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Day 625 – Self honesty and process

 

Know this: everything has a particular design. All words have particular design. Figuring out what is self honesty can be both complicated and stressful.

 

Figuring out the details of what particular design self honesty is carrying can be quite complicated. To my awareness self honesty is helping me stay sharp, on point and it make my being also less noisy. What does this mean ? It means that self honesty per design is a type of tool that can be both frightening and sharp. It means that when I carry self honesty my time is more with ease. There is less noise in my head. Self honesty is one of the most perfected designs and medications, there is because self honesty does not allow any abuse. When you are 100 % honest you would not abuse. This is one of the very most important corner stone’s of holism and rules, like the golden rule.

 

When you hold a self honest perspective you will not do abuse. What is this world coming to ? Where are we going ? I can say for sure, that we are all going to stop. Inevitable we are going to become self responsible and self honest with our self. Eventually. This world need to stop. Stop the separation of thoughts and mind. Thoughts are separation of self. Thoughts and thinking is self sabotage. On a micro scale. So within so without. What I carry within myself is also reflects without of myself.

I realizes something important within writing this and that is to be consistent. Consistent within my process. Consistency of path and directive principle. Directive principle is interesting. It is like self communication. Talk to self. We humans talk a lot. And lots of it is simply blabbering, nonsense and worse…. hurtful, gossip etc.. I commit myself to only speak when I have something valid to say. When there is commonsense to what I am saying. What is supportive. I commit myself to not speak when there is nothing supportive or common sensible to talk about.

Self honesty is the perfect drug. Learn it by heart. Seek and you will find.

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I commit myself to live in self honesty and in responsibility within all that I am.

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Day 619 – Another one bites the dust…

Another one bites the dust…

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Through my time I have lost lots quite allot of friends to a early death. This weekend I lost one more, and I ask myself how can there exist love when there is so much wrong and sad stuff in this world ? How have we come to allow such a load of bad stuff/war/suffering to exist with us on earth ? And most important of all: why do we seem unwilling to change ? We all know that change starts with self. There is no short cuts here, we change or we don’t, with and as the world and our physical.

There is lots of branches and structures that needs and change. Banking, money, democracy, education, health, communication, engineering, science, technologies and so on… there is lots to get involved in as of changing within the paradigm shift.

How do we physically change ? How to deal with past trauma and feeling bad for old mistakes ? How do we correct our self from self judging and emotional layering ? The answer to that is as easy as it is hard. We forgive our self. We are our own worst judges and it is time to reconcile and forgive our self.

The very last thing Jesus said hanging on the cross was: “Forgive them they know not what they do”. So we need in this world of multiple layers/players and multiple diagnosis’s and addictions and so on to: forgive our self. Self forgiveness. The very core and layering of our being. It is not done over night, but there is no way around it. For the energy knots and the bundles of emotions and varieties, of psychology that keeps us strained and enslaved to ego and thinking.

Thinking liberals will solve it, no wait socialism will solve it, no wait, anarchism will solve it, or religions will solve it. Always having that ego starting point of thought/thinking. Eventually it is what is best for all that will come through. You do the math. Always consider what is the genuinely best for all solutions.

Unless this energy and these memories/psychology is dealt with in honesty with forgiveness understanding and self correction of behavior and mannerism, that pattern of thought/personality/energy/psychology will simply continue to run over and over like a old record on repeat until it has consequences.

So I can ask myself how can there be love when there is war, rape, starving, suffering, sickness and so on (?) Eventually it is what we all create as human beings. What are you busy creating ? Do you know ? We are all creators on this earth.. are you creating more emotional layers to yourself ? Are you addicted to certain energies ? What are you creating out of this ? Are you living in old memories ? Living the sins of the fathers ?

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Day 611 – Personality of witnessing old friends giving into drugs and death.

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I have lots of friends in the “camps” drugs and death. And very many of them are living in sever addiction and inn lots of suffering and emotional drama.

What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.

– June Roca

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into a personality of feeling obligated to visiting and spending time with old friends from psychiatry and drug relations thinking I can take on their problems, thinking I can help.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my purpose as to change psychiatry and within this feel like I would need to visit my old friends to keep up to date or to simply live as I preach, like I have said enough times before, they must now help themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become depressed, thinking I am loosing them when they will not listen to commons sense, or my words of guidance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to picture myself as this saint or Jesus/guru to save them from suffering, failing to realize I am giving into the limitations of hope and fewer chances in real time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this positive polarity personality play out like thinking there is hope or thinking they might one day recover, and heal from addicting failing to realize that they have to pull it through themselves it is do – or die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am only limiting them by paying them visits, providing them with the falseness of hope, and I should quit this, to help them realize they must help themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the negative polarity, where I witness lots of them dying and committing suicide and simply ending up in severe addictions for instance heroin, where I would blame myself thinking I have failed as a friend for not caring enough for them and for not being there enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into thoughts to this negative polarity of witnessing the suffering and dramas around heroin and alcohol addiction that is very hard on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take a lot of harshness trying to find some way out for them and to help them, trying to show them way out of their addictions, where I feel lost and exhausted, realizing it is not easy to help people that are so badly addicted and in such suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek communities and gatherings where there is openness and sharing around drugs and its drama, like NA and AA. (Narcotics anonymous and alcoholics anonymous)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I do not want to be addicted to either hope or heroin, not for myself or for others at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to visit some of my old friends since they are so deeply involved with abuse and additions, where I let this bring me down, and I go into depression and fear of how my life used to be, as I take on my friends problems of addiction and suffering, simply making the problem larger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I will have to leave some of my old friend since they refuse to snap – out of their abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that new ways will open up to me and I will discover new doors to new chances and opportunities as long as I do not limit myself with for instance hope (or dope).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will feel bad for leaving my old friends behind, and thinking of myself as some sort of Judas for not supporting them with the false flag of hope or anyways else support them with money or my company.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have given so many chance to these different characters that I will now have to let them go and not to go into grief and sorrow from leaving them behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find excuses to visiting some of these people, out of ego thinking I can be their savior and their guru/Jesus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still want to fight for legalizing drugs and helping them out as group in society but I can no longer just hang out with them as misery is all I see with them, and I feel a fear to be dragged into misery/addictions myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to whiteness and see myself going into pieces and simply dissolving within my inner demons of pitying the drug abuser, seeing myself in my past in agony simply facing total burn out and depriving state of being from taking on their misery to myself.

Self corrections to be lived:

When and as I see myself thinking of any of my old friends that I know is struggling with drugs or alcohol addiction, I stop myself, I slow myself down and I take a deep breath. I realize that only one self can help self out of sickness and addiction. I realize that there is practically nothing I can do to help and prevent them from going under. I realize I have done what I can to try to help them.

I commit myself to focus on myself and my process in my life and to not get involved with too many drama or connection to my old friends. I commit myself to not be dragged into providing them with hope or to be a sort of “nanny” to them. I commit myself to break bonds with such old friends, instead of acting like a nanny to them. I commit myself to let them sorts out their own shit – of face consequences. I will not spend more time being bothered by their misery and addictions. Enough is enough. I will not let them drag me with them into the dirt no more.

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Day 608 – Personality of being reliant on social – ism.

Personality of being reliant on social – ism.

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Personalities. Plus and minus. Positive and negative. This chase for the positive have lead me, for many years to value socialism over any other political – ism. I have thought that socialism is simply only cool and to be social and to be friendly and that is mostly it. And I see that I have a full personality out of being reliant to socialism and to that left side manner of thinking we should share amongst us selves. Today I see that in the socialist states or almost communist states of Venezuela, North – Korea and Cuba. They have lots of issues and problems. Poverty is one of the largest.

There is nothing wrong with socialism. It is simply that point of not getting stuck in the – ism. And rather find the best for all solution that are out there. Because they are.

You can say I have walked a path of understanding this world system – to be able to change it. I have learned some of the creation behind capitalism and its finer thoughts and political idea of Milton Freeman and Ayan Rand. I see that within this thinking and ideas, that anarchism suits into the most perfected idea of self as to have no state/government at all. The liberal dream of no government. With anarchism it will become a reality. Meaning voluntarism and mutualism.

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I realize that a personality have ups and downs and that I have been living with the ups or positive thinking socialism is a fair share and it is all being together and being a part of the team. And then realizing the negative. That it relies of a huge state and lots of taxing of income etc. Lots of bureaucracy. Then, like eureka playing out, I tell myself that we can have a good life without a government. There are ways to live without a government. Without a suppressive military/police etc. Living income guaranteed and equal money system are tools, to get to such a place. Because a better world is possible. By far.

I realize I have been living within a preprogrammed personality thinking that I can rely on socialism to solve my issues. And the world issues for that matter. I have thought about the word “left”, thinking : is there anything “left” for us taking over this earth ? I have though that on my left side is where I have my heart. My parents also thought me that socialism is to be prefer, and that right side is to fear. But most of all it was my own finding, being young. All along I failed to realize that we all have to look beyond programmed – ism and look beyond it to see the best solution that is possible to bring into life. It is hopeless to sit on one edge and claim all ownership of ones corner or -ism. That is simply not a cool solution and will end up in abuse. One have to be liberated from the – ism to see the best solutions. Such as direct democracy.

So here I am hereby liberating myself from the -ism(s) that I have held tightest in my life. Socialism. A smart man once said investigate all things – and keep only what is good. That is what I will live.

From my personality of feeling reliant to socialism this have been quite a process. To realize that we actually can live with a society based on voluntarism and mutualism. It is possible. It all boils down to how we parent our children. Teach non violence where ever you go. It is of outmost importance. In this world we have seen so much abuse and sickening crimes. It is time to heal the hurt and to cooperate with each other. I have held on to socialism as preferred – ism or many years. I think we all need to shake of some dust and old ideas, such as to once and for all: end the war on drugs. The war on drugs – we have all lost. Mexico have lost almost half a million people to the US led war on drugs. Enough is enough. This is one example. And I say one more time. Living income and equal money are tools to bring forth such a world of mutualism and voluntarism. I will not carry any crown of libertinism or anarchism or communism, unless it is the best for all solution to do so. And at this point it is not. I doubt that time will ever come when I need to wear a crown lol. “Crony capitalism” is by the way, the result of a world where one fear each other. (But fear is a illusion and does not really exist) Crony capitalism meaning regulating of trade. Regulating of trade such as : OECD, TTIP, TISA, NAFTA, OPEC etc…

The very opposite for what Milton and Ayan told us to do. These agreements are cannibalism. Pure and simple. And they are opposite of “freetrade”.

Please understand that it is all politics.

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The golden rule. Do unto others like you would like to be done unto. Give like you want to receive and love thy neighbor. Teach non – violence and non – aggression to your child. Because they deserve a better world to grow up inn.

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Day 606 – Savior character

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Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into my savior character where I think I am some kind of savior to humanity and to life, where I give into and defend this belief that my role and my character is more important than other peoples messages and other peoples work/messages, and I would think I am more important or I am of more value that other people characters/work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set out, like warrior, to defend this believe and this character to justify abuse and conscious thinking out from this self believe, defending my ego to my teeth, and ignoring common sense and compassion and consideration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this mind fuck within myself on how I would like there to be understanding of my savior character, and how I place myself above others like a dictator, and to have my character justified like watching the lottery and wining the jackpot simply living my pre – programmed, manipulative  reality and living in a mind fuck from my past/personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to project;  “no more abuse” and “no more crime”, “no more war” etc, and sort of rise above all the abuse that takes place, and to further defend myself as a savior/saint character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to give into the polarity construct of superiority the opinionated idea of myself as savior and that I was above other people, from my opinionated character of being a savior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my savior character this imaginary level of supremacy and superiority to rise myself above other people and other people personalities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a whole mind – fuck or imagined church and religious cult – mannerism around myself and my character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into ego over starting to think I know how to handle characters, failing to realize I just gave into one, as I was thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how personalities and characters are the physical manifested protectors of abuse and crime and that let abuse continue on this earth through enslaving of mind/energies/polarity of the human.

Self corrections to be lived:

When and as I see myself going into a savior character or any how give into a personality or a thought at all. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that it is easy to give into this idea and to justify how, my savior character could be used to something helpful and to be needed. I realize that my savior character is all about rising above other peoples characters or of other characters within myself, to a level of ego and abuse, and it comes back to me like a inferior realizing,  that explains to me, as I face how I was wrong to act like a savior. Not humble and caring. But superior and selfish. I commit myself to prove that characters as they appear, are a part of the system enslavement and mind slaving that creates war and suffering in this world. I commit myself to step out of my savior character. I commit myself to prove that : characters and personalities, main task, or job, is to holding up the world system of enslavement and abuse and that personalities and characters, physically stand as pillars and obelix, prison fences, walls, needles and pins, guns and arms, and infrastructure in this world to protect the abusers/ego. I commit myself to prove that when we all step out of our old characters into a breathe and life awareness that is when we can start build a real heaven on this earth for real. I commit myself to help design and re – define and to build the structure/definitions that is needed to create heaven on earth out of understanding and out of living example.

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Day 596 – Personality out of eating the right food.

Personality out of eating the right food.

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I am quite taken by the idea to eat the right food. There are many people to claim to have the recipe of the best food to eat. It have become such a obsession to me, that I have created a own personality out of it. Sometimes I think I eat too much meat. I then go into self blame and judge myself making myself feel inferior for eating meat at all. Other times I make a nice dinner to myself perhaps using lots of spices and vegetable within it, making me feel confident and smart. And after I have eaten it I would feel really nice with myself thinking “I can cook” and “I can select the best groceries” and so on. Sometimes even going into comparing and competing mode.

I often think of all the poison that is sprayed into the food that I eat and I think that I am lucky to live in Norway where we have strict rules for how much chemicals that is allowed in our food. But there are levels of chemicals, also here, it is being increased every year it seems. So I would prefer to eat only ecological food all the time, since it is the best, without a doubt.

I realize that I “fall into” the choice or questions, of eating meat and I make a decision within myself. To me there is not many enough substitutes or replacements in the normal supermarket, here in Norway, to replace meat, that I do not feel I can choose other vice and no meat. There are not many enough choices or replacement to meat the way I see it. So for now, yes, I eat meat and I enjoy meat. I am aware of what sort of meat I eat and I try to create, a awareness that there are so many, many billions of animals suffering each day living in hell and ending up as dinner and it is not acceptable at all. But we need to create a alternative and it is our job collectively, job to support the often ecological and best alternative and I do so as far as my money and my shopping can take.

Back to my personality. A personality is built out of positive and negative poles. Neutral is not common and it is almost like negative because neutral is no change – no solution. It is positive when I by lots of good quality ecological vegetables or if I feel like I have done something correct and improved myself in the kitchen. Taking on new challenges and make new and existing dishes. Or it is positive when I make a lovely dish to myself, or if I go to a restaurant and enjoy a nice meal or when I bake a bread or cook at home enjoying myself. Empowering myself. That is mostly a positive personality. Slowing down.

It gets negative when I become in doubt if it is right to eat meat at all, or if I go into self judging because of eating to fast is going into self abuse.. Or if I eat, to fast a meal. It is like I abuse myself with eating too much too fast.

So in my very inferior or negative polarity I abuse myself with eating too much too fast, so yes, you can say that sometimes I have a eating disorder or suffer from self abuse. Eating too much too fast.

My personality of eating right would like to state that we all equally, need the best (ecological) and a abundance of healthy and nutritious food every day. It is not a acceptable situation, of today, where half of us are fed and hand half of us starve. We produce food for 14 billion or more and throw away tons of well eatable food every day. Every day we waste so many million tons of food it is a very, very disturbing situation.

My personality of eating and relating to food is diverse, meaning it is very much related to the level of stress that I place onto myself, that gives the outcome of my eating experience. How much stress I give myself is related to how much I am able to appreciate or enjoy my meal. Stress is a sickness, and It have ruined many a meal to me. Stress is a horrible diseased to me, and it create very much misery amongst humans on earth. Leading to abuse and crime.

Stress is making me compromise my food and my living. Stress is a disease.

So my personality of eating right have ups and downs. I find that it is best to eat ecological food and to take my time, to really slow it down with eating. When I slow down and take my time the result is sooo much better. I would like to say to you that though a living income guaranteed we can all have sufficient food and sufficient money to live in dignity. We all deserve enough food on the table each day. We need to end the stress and the crime of throwing away food. The whole system needs change. Check out: http://livingincome.me/ for real change.

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Day 567 – Living words: decision

Living words: decision

Current allocation:

A decision is to me, like a choice only more important or sort of more “heavy”. A decision is to me something that one makes. One reaches it after comparing and after validating pro and cons and after having investigated the case of study/matter. And out from this I developed a decision. I would think decisions can be very important, I often find it difficult to make decisions, since a decision would lead to a act, or to / not a act. It would drive me into reactions literally, over not being able to reach my decision. I would think that important decisions are often made by old men in suits in meeting rooms and in conferences and in the various, so called, democratic institutions around this world. I would think of a decision for myself would be like should I have fish or meat to dinner? Or decision like should I have a morning shower or not ? I would weigh the pro and cons of the outcome and make my decision. Decisions to drive to the city to a cafe and by a coffee and a piece of cake, or deciding to work on writings like this here, and ; this is a decision for me to write this. Equally I would think that my life would be better if I did not have to make decisions at all. I think that I struggle a lot with making decisions because of corruption and crime made from decisions/democracies in this world.

Dictionary definition:

decision : a conclusion or resolution reached after consideration.

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Etymology:

decision (n.)

mid-15c., from Middle French decision (14c.), from Latin decisionem (nominative decisio) “a decision, settlement, agreement,” noun of action from past participle stem of decidere (see decide). Decision making (adjective, also decision-making) is recorded from 1953.

Sounding of the word:

there – sits – John

the – sion

this – is – sion

d – session ( a lot of D -s)

Polarity:

Negative: I would think that too much decisions are made my corrupt politicians, and “hidden” elite people, and this influences me to make my own, bad, decisions in my life. It causes doubt within me. I realize that decisions made by politicians today, like business deals, are based on corruption and crimes and not much at all, of what is best for all. I realize that I as many others, struggle with making the right decisions – because of how I see the crappy decision made by politicians in this life. And this confuses me big time, to make my own decisions in my everyday life and I feel like I am unable to make good decisions. And with me as with many other, I fall into abuse/reactions, like the so called leaders do, and we all make, or made before, the wrong decisions. I realize that I judge myself, both before and after making my decision and that my decision is wrong and bad anyhow.

Positive: I would like to make good decisions for the best of all. This is a word that I would like to practice well. I would like to see positive results from my decisions. I would like to smoothen my decision making so it is easy. Decisions can be done for what is best for all. And for that, we need change from today’s system, and I will stand up for that change and make it happen.

Creative writing:

Decisions is something that we make after weighing pro and cons. From investigating. To consider the question and outcome for the best of all. There are different decisions, like there is different cultures in this world. I realize that we need to change the whole picture of who is in charge of this world and to take away the world leaders of today. Like there is many “Johns” sitting at the computers and at their desks, in front of the TV screen, doing nothing but feeding the mind its energies, and not participating, in the world, not making actual decisions/change, being decided for from media/elite, simply passive sitting and not doing anything at all. They are ruled over from politicians making decisions for them. They are the salves of this world; they are, part of the 99 %.

The many John’s that are sitting thinking only of themselves, in leading positions, that is not for the good of all. The many Johns that are sitting in the different governments, and in the different chairs of power are not doing what is best for all. I realize that it is a cool solution to stand and make my voice be heard. I prefer to stand and be a change – without reacting/violence. I commit myself to the decision to change this picture so that all voices are heard and that no one is left out that would be real decision making and a community based on what is best for all. Decisions need not be that many or that hard like they are today. There would be fewer and fewer problems to solve in a future where everyone gets to speak. Decisions can be made easy, by letting everyone speak, and for the best of all, like with direct online democracy, where everyone participates. Equally. I realize that when I struggle to make a decision I can write pro and cons to figure out what to do and how to act in the given moment, over the question and then, also, slow down, and make my decision, based on what is best for all.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I make bad decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am programmed to make bad decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to make bad decisions and then blame it on the politician from how they make bad decision, in politics – failing to realize that politics is here now everyday all the time in real life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make decisions because of how I see politician of today make crappy and corrupt decisions that makes me fearful of making a single decision equally in my life, that might sound easy like to visit someone or to go swimming , or take a morning shower. It all becomes so damn hard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I consider it my big weakness to not be able to make good decision at all, and I would start to react within this question of making good decisions and I would judge myself as week and wrong because of how I see politicians as corrupt and wrong, and fearing to do the same myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of the word “there sits John” like, he (John) is a boss or a ruler of some kind and I would think of John the Baptist from the Bible, and how we would Baptize people in the water/river and I align this with how hard it could be to achieve good personal hygiene and to have a clean and cozy home, that is difficult for many, many people, that I would see is relevant for this word and the sounding of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear how people in power are really bad leaders and I would fear that they would should “do” much bad decision making, and that their decisions are harmful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make a decision for myself on the many different things that I can take part in within my life that I would fear to take part in because I would fear the decision making involved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame all the passive “Johns” out there for simply sitting doing nothing in front of the TV and not taking active part in changing this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to feel a urge to hide and suppress my desire for good decisions within my physical and within my being so that I am eventually ending up with a lot of surprised wrong decisions within me, feeling bad for making wrong decisions over how I would think of humanity and life as one, and think that I would corrupt myself by the idea of finding my answers from my thoughts and my thinking, which I would consider wrong, to go into thoughts/stress.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the believe that there is a certain awareness with the “sitting John” like “sitting bull”, that we are all waking up to a new era of time and a change in the wind like Bob Dylan would have said it in his song – and that we are the change we have been waiting for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I find that I need more time to make the right decision in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that in the future we would not need to decide that much because we would live like it was heaven – for all and everyone on this planet.

When and as I see myself, standing in front or a type of question or something where I need to make a decision and I notice resistance/fear. I stop, and I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that I need to take my time to make, the very best choice within a decision. I realize that I can write pro and con’s to the matter and to have the mathematical result of pro and con. I realize that I can gather my results from my experience of making a pie chart and looking at what factors that are there, and what is positive and what is negative and forgive for the charges, and release the energy that are charged within the pro and the con/result. I realize that I must take my time with this process of all my choices and my decisions. I commit myself to slow myself down within my decision making. I commit myself to slow myself down, within my decisions, and to take it more easy, and not stress or haste my decision/choice.

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