Day 706 : Day 13 : Physicality and God

Day 13 of 21 days of walking with self forgiveness

 

 

I will take on the challenge from my brother : Gian Robberts on walking a 21 day trial of (only/daily) self forgiveness on points. I will walk these points of self forgiveness for self/world change during 21 days.

 

Here is Gain’s Blog :

http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.no

21 days of self forgiveness on key points.

The points will be that kind of relevant points as of this world and our living.

Money, sex, politics, work, religion, mind  and so on.

 

Day 13: Physicality and  God

 

Please read loud for best effect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physicality as more or less than what it is:  my body my natural body with flesh, skin, blood, organs and skeleton, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lost in the maze of what it represents from how I was brought up to be – lie – ve, that God was a external force and “someone else” except from  me, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to need 37 years to learn that my body is my “God”, my temple, my flesh is my God – like the Bible tells us.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame Christians who dare not realize or comprehend that the flesh is the God and, the body is the temple of the trinity of mind, body and being, and that is the answer to the riddle of God: (the math of God)  It is the physicality of man.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and blame other people why are stuck in thought patterns and thinking/mind with what they very correct experience in their head as “God”, that is a separation, sabotage of self with cutting a very small piece of muscle tissue of to “have a thought”  that entity and tiny piece of muscle is then the experience of a separate “God” entity who is like mighty and powerful from the experience of  mind, thinking, personalities, energies, polarity and psychology.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that just like “God” from my physical, and like the creators of existence, I am unlimited and a creator who can create a better life for all here on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate clearly between the God and the creators of mankind, and that to understand the complexity of this it is needed to study and investigate the desteni message.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim that within this, I don’t need to be – lie – ve in myself or in anything at all really since,  be – lie-  ves are just that : lies…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I have to share with other people my insight and how I try to tell everyone and also children about my experience and my findings so that they don’t have to go through so much hardness and suffering  like I did to realize this truth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to talk about this as I fear to  go into arguments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to confront my family with this as I fear to be stepping on their toes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find comfort and calamity with reading the Bible, since now I understand the world system  and it as myself and can read between the lines of mysticism and “hidden” messages.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  how I would despise and hate the Bible  because I did not understand it, and from school I was thought to hate/fear what I did not understand did wrong would haunt me long after.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to go back to my childhood years of  fear of seeing the moment of playing nude games with my second cousins and within that being caught at innocent play and how this along with my schizophrenia created a deep impact of trauma of sex and sexuality within my physicality and mind programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I own something to my second cousins, or anyone else, since I have fond self forgiveness to forgive myself and I would fear that they would be suffering and not have a cure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have addicted to self harm of my physicality/my body  with burning myself with hot water, as a ritual and addictive pattern to hurt myself and to be punished with self harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find euphoria and a “feel good” within burning myself with hot water and punishing myself and to have this sensationalism within this and that it would addict me to self harm.

This harming of my physicality have to end. It have addicted me for too long. Hereby I stop such deliberate self harm, and will not go at it again. I commit myself to not once again harm myself deliberate with hot water.

 

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