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Here I am dealing with my relations to the word sickness. I have been using this word a lot within my writings, so it is time I clear my relations to it.
First I will flag point this word: sick/sickness, and then I will redefine it according to how I see myself within this word.
1. Flag point word sickness.
I am making a flag point on the word sickness. Which means that I am giving time to it and focusing on my relations to – and dealing with it, with total focus. I have been using this word sickness allot without reason, and I need to correct my points of how I and using this word. I have been saying that everything and everyone is, sick and that since everything is sick and so am I, so comes around goes around.
So above so below, what I have been criticizing have become real and I have had to face allot of stress and negative energies within me form what I would call for abuse or sickness of this word.
What is Self-forgiveness?
It is the process by which an individual forgives oneself for accepting and allowing self to separate from objective reality, releasing positive and negative value judgments such as good or bad, right or wrong, positive or negative – as subjective interpretations of reality regarding something or someone that leads to stability as breath.
– June Roca
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to realize that as I have been going around and writing this word like “This is sick” or “That is sick” or “It is all sick” I have created a mind construct of negativity and a mind – set of emotions and simply bad and sick stuff like it have been hitting me back in my face like karma.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I have created a negative and demon energy within my path and my walking also that my process have become more difficult and harder, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I have created consequences for others within the environment and within their lives.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think to to myself that I need to stop criticizing everything as sick and for judging myself for using this word so often.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say that everyone what lives and exists in this system is sick to and I realize that I have been criticizing the system, and simply acting mean and cruel in my words and in my thinking and also in that been blaming bugs and animals and all life as sick without reason.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say to A and B that you are sick for not revolting or speaking up against the system and creating this tone of negativity and emotions around me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this word sickness on everything around me where I go and I realize that I am not using this word in a proper way, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself because of how I use this word with or without intention.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for how I have been acting with simply being negative and criticizing everything and being a grump to it all and how this have hit me back like karma with my own negative energies.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have created lot of negativity and consequences within my life and so above so below stating that I am responsible for my own consequences that I make and I realize that I have to take responsibility for my own words and my own acting.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I have not been able to make a choice within moving and deciding where to live that I relate to serving myself negative energy and creating a mind of demon energy around me and simply being negative to all and everything around me where it eventually slaps me in the face with making bad choices like karma.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I realize that the longer I have postponed to write this self forgiveness on this point the more karma have simply hit me and taken part of me with hallucinations and pictures and consequences within my head and my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people in my physical around me for been sick, as I fail to realize that I am the one that is sick in the end from screaming it and from calling it I eventually end up like that myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself because of how I use the word sick and the I see it come right back to me and slap me in the face like a bad karma.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed how I see this pattern repeat in front of me with so within so without and I end up with endless blame and judging myself severely until I become totally possessed with this word sickness.
When and as I see myself about to say or write this word sickness. I stop and I breathe. I realize that there is nothing wrong with using this word it is simply the fact that I have been over – using it, and even if everything is pretty sick there is no point on calling it all the time, it because it will slap me back in my face eventually, and create consequences with my life. I realize that this word builds upon within me like anger or sadness and I need to write out and I need to speak out self forgiveness and self corrections, and I realize that if I let negative energies grow within I am creating negative outflow without of me. I realize that I must be careful with my words, and use my words in a way that is best for all. I must be genuine and stay true to my words, I must be responsible with them, I commit myself to a further degrees consider the words that I use and to be considerate with what I say and how I say it. I commit myself to slow down my speaking and writing. I commit myself to balance my words and to consider what I say at all times.
2. Redefying words: Sickness
Sickness according to this online dictionary:
1. A particular disease or malady.
2. The state or an instance of being sick; illness.
3. Nausea; queasiness.
Redefying words. In this world (or inn the word we live…) we live and literally feast of each other, one person’s death is another man’s feats sort of. It is within this world that we live and practice the system of capitalism or socialism or communist, fascism, matrix, consumerism, whatever you call it, it is still a system and it is still not serving what is best for all. The system that we live under is giving to the 1 % and more to the 00,1 % and even more power and gold to the 000000,1% and so on. Enough is enough. We have to change. Totally, we have to change the way we live and we have to change the system of how we are slaves to. So I will change my relationship to this word: sickness.
What happens when I hear this word sickness? What are my reactions?
First I see little children begging for food, begging to be seen begging to have care and health education and safety. Basic human rights: (link equal life fundations human rights) These littel children and young toddlers that are so fragile and so in danger at the same time. Then what i se is this; big mouth of some person that could have been I, simply feasting away from a plate and from a dinner or food and abundance. I see him, like I have seen myself thousands of times and just having a party with good and healthy food in abundance.
And then I hear this voice, calling for balance, calling for equality, calling for justice. It is screaming and yelling like life matters and it obviously does.
From the word sickness I see that people grow selfish and egoistic and full of greed. But from what? They, the elite like I is growing more and more egoistic because of the system thought them to. The system thought them to be selfish and greedy, so there is no wonder how they became so greedy.
It is a part of the pre – program. Butt still that is where most of my relations to this word are. The word sickness is telling me that the system is out of balance. The young African toddlers cannot help that they do not have enough to eat. But the greedy person shuffling food into ones moth can change. It is possible to step down from the ladder of greed and egoism and learn to share. It is what I am doing. Today. Here. So the word sickness is sort of explained by someone’s need or desire to have, have , have, have and simply have more food, more cars, more planes, more TV etc. – and not even looking back at who have little or less. That is where sickness lies, to me. This is the cradle of sickness. To ignore the status and to deny what is in front of ones awarness. Within what is ever explained as pre- program and design of humankind. Enslavement actually. To understand more about the enslavement of human kind I suggest to start investing time with reading, and listening to desteni videos and to start a process with one or more of the desteni.org platform programs. Se links:
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History of mankind on youtube:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself and my task as hopeless since there is millions and literally billions of people living within the pre – programed design and living within a religions of consume and desire to fulfill ones ego and I would consider my task of trying to make people wake up and take responsibility, for a to big job, where I realize that my job is more important and the sooner or later it is simply a matter of time and lives saved. And by doing that taking away the elements of pre- programmed egoism, like I am doing here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that everyone is sick because of someone’s greed and someone’s not willing to change or to share or to care for others. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I see that almost all of humanity and only humanity as I experiences it, lives in sickness and lives in egoistic greed and selfish desires and wants. More and more and not stopping.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I have eventually considered myself as sick from calculating everyone in the sickness and calculating everyone to be a apart of the enslavement design and to judge and lash out onto humanity and to lush and judge on to myself not getting any – where and not getting to any sort of point or common sense at all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that “fuck this shit” and “I give up” and “This task is too great for me”. Where I realize that I am projecting this backchat onto A,B,C,D and by doing so taking away my responsibility for the backchats and the thoughts and I further realize that I need to take responsibility for myself and for my action and to be responsible with myself at all times 100%.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself how I see that it is the programming and enslaving of humankind that leads to starvation, hunger, wars, poverty crime etc., and I realize that I am hereby taking responsibility by investigating a closer look at this word; sickness, and my relation to this word and to realize how everyone need to learn and to be informed that we have been enslaved and we are living with in this programming of a reality, through matrix for oh so long and we need to smell the coffee and change our way and our path.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself as no longer a part of this issue or this relation or being sick, within those enslavement part of the system because I know what we have to do, and I am more and more living the change that I need to be within this life. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself as awoken and myself when I am just a normal guy and I am simply doing what is commons sense and I am simply doing what everyone would have been doing inn my place – if awaken.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word sickness as the apart of human kind that will not look back at the suffering and the crime and the abuse that is going on within this world and I realize that this word now means something like ignorance or ignoring what is going on and that have been taking place with humanity, and on this earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to defy this word sickness because it would relate to world leaders and how they are corrupt and hushing things and suppressing things within the system and they are really the point and the outflow of sickness in suits and dresses – representing the sickness as they are.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of myself as some kind of Jesus or some kind of savior to this world when I realize that I am not Jesus I am myself and I know what I need to do to “cure” this sickness and I know what I practically and physically must do and bring equality to life.
Like Bernard Poolman said about physical work and how we will not give up fighting for equality: ”Do easy work like it is hard, so will the hard work become easy.”
When and as I see myself wondering about this word sickness, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this word sickness is related to the ignorance of what is actually taking place within this world. I realize that this word sickness is to me related to people trying to quiet down or to hide and suppress. I realize that this word is very must related to the ignorance a suppressing from the old leaders of this world. I realize that this world sickness is related to all the ignorance and lying from people and especially people avoiding truth and honesty. I commit myself to expose the old leaders and to bring equality to all on this earth to eventually take apart in life equally like sister and brothers.
I commit myself to be voice again the sickness and to bring honesty and equality and oneness to life.