Worried over details/seemingly small things – personality.
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To implement the change that genuine is best for all to this earth, it takes some effort. One must psychologically convince other people the direction you are walking is the right direction. You must be certain that your direction is the best, safest and most honest, and then live that. It may sound easy but it takes some effort and strength. It is not done over night and we have to walk stead steps, day by day, until we finally reach our goal. A lot of work, compound, can look small inn the big picture. A lot of hours work can be compressed down to tiny details over space and time. This have had me go into worrying. Worrying that the little things that I see, is not accurate, that it is not perfect, not good enough, or that it shows failure and that it is not paying off. I worry over the, seemingly small things in life.
This personality is playing as of polarity, as very inferior, and seemingly weak, bad , wrong, judging myself, within the negative pole, and at the same time sort of trying and testing and sensing, still not giving up, in the positive end.
Details, small steps, and what could seem insignificant in the big picture that real is important because it is the everyday walking, working, pushing that eventually pulls through. It is that walking and working towards a further goal to reach perfection that drives humans. It is a part of compound interest.
I find within myself that I often go into worrying over the seaming small things. Things I cannot see. Thing that are hidden, like esoteric, the details that I make out to be worrying and sad or wrong. Judging myself for my own worrying.
It is a genuine fear that surrounds me of fearing that the effort will not be enough and that I do not have control of what other people are contributing of little things and I fear to fail.
I fail to see that I am pushing in the right direction and that I am doing what is best for all. I fail to see that I am living the best for all solutions. I fail to see that I am already living it.
I am also experiencing the common, “What if thoughts”, “What if this bad thing should happen” and “What if the skies fall down”. Further giving into fear and worrying.
So within my mind and personality I go through what could happen if things are not accurate and perfect in place. I have these balls or entities within me bouncing from side to side out of worry and fear is also let lose. It is a personality of worrying over small things. Failing to realize and clearly see that we are pulling in the right direction, and we are doing the correct stuff. It is simply these thoughts of “what if” – that I must learn to block out and stop participating within.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the moment when I feel like there is space or time to go into thoughts or thinking and I suddenly lose control of my mind and being, and I go into what if thoughts and worrying.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into feeling inferior and failure from thinking I will not succeed and I thinking, what I do or did, is not good enough and I should have done some details another way and I should have taken better time to do a better job, where I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear out of investigating details because of how I think there are ways to do things better, for what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into judging over imaginary faults and mistake that I convince myself that I have done, creating regret and anger within, where I judge myself for the past and for what I have been doing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately do mistakes out of thinking “What if thoughts ” and programming myself to do mistake and to sabotage myself with such reactions and such thoughts and within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to later judge myself for this programming within “What if thoughts” and doing mistake thereof.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry and feel like I am insignificant when I look at the big picture, and i fail to see my hours go work.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry over time and space.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry over things that are small.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to realize how I could trust myself to a further degree, by realizing self honesty and living self honesty on day to day basis.
When and as I see myself going into giving myself space and time to think, and sort of planning to go into thoughts deliberately. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that I should find myself within self honesty and to rather use time to study and to learn new things, repeat things to myself learn new words, new skills and go for walks in self honesty. I realize that I thoughts will eventually trick me with it overload and egoism. I commit myself to breathe awareness and to self honesty, in my daily life. I commit myself to learn new thing every day and to embrace and forgive, what is here, esoterically, and physically and express myself as I breathe inn and out. I commit myself to stop living this personality of fear and worry, that is not supporting me at all. I commit myself to live in breathe awareness and to live my fullest potential. I commit myself to self honesty.
When and as I see myself keep going back at a point that I am working with and I get frustrated because I keep going back over and over again. I stop myself, I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that if there is like a alarm that keeps going of I need to go back, and reinforce that point and empower myself. I realize that it is a process to walk to commit to cover all energies and all dead – ends and all the mistakes from before, I realize that It is my chore to clean up my old mess that I have been living. I realize that I must take responsibility for myself by forgiving all and every minute detail of my past – that is energetic and loaded. I commit myself to listen if there are any alarms going of that I need to handle.I commit myself to go back and cover all areas so that I eventually can breathe more clear and more pure, without that much pain/friction within myself/my chest. I commit myself to not worry over details that are alarming and simply take action to embrace and delete them, and release the energy from the memory/case.I commit myself to work through all details of my past without worrying.
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