Day 721 – Apathy

Apathy

noun: apaty
lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the experience of apathy as I face my mind and refusing to let go of the conscious structure within me and the just doze off into imagination and depression/ apathy and to drift into inferiority and judgment from having lived this role of apathy for so many lives.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to remind myself that I can active solve this by focusing my awareness on something else, like massaging my hands and focusing on my insides and my breathe, and not drift into apathy/depression but forgive the experience and ground myself in self physical awareness, and rather treat myself good.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the downside of my past and my judgment and my imaginations where I end up like a looser no matter how I turn it and I am my own clown simply surfing into suffering / apathy and forgetting to be here/express and live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have favored apathy and depressed living thinking “This is me”, “I deserve this”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like the role I play within  – apathy since it is lesser painful than the schizophrenic experience I used to have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value apathy.

 

When and as I see myself drift into a moment/second of apathy and depression thinking everything is wrong etc… I stop myself I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that going into apathy will not help anyone at all, and it will only make life harder for my further on. I realize that at the same time I give these emotional energies to mind, and slave to mind through energies.

 

I commit myself to drive my attention away from apathy and depression, and rather massage my hands, sing  a song or do something good to myself, make a cup of tea,  focus on my breathing and a living word.

I commit myself to stop apathy/ depression from taking control of me. I commit myself to drive my attention over at something else and to not be a mind salve.

check out the links – enjoy breathe !

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desteniiprocess.com/

lite.desteniiprocess.com/

desteni.org/

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