and doddeling” with you, giving you lots of extra and not asked for attention and consideration. I would think of this word as a word over the top, like to exaggerate. To overdo something.

Dictionary definition: gentleness

  1. Considerate or kindly in disposition; amiable and tender.
  2. Not harsh or severe; mild and soft: a gentle scolding; a gentle tapping at the window.
  3. Easily managed or handled; docile: a gentle horse.
  4. Not steep or sudden; gradual: a gentle incline.
  5. a. Of good family; wellborn: a child of gentle birth.
  6. Suited to one of good breeding; refined and polite: a gentle greeting to a stranger.
  7. Archaic Noble; chivalrous: a gentle knight.


Etymology: gentleness (n.)

  1. 1300, “inherited nature,” from gentle + -ness. Meaning “freedom from harshness or violence” is from 1610s.


Sounding of word:

gen test

gentel test


gentle nest

jeans next



Negative: I would think of gentleness as “to much care”. Like to overdo it. “Too much of good” sort of. And a sort of fear of what opens up within – from experiencing gentleness.

Positive: I would think of considering and providing care and consideration to others. To be gentle and to go with ease.


Creative writing:

It is connected to genes somehow, like how we must be gentle with even our genes. Harsh is like the opposite of gentle(ness). I would realize that there is no overdoing goodness or ease at all, it is just my imagination. Doing good cannot become “too good”. By doing lots of good or being over all gentle and easy, one is making people more kind and open to more gentleness. By being gentle one opens up new doors and oneness consciousness to new consideration and to simple best for all solutions. It is sort of claiming peace.


Gentleness: is being so; over all good and acting with such ease, that it inspires to further consideration and further healing. Gentleness, is claiming peace by being so good it makes people surrender their tensions/arms/polarities.




Day 648 – Living word: breathe

Roman Mosaic Donated by President Bourguiba

Allocation to word:

Breathe…. where to start. I am always breathing, the body is constantly working with oxygen and air. The question is am I aware of my breathing ? It is constant but not a automatic process. It is close to automatic but not quite so. Breathe gives life to who I am. Breathe gives life to my physical. I see that I have been over living this word I have been trying to live it too hard. I have been trying to breathe with awareness – to hard. I would think of breathe and I would associate with two things, life and stress. I breathe myself to stress by over doing it. Further I realize that it is not just me that is breathing. Most life forms breathe. Even fish have organs to breathe for them under water.

Dictionary definition:

  1. to take air, oxygen, etc., into the lungs and expel it; inhale and exhale; respire.
  2. (in speech) to control the outgoing breath in producing voice and speech sounds.
  3. to pause, as for breath; take rest:

How about giving me a chance to breathe?

  1. to move gently or blow lightly, as air.
  2. to live; exist:

Hardly a man breathes who has not known great sorrow.

  1. to be redolent of.
  2. (of a material) to allow air and moisture to pass through easily:



breathe (v.)

  1. 1300, not in Old English, but it retains the original Old English vowel of its source word, breath. Related: Breathed; breathing.

breather (n.)

  1. 1600, “a living creature, one who breathes,” agent noun from breathe. Meaning “spell of exercise to stimulate breathing” is from 1836; that of “a rest to recover breath” is from 1901.



Sounding of word:

bris – (gentle wind in Norwegian)





bæsj – (poo in Norwegian)





Polarity of word:

negative: I would associate breathe with stress, and with getting anxious from over doing it. I would think I had to breathe in a stressing tempo to be aware of my breathing. I was overdoing it.

positive: I would associate with calm and comforting breathe that fills me with life from breathing inn and expressing myself when breathing out.

Creative writing:

Breathe can be so much more supportive to me than what I allow it to today. I realize that most life forms I know of is breathing. I realize that I can improve my breathing skills, by slowing down and breathing more calm. A calm breathe is so much better than a stressful breathe. A calm breathe is more sane and more healthy. Breathe should be experienced as supportive and nice. One should work with self communication and release energies to better oneness breathe/chest from obstacles and ones pain and energies. To have a overall improved and better life. Breathe is supposed to flow through me like a gentle stream. Breathe should be nice and calm. Gentle and smooth.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think in brief moments during my day, that I should hurry up and breathe or push myself through fields of energies to be able to breathe, making my life stressful and painful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to be aware of my breathing in moments of stress during my ordinary day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I had to push myself to breathe going into energies and sort of vibration within my body, and my mind thinking this is a solution when it is simply a painful and confusing process where I need to bring myself back from that “high” into sanity, calamity and ease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to think of my breathe because I would fear to face my secrets and my so called week spots within physical and for refusing to take on or talk about breathe, since I am so dependent on it that I look upon it like it is a addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of breathe like a addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I don’t fully know the benefits of breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don’t know really what breathe is.

When and as I see myself compromising my life and my physical, in  movements and I go into stress, and I forget to be aware of breathe. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that slowing down is moving faster through process, and I should along with slowing down also focus more on my breathing. I realize that a slow and calm breathe is better for me. I realize I should not strive and keep pushing myself as much compared to simply : to slow the fuck down, and to further feel my breathe/physical. I commit myself to feel my breath each time I breathe. I commit myself to live by the virtue of breathe awareness and self honesty. I commit myself to breathe as nothingness.


New definition:

Breathe is the experience of inhaling and exhaling of air through ones body. Breathe is a important part of life.  Breathe is food for the body.

Day 567 – Living words: decision

Living words: decision

Current allocation:

A decision is to me, like a choice only more important or sort of more “heavy”. A decision is to me something that one makes. One reaches it after comparing and after validating pro and cons and after having investigated the case of study/matter. And out from this I developed a decision. I would think decisions can be very important, I often find it difficult to make decisions, since a decision would lead to a act, or to / not a act. It would drive me into reactions literally, over not being able to reach my decision. I would think that important decisions are often made by old men in suits in meeting rooms and in conferences and in the various, so called, democratic institutions around this world. I would think of a decision for myself would be like should I have fish or meat to dinner? Or decision like should I have a morning shower or not ? I would weigh the pro and cons of the outcome and make my decision. Decisions to drive to the city to a cafe and by a coffee and a piece of cake, or deciding to work on writings like this here, and ; this is a decision for me to write this. Equally I would think that my life would be better if I did not have to make decisions at all. I think that I struggle a lot with making decisions because of corruption and crime made from decisions/democracies in this world.

Dictionary definition:

decision : a conclusion or resolution reached after consideration.



decision (n.)

mid-15c., from Middle French decision (14c.), from Latin decisionem (nominative decisio) “a decision, settlement, agreement,” noun of action from past participle stem of decidere (see decide). Decision making (adjective, also decision-making) is recorded from 1953.

Sounding of the word:

there – sits – John

the – sion

this – is – sion

d – session ( a lot of D -s)


Negative: I would think that too much decisions are made my corrupt politicians, and “hidden” elite people, and this influences me to make my own, bad, decisions in my life. It causes doubt within me. I realize that decisions made by politicians today, like business deals, are based on corruption and crimes and not much at all, of what is best for all. I realize that I as many others, struggle with making the right decisions – because of how I see the crappy decision made by politicians in this life. And this confuses me big time, to make my own decisions in my everyday life and I feel like I am unable to make good decisions. And with me as with many other, I fall into abuse/reactions, like the so called leaders do, and we all make, or made before, the wrong decisions. I realize that I judge myself, both before and after making my decision and that my decision is wrong and bad anyhow.

Positive: I would like to make good decisions for the best of all. This is a word that I would like to practice well. I would like to see positive results from my decisions. I would like to smoothen my decision making so it is easy. Decisions can be done for what is best for all. And for that, we need change from today’s system, and I will stand up for that change and make it happen.

Creative writing:

Decisions is something that we make after weighing pro and cons. From investigating. To consider the question and outcome for the best of all. There are different decisions, like there is different cultures in this world. I realize that we need to change the whole picture of who is in charge of this world and to take away the world leaders of today. Like there is many “Johns” sitting at the computers and at their desks, in front of the TV screen, doing nothing but feeding the mind its energies, and not participating, in the world, not making actual decisions/change, being decided for from media/elite, simply passive sitting and not doing anything at all. They are ruled over from politicians making decisions for them. They are the salves of this world; they are, part of the 99 %.

The many John’s that are sitting thinking only of themselves, in leading positions, that is not for the good of all. The many Johns that are sitting in the different governments, and in the different chairs of power are not doing what is best for all. I realize that it is a cool solution to stand and make my voice be heard. I prefer to stand and be a change – without reacting/violence. I commit myself to the decision to change this picture so that all voices are heard and that no one is left out that would be real decision making and a community based on what is best for all. Decisions need not be that many or that hard like they are today. There would be fewer and fewer problems to solve in a future where everyone gets to speak. Decisions can be made easy, by letting everyone speak, and for the best of all, like with direct online democracy, where everyone participates. Equally. I realize that when I struggle to make a decision I can write pro and cons to figure out what to do and how to act in the given moment, over the question and then, also, slow down, and make my decision, based on what is best for all.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I make bad decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am programmed to make bad decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to make bad decisions and then blame it on the politician from how they make bad decision, in politics – failing to realize that politics is here now everyday all the time in real life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make decisions because of how I see politician of today make crappy and corrupt decisions that makes me fearful of making a single decision equally in my life, that might sound easy like to visit someone or to go swimming , or take a morning shower. It all becomes so damn hard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I consider it my big weakness to not be able to make good decision at all, and I would start to react within this question of making good decisions and I would judge myself as week and wrong because of how I see politicians as corrupt and wrong, and fearing to do the same myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of the word “there sits John” like, he (John) is a boss or a ruler of some kind and I would think of John the Baptist from the Bible, and how we would Baptize people in the water/river and I align this with how hard it could be to achieve good personal hygiene and to have a clean and cozy home, that is difficult for many, many people, that I would see is relevant for this word and the sounding of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear how people in power are really bad leaders and I would fear that they would should “do” much bad decision making, and that their decisions are harmful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make a decision for myself on the many different things that I can take part in within my life that I would fear to take part in because I would fear the decision making involved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame all the passive “Johns” out there for simply sitting doing nothing in front of the TV and not taking active part in changing this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to feel a urge to hide and suppress my desire for good decisions within my physical and within my being so that I am eventually ending up with a lot of surprised wrong decisions within me, feeling bad for making wrong decisions over how I would think of humanity and life as one, and think that I would corrupt myself by the idea of finding my answers from my thoughts and my thinking, which I would consider wrong, to go into thoughts/stress.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the believe that there is a certain awareness with the “sitting John” like “sitting bull”, that we are all waking up to a new era of time and a change in the wind like Bob Dylan would have said it in his song – and that we are the change we have been waiting for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I find that I need more time to make the right decision in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that in the future we would not need to decide that much because we would live like it was heaven – for all and everyone on this planet.

When and as I see myself, standing in front or a type of question or something where I need to make a decision and I notice resistance/fear. I stop, and I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that I need to take my time to make, the very best choice within a decision. I realize that I can write pro and con’s to the matter and to have the mathematical result of pro and con. I realize that I can gather my results from my experience of making a pie chart and looking at what factors that are there, and what is positive and what is negative and forgive for the charges, and release the energy that are charged within the pro and the con/result. I realize that I must take my time with this process of all my choices and my decisions. I commit myself to slow myself down within my decision making. I commit myself to slow myself down, within my decisions, and to take it more easy, and not stress or haste my decision/choice.

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