Day 842 – a new canvas

 

I forgive myself as my beingness, my innocence, that I have accepted and allowed myself for living in a state of fear of starting on a “blank canvas” – to face the opportunity of a new start, a new creation and beginning, where I fear to make mistakes and to screw up – because I have done that so many times before. Within this I forgive myself as my beingness, my innocence, that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the many fundaments of support that are here, that I have discovered, that I have incorporated, that I have made mine, and that can serve me and support me –  they are here for me –  that I tend to ignore all the support systems, because I get so hung up in different emotions and reactions to my past mistakes and then chose to live in fear.

 

I forgive myself as my beingness, my innocence, that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to let go of my past – where I find some reason to always pick and judge over my past – like it is never good enough and I believe that life have to be hard and stressful, where I fail to see myself and my creation opportunity here – with starting to colour and create on a new canvas – that it is here for me to create and at the same time discover myself as this new canvas.

 

I forgive myself as my beingness, my innocence, that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider or take into me –  the systems and applications of support that are here, that I often forget I have and that is a part of me and who I am, where I forgive myself as my beingness, my innocence, that I have accepted and allowed myself to see many of these systems as something to feel shame over – that I would be shamed and embarrassed over using for example, self-forgiveness.

 

I forgive myself as my beingness, my innocence, that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face that clean, open, blank new start of something for me to dive into and create, and as much as I look forward to creating and building  – I fear to make the first move/touch and put my mark on something – since I fear to make mistakes and I fear to be judged.

 

 

 

Investigate: desteni

 

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