Munchin / Tormod
Hi. I am Tormod H. Gjedrem
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Thoughts during my day / an ordinary day’s thoughts and thinking would perhaps look like this list below. I have taken away one thought/backchats/voice from this list because of its content. It is to be considered private.
So this is the list that I came up with. I will work on self – forgiveness to loosen up and release the energy relation/addiction and the relation that keeps these thoughts pinning endlessly within my mind. And I will write self-corrections to actually live. I have these thoughts and backchats, and I realize that these thoughts have made me. I realize that these thoughts have been shaping my day and they have shaped me to what i am today. I realize my potantial if i can purify and direct my thought into only supprt myself. I am here working on purifying my thoughts. I will focus on taking part in activities, chores and work, and activly taking responsibility for myself and not bother with thoughts and backchats no more. Let it fly by and not stop within me. I will let thoughts be thoughts and rather focus on myself and breathe and let thoughts and backchats pas over me and not include myself in them no more.
Thoughts during a day could be :
- Humanity is sick. Sick and depraved.
- War is wrong – sick and wrong.
- Don’t be disappointed if you do not make it.
- Everyone needs help.
- Suicide is a crime.
- It is your own preprogrammed design.
- It is secrecy.
So.. self forgiveness 🙂
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from thoughts and backchats that I find disturbing or not nice because I don’t like what is being said or I don’t want to take responsibility for them, and I realize that when I separate myself from these thoughts and these backchats I am also separating myself from the responsibility within the thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to lose or give up the thought: “Humanity is sick. Sick and depraved” – and I realize that I fear letting it go it because I use it to create blame games and blame onto everyone else and projecting these thoughts within my head and my mind not taking responsibility for myself at all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the backchats and the energies where I participate within my mind, creating further thoughts and backchats within me that I take part in and participate with as I hear this sentence and I realize I go into possession over this thought and I need to stop myself from having my world turned into simply fear, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and reactions hiding within emotions, within my mind and I fail to realize that It is a part of the pre – program that I have been living and it is a part of the old world and the old system, that I have been taking part in. And it is a part of the design and the patterns that I have been placing onto myself and it is the design and the life that I have been living where I have been going through from school and from parents from TV, that would be telling me that thinking in itself it is in any ways liberating or meant to free me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within this thought “Humanity is sick, sick and deprived” when I see these mind components where I go into stress and into the core of my Schizophrenia with paranoia. Where I participate in thoughts, and indulge in these words to the extent where I realize that I am biting my own ass and I am sabotaging myself from going into reacting and giving thoughts power over me from the start.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the fear that I sense with taking on specific thought because I would fear to let go of them and live where I would fear to be responsible with myself from thoughts and thinking that I can indulge and live my life within the pre – program and having internal voices and talks within my head telling me that I could live within my old self and simply accept the abuse of the world and simply accept what goes on within so without. Instead I chose to take responsibility for myself and the world around me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the to participate with the backchats and the energies that react within me as I hear this words “Don’t be disappointed if you do not make it” and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the backchat make my own reality and my days to be filled with self-doubt and fear from projecting these thought over at A, B or C and thinking that I cannot have this sort of self-confidence because I must settle for less, to these backchats that I give myself from projecting this backchat onto X and crate this paranoid blame game within my head, completely removing myself from responsibility and what is real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my awareness that tells me that this sentence “ Don’t be disappointed if you do not make it” is telling me to settle for less which is not acceptable and something I would not agree upon at all. And I commit myself to refuse to settle for less and to keep pushing myself to be the best I can ever be.
I commit myself to push myself more within my writing and within my speaking as well and to be sure to slow down, and to practice this within responsibility and honesty.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear lose or give up the thoughts “War is sick, sick and wrong” where I participate and tell myself that this will make the war go away it is simply to project this backchats onto politicians and officials within my head, where I realize that I have the same opportunity to be that changing force within my life and within this world, and control the situation and change my participation within this thought and bring it back to myself and write and blog and blog out messages of equality and oneness so that I can be that leading character of change within my life and I commit myself to be that character of change and leadership to be a role model for others and to make a difference within my life on this earth. When I take on the thoughts within a backchat and I would project out this thought onto X because I would project onto her within my mind, where I fail to realize that I am only sabotaging myself with separating myself from this thought and not being responsible with myself at all. I commit myself to take responsibility for this sentence and all its content by actively write and speaking out against abuse and to participate with writing and using media to communicate and to make my voice off oneness and equality matter.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for fearing giving up all my thoughts because I would feel like I would lose power and control of my life and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to become something that I still have not experience and something I still have not yet lived.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I would fear to give into this positive backchat “Everyone needs help” and for projecting this backchat over to A, B, C, D and E and for thinking that A,B, C, D, or E needs to know that lots of people need help, were I realize that I would like to work more with giving people help and help with human rights within life and I commit to take responsibility for making sure that everyone that needs help, gets help and to push myself to push these programs that best serve life, and to work steady and committed with this.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to let go of this backchat because I would fear the change involved with letting go of backchats. I commit myself to realize that backchat is a part of me and my participations within the system and memories. I commit myself to take full responsibility for my backchats and my thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into this positive backchat with internal conversation where I tell myself that “Everyone need help” and I continue on saying yes that is true, and yes that is a fact, very right simply indulging myself within this thought and internal conversation that make me fall back into old pre – program and old design of myself and my old sins, where I realize that this backchat is myself that I take part within, from my memories and I realize that I must be true to the memories and to be true to myself and to life and take responsibility for my own backchats that occur within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to give up the thoughts “Suicide is a crime” because it feel safe and calming to realize this thought that tell myself like a comfort and correction, where I fail to realize that thoughts and thinking is really sabotaging as starting point and I should learn to speak my honest self instead of relying on thoughts to create my reality. At the same time I realize that it is essential to have some thoughts. It is needed by everyone to have some certain thoughts and I commit myself to purify mine so they best serve a perspective of equality and oneness. And so all life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to give up this thought “suicide is a crime” because I consider it cool or nice to have this security to sort of fall back on within myself and to have this insurance and imagined control of myself when failing to realize that thoughts and backchat are creating my frustration and my reality, in the first place.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I see that I must be pure in thought and I realize that I must work to manage this by acting in honesty and by taking responsibility for myself and by being an example for others to follow.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into energies to my thought that says “Jack” where I realize that I would fear to lose this thought / word, because I would imagine that it is like a life jacket for me when I consider the rest of the world and all the abuse that goes on, and I realize that I need something to place this phenomena on. It is simply blame and not responsible at all. I need this thought because I would face reality and challenges inn my way and I would need to have some sort of reason or someone to blame and realizing that It is a mind fuck and a blame game where I end up being the loser myself, biting my own ass, because of how I really on these thoughts, and I rally on my safe corners and my safe corners of creation that I do not want to change, and that I fear change.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to give up the thought “It is your own pre – programmed design” – because I would fear to lose the power within having this control thought and that it would make me feel powerful and mighty and I would fear to lose it because I would fear to lose control of myself and my reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like Jesus when I hear this thought “It is your own pre – program” and for thinking that I am him at this moment when I think this thought.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the reaction that is created within my mind when I realize how I do not want to wake up from my safe corers of creation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I have created a nest of safety where I do not want to expose myself or where I realize that I am trapping myself within secret mind within the depth of my thoughts and where I realize that I am hiding from honesty and self-responsibility by fearing telling people my honest opinion.
When and as I see myself separating myself from thoughts like backchats or voices, I stop and I breathe. I realize that all the different thoughts that I hear, come from me. I realize that I am the maker or my own thoughts; I realize that I must become responsible for my thinking and everything that goes on within me. I commit myself to take responsibility for everything that goes on within my life and I commit myself to take responsibility for my own life and I commit myself to purify my thoughts. I commit myself to be a leader within the world and within the life that I live. I commit myself to the fact that I am the creator of myself and my own future. I am the maker and the designer of my next second. I commit myself to be realistic and honest about this matter.
When and as I see myself going into reaction or fear from facing a chore or work, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I need chores and work to stabilize myself here as life. And I realize that I need to ground myself within being here as work and as physicality. I need some physical challenges every day. I realize that the more cool routines I can give myself to assist myself the better it is. I realize that chores and work is important for me to realize myself and bring myself into a physical here – ness and into realizing that my life matters, and that I can make a difference.
I commit myself to work out the coolest routines that I possibly can give to myself. I commit myself to work out in practically and inn chores and in work what I ned to work out to become more responsible with myself and I commit myself to give myself cool routines and work that is god for my body and work that is supporting my physical to realize that energies and mind and thoughts are mostly deceive and it is mostly not true and it is mostly deceive and it is here as breath that I can make a difference to create routines within my life and awareness with how I see that I am taking away energies that are related to situations or memories and I commit myself to achieve cool routines with myself and to create a world within myself for what is best for all. So within so without.
When and as I see that I go into fear from losing my safe haven, my comfort zone or my safe creational corner. I stop and I breathe. I realize that I must sometime stir that jar of my own comfort zone to realize that even though I am waking more and more within awareness I realize that most of humanity else is not. And that most of people still rely within belief systems and religion and money on conscious and fear and self-doubt. I realize that I need to be that Shepard to make people wake up, and to realize their full potential. I realize that I can be that source of creation to make people realize that self-forgiveness is a great key and a great tool to work with and for me to tell people that self-forgiveness is but a great chance to realize self. I commit myself to tell people honesty and I commit myself to share my experience of reality and of participating with how I see that life would want to be treated and I commit myself to share my story through my journey to life blog and to tell people that we need to move from conscious to awareness and what a great tool self-forgiveness really is.