Day 766 – Bringing myself down from sharing and exposing myself online

Bringing myself down from sharing and exposing myself online

Today a troll brought out a demon in me. I shared a video from you tube, on steemit,  where I do a talk. The troll was attacking me and not my words and it was totally not a cool thing to experience. It hurt me.

So I challenged myself, after talking to my DIP(desteni i process) – buddy – to see what else was behind this point. And It goes to show that I judge myself for sharing myself. I would express something within a video or a comment and later judge myself for it. Thinking I expose myself to much, I should not say this’n that. Bringing myself down from raising my voice.

This buck stops right here! I will express and expose myself, my mind and my solutions and my living to everyone interested.

Check out self forgiveness at desteni.org – it can really change ones living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as “to much” and as a clown and silly or a looser for posting lots on facebook/else and for making myself a name, out there and sort of saying to the world “here I am” – and for thinking that I do this to much and that I over do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry with myself for seeing that I judge myself within not living my desires and my ideal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations of myself how I should be sharing and not – online

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to loos myself in depression from judging myself for not living this ieal and dream

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have unreal ideal and dreams about myself and life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like since my dream and expectations are not lived I fail and feel angry with myself for failing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I fail to live my desires and dreams and within thinking this – I start to judge my expression and experience online as wrong and bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I fail at expressing my core, depth or any taboo within where I judge myself thinking that I should do things differently and that I am not ok

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry with myself and within this anger I would bash out with my mind and loose myself into despair and isolation/depression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and lost in despair within self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face my own judgment – when I really just have to drop the whole judging thing and live !

It seam I judge myself for not living a perfect life. Like I have dreams or desires that are perfect (?) There is no need to judge. What so ever. There is however need to heal. So – dropping the judging and becoming life through self forgiveness.

Thanks !

Enjoy breathe !

 

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Check out the links:

http://desteni.org/

http://desteniiprocess.com/

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

https://eqafe.com/

https://warnomore.wordpress.com/

https://theendofpsychiatry.wordpress.com/

 

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